Chapter 6

Chapter Six

Lark

I could tell that I am definitely making my way into Shiloh’s heart and pushing the boundaries but she keeps trying to push me away because she doesn’t a hundred percent sure know what to do about it. I have no idea what is going through her head right now, trying to decide what to do. I couldn’t be certain but she has been pushing me away because I know that I am winning her over.

I just hope that she will accept me.

I don’t see why she wouldn’t.

“How is everything going with your betrothed?” Mom asks me, raising an eyebrow at me because I’m sure she knows that Shiloh is a bit of a wild child, “has she been fighting you about it?”

“A little bit but I will win her over.” I assure her, having already decided that there is no way that I’m going to be able to lose her, “I don’t know why she is so adamant about not being with me but it seems like she is being forced into the engagement as well. I did my best to make her as calm about it as possible but I also know that there’s no way that I’m going to hold myself back any longer. She is already mine.”

Mom looks pretty pleased, a glimmer in her eyes, “I’m happy to hear that. I have been worrying about you not finding someone to fall in love with but it is pretty obvious that she is someone that is worthy enough to be by your side. I kind of worried that I might have made a mistake because she doesn’t honestly seem like an honest person but maybe I am wrong. I am willing to admit it. I don’t know why her parents don’t see her as a wild child though.”

“I don’t think she is a wild child.” I disagree, making her look at me with confusion, “I think she is just tired of having someone else try to dictate her life. That’s why I’m doing my best to make her fall in love with me because I know that I have already fallen for her. I never thought that I would ever say that but I can promise you that it is going to be the case.”

I couldn’t be sure if mom believed me but I did know how I felt and I know what I wanted. I ache for so much and I long to make a family with her. I want to make a life with her. I don’t know if she’s trying to decide what to do about it, knowing it is a possibility that I could end up trying to decide what I’m going to do with her. I couldn’t be sure though but I do know that the best thing for me to do is to be patient and win her over with time.

“As long as you are sure, I won’t worry about it at all.” Mom assures me, offering me a soft smile, “I can see that she must mean a lot to you already if you want her to be comfortable. I knew that I raised you right.”

“I just want to do the right thing by her but I also want her to come to me willingly.” I explain to Mom, hoping that she understands, “I don’t know if it is even possible but I do know that there’s only one thing that I can do though. I need her to come to me willingly or it is possible that she will never want to see me again.”

I knew this to be true. She would never be with me willingly, that much is clear to me and I couldn’t be entirely certain about it. I couldn’t be entirely certain about it, my stomach churning as I try to decide as to what I’m going to do about it. I know what I feel and I know there’s only one way that I am going to be able to make her mine.

I hope so.

“Well, I know you will make the right decision.” Mom assures me, folding her arms across her chest as she smiles, “I know that you’re probably dealing with a lot so I hope that you will do the right thing and not lose anything. Okay?”

I don’t know whether or not it to be true but I do know there’s only one way that I’m going to be able to do everything in my power to make sure that I fall for her already. I don’t know if she will want me but I do know there is no way that I’m going to be able to do anything in my power to make sure that she becomes mine. I don’t know if it’ll happen but I do know that I’m not going to stop until the time comes.

I just hope that I don’t regret it.