13. Torin

Chapter 13

Torin

Holy shit. I forgot how hot this movie was. I really hadn't watched it in a very long time, and having Torin sitting right next to me while two supposedly straight guys went at it on the screen was a real mindfuck.

I'd been hard as a rock since I sat down beside Joss, and after an hour, it was starting to hurt. I readjusted the blanket so I had some space to press my hand over my dick and put some pressure on it to take the edge off.

But Joshua glanced in my direction and scoffed, making it even worse. Or better. No, definitely worse. "So, have you had a lot of boyfriends over the years?" What the fuck kind of question was that? The kind of question I didn't actually want the answer to.

Joss shifted his weight under the blanket as well. "A few. Some more serious than others." He cleared his throat and sighed. "The last guy I was with was a little too…dominant for me."

I turned and raised an eyebrow. "You don't like dominance?"

"Oh, I like it, for sure. But I guess maybe rough is a better word to describe him. He was a bit more of a disciplinarian than I like." Joss nudged my shoulder and waggled his eyebrows. "I like a sweet and cuddly Daddy, as you know."

Fuck me. I fully grabbed my shaft and gave it a few tugs, not even caring that Joshua obviously noticed the movement. He wasn't ignorant to what I was doing.

I looked him in the eye, hoping his gaze would stay locked with mine so he wouldn't notice what was happening beneath my blanket.

Joss and I had just started to explore kink in high school. There were some websites that gave us more of an education than was probably appropriate for high schoolers barely past losing our virginity. But we quickly discovered where we fell on the kink charts, and I was firmly in the Daddy Dom range, and Joshua was solidly submissive with service tendencies. That was certainly still true today. My boy liked to take care of us.

I rolled my eyes at myself for that ridiculous thought. He was not my boy. Hadn't been for a long time and maybe never would be again. "Did he hurt you?"

Joss shrugged and shook his head. "No, he was fine. Just didn't work out. No happily ever afters for me."

I caught the edge in his voice as he crossed his arms and looked back toward the TV. "I'm happy that you found someone, even if it was short-term. That's better than never finding love at all. Or so I've been told."

I tried to watch the movie again, but there was still so much to say. I reached back to where my hand had been resting on his neck and teased the hairs there. "Yeah, I'll always be grateful for my time with Stacy, but it's becoming more and more obvious that what she and I had is not what…" I motioned toward the TV. "Well, what Jack and Ennis had." I squeezed his neck. "Or what we had."

Joss sucked in a deep breath and blew it out. "Seriously, Torin? Are you trying to torture me? It's one thing to be flirty and tease you with a sexy movie, but you're playing dirty. Telling me I meant more to you than we both know is true is just mean. And you've never been mean. Well, except for the one time."

Fuck, I would never live that down. And I didn't deserve to. "And you've never deserved anyone to treat you like anything other than the perfect boy you are."

His head swiveled to face me. "Don't tease me, Torin. Please." His voice broke and it almost broke me.

"Joshua." I pulled him closer and wrapped my arms around him, holding him in a way I hadn't done in so long.

His fingertips dug into my ribs and then finally his palms relaxed and spread across my back. "Please, Torin. I can't do that again."

"Neither can I. I can't deny you any longer." I chuckled and laid on my heaviest accent as I mimicked Jack from the movie. "I wish I knew how to quit you."

Joss chuckled and pulled me tighter to him. "I wish you wanted to keep me forever."

I lowered my lips to the crook of his neck and pressed a soft kiss there. "I'm beginning to think maybe I do." I kissed up to his earlobe and whispered into his ear, "Would you let me try again? Would you let me try to be a better man for you this time?"

His breath hitched as he slowly pulled back and looked up at me. "Do you mean it? Do you really want to be with me again?" Joss swallowed hard, and he sucked in a quick breath. "Like, in public. Or just at home?"

My eyes drifted shut as I pressed my forehead to his. "I'm so fucking sorry for the way I treated you. But I'm grown up now, Joss, and I understand my feelings a lot better. At least, I'm starting to. And I don't give a fuck what other people think about me, including my parents. I would be so proud to show you off to the world and to let them all know you're helping me raise Bella."

A choked sob escaped his throat as a tear fell from each of his eyelids. "I want that so fucking bad, Torin."

I cupped his cheek and brushed my thumb across his smooth skin. "May I kiss you, Joshua? The way I've been dying to kiss you since you first showed up here."

He nodded almost imperceptibly and leaned forward slightly, forcing me to close the distance as I pressed our lips together.

Finally. Fucking finally.