Chapter 3

Chapter Three

Hayden

"Have you figured out any intel yet?" Director Hayes asks me through the phone that I have kept hidden where nobody would be able to find it, "It has been a long time, Hayden, and time is going by really quickly. Do you have anything for us to nab Andrew?"

"Nothing yet besides the evidence that I have been sending you." I explain to him, hoping that I'm going to be able to do a lot more but I'm trying to do everything that I can to make sure that I'm going to win this, "I am doing my best to get more but Andrew is getting more suspicious that someone is a traitor. I know he isn't looking at me right now but there is a chance that he might. I think that we need to be a bit more cautious."

"I don't know why you're feeling that way, but I do hope that you get this job done." Director Hayes growls at me, making me bristle because my wolf does not like that tone of voice, "I understand that you are one of our best but I'm not going to accept anything half-assed, Hayden. We need to get this done and quickly before the whole program gets shut down. Hurry up, please."

"I am doing everything that I can." I promise him finally, running my fingers through my hair as I am doing everything that I can to make sure that he won't tell me to leave, "Just give me a little bit of time. I will update you in a week."

I don't wait for his response as I end up hanging up and hiding my phone once again. We have a decent relationship, that much I can say but it's not the easiest one. He has a control problem, wanting everything to go one way or another and he doesn't care what might stand in his way. Truthfully, it looks like his job is on the line because of Andrew.

Not like it is any of my business.

A sudden knock on my door makes me stiff, not expecting anyone. Unfortunately, I do live in the pack house, but it is because I am a ‘recruited' member of the group and not someone that people have known all their lives. I know with time I gained their trust, but not enough for them to leave me alone. I wish that I could do the right thing and get out of here, but I have to do everything that I can.

I have to make sure that I get this done.

It has to happen soon I think.

Cautiously approaching the door, my instincts are telling me to open it. I have no clue who is going to be on the other side, feeling a bit curious but I open the door either way, seeing how Claire is standing there, looking a little weird. My eyebrows furrow slightly when I look at her, confused as to what is going to come from it but I don't know right now.

I would love to do what I can to be close to her, but I also need to run away.

I can't let her get close to me; she would be able to bring down my walls quite easily.

"Claire, what are you doing here?" I ask her softly, making a bit of conversation as I'm trying to not let anything get to me, "I thought that you would be with your father. Truthfully, I don't know what you're doing here at my door."

"I wanted to talk to you." She explains, fidgeting on her feet like it was no one else's business, "I think it is going to be something that we can talk about, but I don't know if this is the right time."

I frown because I'm not sure what I'm going to say to her. I should have told her no and asked her to leave but I decided to move aside and let her get closer, feeling really weird. She enters my space, her sweet scent filling my senses that is enough to drive me crazy. All I can think about is her now, like nothing else I have ever begun to dream about.

It's what I need.

It's what I'm aching for.

"What did you want to talk about?" I ask her finally, hoping for the best as she is Andrew's beloved daughter, "I don't think we know each other well enough to truly be close."

She purses her lips and fiddles with her fingers, obviously avoiding my gaze. I don't know if I like what is happening here, feeling quite odd about the entire thing. When she looks at me, it's like she is looking at someone that she likes. There is no way that she can have feelings for me.

I'm not good enough.

"I wanted to ask you out on a date." She suddenly confesses to me, making me freeze because I didn't expect that, "I know that I'm Andrew's daughter, but he has already given me his blessing to go on a date. I don't know if anything will come from it but all I am asking is that you give me a chance. Please…"

She is looking at me persistently, an odd look in her eyes that makes me feel like I could truly go crazy. I don't know if it is going to be fine between us but I'm trying to do whatever I can to bring her close to me. I can't believe that she ended up asking me out on a date which was really unexpected. Why would she even want me like that?

I'm nothing to her.

I shouldn't be anything like that.

She doesn't even realize who I am or what I'm capable of.

How I'm going to ruin the place that she called home.

"I don't know if that is a good idea." I murmur although something inside of me is calling to her, my wolf stirring as he is practically pacing back and forth, itching to get closer, "I know you must think me to be this good dude or something, but I am a part of this group and you deserve better than that, Claire."

She deserves a lot better than anyone.

"I'm fine." She assures me, nervously gnawing on that plump bottom lip as she is probably trying to drive me crazy, "You don't have to worry about a thing, I can assure you that we can just do one date. I know you feel the connection and it would be wrong to feel it and not see where it leads. Don't you think so?"

I shouldn't, I know it.

My wolf on the other hand decided to take over before I could even think to hold him back.

"Sure, I'd love to take you out on a date." The words pass through my lips, really making me want to strangle my own wolf because how could he do this, "I will see you later then."

A big smile on her face is enough to drive me crazy, longing to do a lot more. I don't know how she has already managed to have this chokehold on me, but it is enough to make me want to do a lot more. I long to be with her but it's not a good idea for me to do that because I'm afraid that it's just going to end up with both of us getting hurt.

As an undercover agent, I can't allow these feelings to get in the way of my job.

I can't let anything destroy what I have built.

I really have no idea what I'm going to do but I'm trying to do what I can. It's an odd sensation that is burning inside of me, longing to do so much more but I'm afraid that if I give in to these desires, then she is going to figure everything out. If she does figure it out, I'm worried that I'll end up losing everything.

I can't allow that to happen.

Not here, not now.

Not with everything that I've been dealing with already.

Running my fingers through my hair, I sit on the edge of my bed as I stare out the door that she had disappeared out of. I'm longing to be close to her but it's such a weird feeling, one that I don't know how to deal with. It's like nothing I have felt before, wishing that we could be close to each other. If we end up losing, I'm not sure what might come from it.

Will we even be okay?

"I'm going to regret this." I grumble to myself as I rub my face, hoping it won't turn out badly, "Director Hayes is going to kill me."

I just better hope to keep her at enough distance and let her down easily.