Chapter 33

Holy fuck. Every nerve ending in Cass's body erupted at those three simple words. Yet, coming from Rebecca's mouth, they were anything but simple. Especially now. But Cass couldn't deny she needed this as much as Rebecca did. It didn't matter if it was for entirely different reasons. Cass lowered her lips to Rebecca's, her body tense from the effort to maintain her self-control.

Rebecca's knees were perilously close to buckling as Cass's lips got closer. She couldn't remember ever feeling this incredibly sexy and passionate. When Cass's lips touched Rebecca's, the past disappeared. There was only here and now. And the sensations Cass caused throughout Rebecca's body with a mere kiss.

Their tongues touched, and the electricity between them ignited. Rebecca's hands fisted in Cass's hair, and Cass's arms tightened around Rebecca's waist, crushing their bodies together.

Stay calm, Cass. Don't scare her.

Is this what this should feel like?

"If you need to stop at any point, babe, don't be afraid to tell me, yeah?"

Rebecca nodded, mesmerized by the way Cass looked at her. There was so much love in those bi-colored eyes it was almost frightening for someone who didn't know what to do with that kind of emotion. On the flip side, it gave Rebecca the courage to keep going without fear.

"Do you always look at me like that? Like you're about to devour me?"

Cass grinned. "Absolutely. Mostly because I am."

Rebecca's eyebrows slowly rose as the realization of what Cass said hit her. "As in… literally?"

Taken aback by Rebecca's question, Cass loosened her grip ever so slightly. Why did the thought of Cass going down on her surprise Rebecca? "Literally. Your scent and taste are aphrodisiacs for me, Becca."

A small moan escaped from Rebecca at the same time her pussy contracted. Cass hadn't even touched her yet, and Rebecca was sure she would explode at any second. "I don't mean to sound so… prudish. It's just that subs don't usually get that kind of pleasure."

Cass cupped Rebecca's cheek, stroking her thumb across the soft skin. "You're no longer a sub, baby, remember? You run the show. And I'm privileged to be the one that gives you that kind of pleasure. I enjoy the fuck out of it." She dropped her hands and hooked her thumbs in the waistband of Rebecca's shorts. "I can never get enough of you." She hesitated a beat. "May I?"

Rebecca felt the little tug at her shorts, and her heart rate spiked so high she was surprised she didn't have a heart attack.

"Yes."

Rebecca greedily helped by slipping her shirt off while Cass kneeled and slowly pulled Rebecca's shorts down. The back of her knuckles caressed Rebecca's shaky legs the entire way. So many different sensations coursed through Rebecca that she was sure she couldn't feel any more aroused than she already was. Then Cass pressed her nose to Rebecca's sex and inhaled deeply.

"Fuck!"

Rebecca didn't know if that came from her or Cass, and at this point, she didn't care. She certainly didn't care who let out a guttural groan when Cass slipped her tongue between the lips of Rebecca's pussy.

"I'm going to fall," Rebecca warned breathlessly.

"I won't let you," Cass said, repeating the same words she had said to Rebecca the first time around. She took her sweet time getting to her feet, allowing her tongue a tasty journey on the way up Rebecca's body while keeping a firm grip on Rebecca's hips to steady her. "Do you want to go upstairs?"

Rebecca laughed softly. "I don't think I'll make it up the stairs. And if you pick me up while I'm naked like this…" She shook her head. "Same result, different reason."

Cass chuckled. "Couch it is. It's not like this couch hasn't seen its share of action." She gently nudged Rebecca down, then whipped off her clothes so Rebecca would feel less vulnerable. She was mindful of the first time they made love and how Rebecca reacted to Cass being on top of her. "Is it okay if I lay with you?"

Rebecca stared at Cass's naked body. If she got any wetter, they would need a few towels to help clean up. "Hmm?"

Cass sucked her lips in, biting her top lip to keep from laughing. She gestured to the empty space next to Rebecca. "May I lay with you?"

Rebecca nodded and scooted over to give Cass's long, hard, tattooed, sexy body more room. Thank god the room was cool with the amount of heat that radiated from both of them.

"I'm not being very sexy, am I? I don't know why I feel like this is my first time."

Cass linked her fingers with Rebecca's. Despite Rebecca's… needs, Cass didn't want to rush this for fear it might be too much for Rebecca to handle.

"The day you agreed to come home with me to be together outside of the Pink Room, I told you I wanted to make love to you."

"I – don't know how."

"That's what you said then. I offered to teach you just as you taught me to be your sub."

Rebecca made a face. "I'm not used to that yet. But you must've been a wonderful teacher if I married you."

"We both were. And we're still learning." Cass brought Rebecca's hand to her lips, softly kissing the knuckles. "You had trouble with me being on top of you that day. How do you feel about that now?"

Rebecca adjusted her position, laying on her back. "We won't know until we try." She was pretty impressed with herself. Here she was, naked with the most handsome woman she'd ever laid eyes on and having a full-on conversation as though they were sitting in a quaint cafe having coffee. She wasn't bashful about her lack of clothes. She wasn't embarrassed about her scars. In Cass's arms, she was safe, loved, and desired. Rebecca felt that in her soul.

Cass slowly rolled on top of Rebecca, bracing her arms to support the majority of her weight. She positioned her thigh between Rebecca's legs which meant her throbbing pussy was currently resting on Rebecca's soft skin. The last time she and Rebecca were together was the night before her surgery. That felt like an eternity ago. How Cass was able to stay calm and gentle said a lot about her true feelings for her wife. Love not only invited passion, but it also offered patience. It was Cass's job to know which one Rebecca needed at any given moment.

"Good?"

Rebecca breathed in, her hips lifting as she did so. "So good," she gasped, reaching up to tap Cass's arms. "You're shaking. You can put more weight on me, Cass. I'm okay."

Hearing Rebecca call her Cass reminded Cass just how delicate this situation was. If she made one wrong move, Rebecca could easily be triggered by a distant past that wasn't so distant to her.

"You'll tell me if it's too much?"

"I promise."

Cass lowered herself even more. Rebecca's pillowy soft breasts pressed against Cass's, their hard nipples competing for dominance. Cass's small breasts didn't put up much of a fight. They submitted to Rebecca almost as quickly as Cass had.

"You feel so good. I've missed you, Becca." Cass's lips were a breath away from Rebecca's, waiting for another invitation.

"Would you believe me if I said I've missed you, too?" Rebecca trailed her fingernails down Cass's back to that firm ass. "I can't explain it, but this feels… right."

"Because it is." Cass dipped her head and kissed Rebecca again. She felt Rebecca's body relax beneath her, and that was enough of an invitation for Cass to deepen the kiss. They moved together in a familiar rhythm, even so, Cass could feel Rebecca's motions were still hesitant.

Cass moved to Rebecca's ear, nibbling and sucking. She paid keen attention to every breath, every sound, every move Rebecca made as Cass continued her journey of tasting every inch of Rebecca's body. Her tongue scorched a trail from that sensitive part of Rebecca's neck that always elicited a reaction to the swell of Rebecca's breast.

Oh, she would take her time here. Cass took Rebecca's taut nipple between her teeth, looking up at Rebecca as she did. The bites weren't enough to bring pain but just enough to make Rebecca writhe beneath her. Then she sucked the nipple into her mouth, flicking her tongue over it at the same time.

Rebecca's hips bucked, and her breath hitched in response. Since her hands had lost their resting place on Cass's ass, Rebecca fisted them in Cass's hair, urging her on. The feelings racing through Rebecca were overwhelming, as though every cell in her body was on fire. Cass's lips were so soft against her skin, contrasting the heat of her breath and tongue. Her hands were a study of how something so strong could be so incredibly gentle.

Cass spread Rebecca's legs, fitting her shoulders between them and wrapping her arms underneath Rebecca's thighs. This was her happy place. She knew she missed being with Rebecca, but the magnitude of what they had both been robbed of just hit her. She laid her head on Rebecca's inner thigh and took a moment to be grateful that even though Rebecca still hadn't regained her memory, she trusted Cass enough with this intimacy. She was well aware of how lucky she was that their separation was short in the grand scheme of things, but Cass and Rebecca were anything but ordinary. Hopefully, Rebecca would forgive her for prolonging this special moment.

"Are you okay?"

Cass looked up from her position between Rebecca's legs and smiled. "I'm in heaven." She lowered her head and kissed Rebecca softly, hearing a small gasp coming from her wife at the tender gesture. Cass had the opportunity to give Rebecca a second chance at a "first time," and Cass was determined to make it memorable. With her fingertips, Cass spread Rebecca's lips and dipped her head again to suck in Rebecca's clit.

"Oh my god!" Rebecca's body jumped at the contact, her hands contracting even tighter in Cass's hair. Had she ever felt something so exquisite? Obviously, she had with Cass. How in the fuck had she forgotten this? This was un-fucking-forgettable. She dug her heels into the couch, lifting her hips, desperate for more.

And Cass gave it to her. She didn't know if it was muscle memory or just instinct, but Rebecca was always good at demanding and pleading for more with her body than her words. Of course, Cass loved the words, but she could wait for those to come back as long as she could still feel the passion and desire. And taste it, she thought as Rebecca's essence filled her mouth. Rebecca was wetter than Cass expected, given the circumstances, which was a lovely surprise. She'd be lying if she said she wasn't just a little nervous about how into this Rebecca would be.

Cass maneuvered her right arm out from under Rebecca's thigh. By this time, the way Rebecca was writhing beneath her mouth, Rebecca — or Mistress — would be prompting Cass to use her fingers. So, going with her gut, Cass slowly slipped one finger inside Rebecca.

"Mmm." Rebecca bit her bottom lip. She wanted to cry out, wanted to tell Cass she needed more, but Rebecca couldn't get the words out. Something was… blocking her voice. Whatever that hangup was, it wasn't affecting the pure pleasure Cass's mouth and finger were creating. More!

Cass felt Rebecca spread her legs even further apart and knew exactly what she needed. Still, she played it cautiously, inserting just one more finger instead of her usual three — or four if Rebecca was feeling particularly horny. Cass curled her fingers, hitting that one spot that always made Rebecca explode, using the flat of her tongue on Rebecca's clit at the same time.

Rebecca cried out, stunned by what was happening to her. It was all… too much. "Wait!" Cass immediately stopped, withdrawing her fingers. She started to move, but Rebecca stopped her. "No, don't leave, please," Rebecca begged. "I-I just need a second. What you're doing," she swallowed the lump forming in her throat. "It feels amazing." Rebecca scoffed at how ordinary that word was compared to the extraordinary things happening to her. "I don't know what to do or say," she confessed softly.

"What do you mean?"

Rebecca pushed Cass's hair back from her face to look into those beautiful eyes. "I feel so much, but when I try to tell you… I'm afraid."

Cass took Rebecca's hand, bringing it to her lips to kiss her palm. "When you said wait just then, what did I do?"

"Y-you stopped."

"Did I hesitate?"

Rebecca shook her head.

"Am I upset?"

Another shake of the head.

"You don't have to be afraid of me, baby. I won't hurt you." Cass kissed Rebecca's hand again to drive home that point. "As far as what to do or say, there's no script. There are no rules. All you need to do is let go. I'm yours, Becca. Give yourself to me."

Rebecca pulled her hand from Cass's and cupped her cheek. "Taste me again," Rebecca whispered. Cass didn't hesitate to oblige. "Inside," Rebecca murmured.

Cass slipped two fingers back inside Rebecca, adding a third when she heard Rebecca gasp for more. She continued savoring Rebecca, building that climax back up with ease. She knew Rebecca's body well enough to tell how close Rebecca was. She just hoped Rebecca could let go of the past and inhibitions long enough to surrender to Cass.

"Oh god!" Rebecca's hands took up residence in Cass's hair again, pulling Cass impossibly closer. She couldn't get enough. Rebecca felt the pressure build up inside her, and it took a lot of willpower not to stop. To allow herself to do as Cass asked and let go. Give yourself to me. Rebecca cried out as the orgasm slammed through her, curling her toes, contracting her muscles, and…

"You're the only one who's ever made me do that, Cassidy."