MATEO

Have you ever had to sit by and watch the love of your life meet the love of his life? Have you had to sit there and pretend you were oh-so okay with it? Because, you know, you were supposed to have moved on by now.

Yeah right.

I am drowning and spiralling, living my life so deeply in the closet I can hardly see for all the fear and internalised hangups. My career as a top model is right within my grasp too if only I can see past my family's judgement and disapproval and reach for it.

And then Jamie steps into my life in the most dramatic of ways, the sexy paramedic from the town next door who is about to shake things up for me in ways I never saw coming. He's pretty much perfect in every way and I can't fight the allure we both seem to have for each other, the one that makes me break all my rules.

But can I ever shake my heartache to let Jamie capture my heart and give him the love he deserves? He keeps telling me I'm worth it. But I don't know if I can believe him.