12. Joss

Chapter 12

Joss

There wasn't anything else left for me to clean, and after giving Torin the bottle, I really had nothing to do other than wait around. I took a quick shower and had a clarity wank to hopefully not embarrass myself during our Netflix and chill night, but that didn't take nearly long enough either.

I was always close to the edge when Torin was being nice to me or brushing past me or holding me and kissing my head.

What the hell was that anyway?

That kind of comfort and care was beyond employee and employer. Really, it was beyond friends too.

The way he held me was intimate. Loving.

Fuck! I turned off the water and started to dry myself as my dick began getting hard once again.

I went through my dresser and found a pair of underwear that was tight. Too tight. I hated wearing them because they gave me a stomachache after a while. But tonight, I needed the extra support, and at the last minute, I grabbed a second pair and slipped them on too. Two barriers trying to keep my dick under control had to be better than one at keeping my hard-on from tenting the front of my sweats. Then I grabbed a T-shirt before heading out to the couch.

I picked up a book about babies' first year at the library and was combing through that when Torin walked in, fresh out of his own shower with drops of water still clinging to the tips of his light blond hair.

A smile instantly covered my face when I saw him in black sweats and a gray T-shirt because he was wearing almost the exact same outfit I was wearing. "Hey, we're twinning."

He looked down at himself then back at me and grinned. "Yeah, I checked the nanny cam in your bedroom to see what you were wearing before I got dressed."

My jaw dropped and my heart jumped right into my throat as I stared at him.

"I'm kidding, Joss." Torin burst out laughing. "I promise, no nanny cam in your room or anywhere else. Just the one over the crib that you have access to."

I smiled, but wasn't entirely sure if I should believe him. Then I decided I didn't really care. If he wanted to watch me sleep, he totally could. And if he wanted to mess with me, two could play at that game. "Well, if you were watching me, you'd be getting quite a show every night."

Now it was his turn to be shocked and wide-eyed. "Oh yeah?" Instead of moving to the armchair or the far end of the couch I was sitting on, Torin sat down in the middle of the couch, right beside me. With one knee up on the cushion so he was facing me, he slung his elbow over the back. "What kind of shows would I be getting?"

Fuck, we were really doing this. "Well, did I tell you I'm a nudist now? As soon as I get into the room, I take off all my clothes. Then I usually do a little exercise. Ya know, jumping jacks, burpees, situps, some good ol' calisthenics." I looked him in his eyes. "Floor work. Lots of floor work."

"Floor work." I wouldn't have heard his whispered words if I wasn't watching his mouth move.

My lips started to twitch, but I could tell Torin was getting hot from the visual, so I kept going. "And then, I usually take a shower to wash all the sweat off me." I ran my hand down the side of my belly then over toward my cock. "I don't know if you remember how sweaty I can get in certain places. And after that, I go back to the room and attach the suction cups to both sides at once to get every last drop of milk out before I lean back in bed…" I paused for dramatic effect and then shrugged nonchalantly. "After I pump, I usually get hard. It's just a biological thing, but if I have time, I take care of that, then read or watch TV until I fall asleep."

Torin's hand was casually resting in his lap, but I could tell he was trying to subtly adjust himself without drawing any attention to his movements.

Turning away to give him a moment of privacy, I reached for the remote and flipped on the TV. "So, what do you wanna watch?"

It took him a second to clear his throat and turn his body so he was facing the TV. He pulled a blanket off the back of the couch and positioned it on his lap, leaving half of it piled up beside him, presumably for me to use. "You can pick. Whatever you're in the mood for."

I considered my options and decided if I was going to push him, this was the night. It might be the last night I lived in his house, but with the day I'd had, I needed nothing more than for him to hold me again, maybe steal a kiss if he was feeling nostalgic. "Maybe something old-school. Brokeback Mountain?"

His breath hitched and then he chuckled softly. "Fuck, Joshua. I haven't seen that since the weekend I stayed at your house when your parents were out of town."

Also known as the best weekend of my life. I searched through three streaming services before I found the movie and hit play. "Yeah, I haven't seen it in a long time either." I glanced at him and sighed. "It always made me think of you, so…"

The arm that had been perched over the back of the couch, straightened out and landed across my shoulders. Torin pulled me to his side briefly, and then righted me but still didn't remove his arm. He slid his hand over until it was cupping the back of my neck with a solid grip. "You know, I don't think I ever really got over you, Joshua."

I hit pause on the movie while the credits were still rolling and looked at him with a sharp eye. "I think marrying a woman and having a baby with her would suggest that you did."

Torin screwed his eyes shut in pain, but still shook his head a single time. "Just because I was able to love Stacy and planned to build a life with her doesn't mean I ever stopped caring about you. I didn't think I'd ever see you again, so I had to move forward with my life, obviously." He opened his eyes and raised an eyebrow at me. "But you were always there. In the back of my mind."

I choked out a pissed-off scoff. "Yeah, always in the back of the room. Hidden. A dirty secret." I pulled away from him. "Let's just watch the movie." I thought about it for a second and then tossed him the remote. "Actually, put on whatever you want. Maybe a horror movie would be better."

"No way." He hit play and put the remote on the far side of the couch so I couldn't reach it. "I want to watch this tonight." Torin glanced at me briefly then looked forward again. "With you."