Chapter 4

Chapter Four

Claire

"I can't believe that he is going on a date with me." I am gushing to Sasha as I get ready, kind of fretting over what I'm going to wear because I have no idea if I'm going to be fine, "I thought for sure that he wasn't even going to give me a chance but it's like he decided to change his mind last minute. I hope that maybe this relationship can go a lot farther."

"How much farther do you think it'll go?" Sasha asks me, raising an eyebrow, "he might like you but unfortunately that doesn't mean that your relationship will go well. If anything, he might end up rejecting you later on… Just don't get your hopes up until you are for sure in a relationship together."

Staring at him, I can't help but wonder if I really might end up regretting everything. I don't think I will when it comes to Hayden, seeing how he is the nicest man that I have met. When I look at him, it's like nothing that I have ever seen and all I can think about is how close I want him to be next to me. I want him to be mine and I don't want anything standing in my way either way because it would be the wrong thing that I do.

I think that I have come to the conclusion of that already.

I just hope that he feels the same way.

"What are you going to do for you date?" Sasha asks me curiously, her lips curving into a small smile as she looks at me with amusement, "I mean truthfully, I don't know what Hayden is interested in and it feels like he is going to end up sending you down another path."

I don't know what to say because I honestly don't know, "I don't really know. Truthfully, I keep asking myself if I'm doing this the right way and if I'm going to end up being alright. I just want to keep winning him over, but I don't know if it is going to happen. I don't know if I'm going to love him either… I just want him close to me, that is what my wolf is screaming at me."

From the minute that I laid eyes on him, I knew that Hayden had to be mine. It was such an odd feeling, one that drove me crazy and one that made me wonder a lot more. I wasn't sure what was going to end up happening after that, but I was pretty sure that it was going to be okay. If I wasn't, I don't know what I would end up doing with him.

Honestly, I just want him inside of me as well.

I just want to be his.

That is what I long for the most.

I don't know if it is going to be the right thing that I do but I'm just trying to figure it out as we go. It's like nothing I had felt before and all I could think about is how close I want to be to him. I don't even care if it even blows up in my face, I just want to do it this way. I don't want anything to stand in my way and I just long to be as close to him as possible as well.

If it ended up happening that way, I know that it would be alright.

I wouldn't let anything else destroy what I'm doing.

I'm just trying to do everything that I can to make sure that he feels the same way.

"Are you sure that this is going to go the way that you want it to?" Sasha asks me curiously, raising an eyebrow at me once again because it's pretty clear that this whole thing could end up a mess, "I know that you like him but something about him has always rubbed me the wrong way. It's like he just knows that he is better than everyone else. It's like he is hiding something."

I don't like hearing that because there's no way that he could be hiding something, "why do you think that? I mean truthfully, I wouldn't be able to blame you if you thought like that because the whole thing could be a big old mess. I just want to be his mate and I don't care if he is hiding something. It'll be something for me to learn."

"What if he is a bad guy?" Sasha asks me suddenly, making me look at her with confusion because I have no idea why she is asking me that, "I know that you like him a lot, Claire, but I'm worried that you're getting emotionally attached. I don't blame you because it's pretty clear that you like him and you don't see it but the more that I think about it, there is something off about him."

I hate what she is saying, and I make sure that she knows it as well, "I appreciate your concern but you don't need to worry about me, I'm just going on a date with him, and I don't know what might come from it, but I do know that I'm not going to let anything else be ruined."

I don't wait for a response as I head out of my room, leaving her behind.

Her words echo in my mind, making me think long and hard about it. I really don't know what to say about it, really hoping that she is wrong but it kind of makes sense. It's like nothing I would have ever guessed and I'm just longing to bring Hayden closer. I need him.

It's all I can think about right now.

I keep asking myself if maybe he is my fated mate. It wouldn't be the worst thing if you asked me. I just want to continue to do this the right way and I don't want anything standing in my way. It would be the right thing for me to do.

"You can do this." I'm giving myself a boost of confidence, trying to keep my head held high but it's not the easiest thing for me to do, "don't let anyone bring you down, Claire. You don't know his story and you're going to find out. Only time is going to be able to tell."

When I look at him, it's precious and I just long to bring him a lot closer. I see the glimmer of mischief on his face when he gazes at me and it is enough to drive me wild, like nothing I have ever felt before. All I can think about is how I want to do a lot more and I don't want anything standing in my way. If I end up doing that, I think it is going to be okay.

If I let him take over, will it be alright?

Will I be okay if I love him?

I honestly don't know, and it is driving me crazy. Sighing, I run my fingers through my hair, trying to keep everything together because it's like nothing else I have felt before. When I think about him, a craving fills me on the inside and I'm just a little desperate for a lot more. I'm not going to dare let anything change that and I would actually laugh in someone's face.

"Claire." I hear his voice, making me look up now.

I see Hayden waiting for me and just the sight of him is enough to make my heart skip a beat. Just the sight of him is enough to make me go crazy, like nothing I have ever felt before. All I can think about is what I want to do to him, and I don't want anything standing in my way ever. If that ends up happening, I think that it's going to be alright when I do something like this.

I mean honestly, it's all that I can think about doing right now.

It's just what I have to do when I'm close to him.

It's all I long for.

He is dressed really nice, much more than I expected to see. Just the sight is enough to make my heart almost skip a beat, longing for a lot more. It's like nothing I have ever experienced before, craving to pull him closer. I don't think I have ever felt this needy about something, but I really want to do a lot more because it's pretty obvious that he is going to be completely mine.

That's all that I want to do right now.

That's all that I can think about.

"You look so handsome." I confess to him softly, seeing how his eyes darken, "Are you ready to go?"

His lips curve into a small smile, "yep, let's go then."

I just hope I can get through this without going too crazy.