Chapter 7

Chapter Seven

Shiloh

Unfortunately due to the fact that we are ‘engaged’, Lark and I have to attend our engagement party. Unfortunately, Lark hasn’t called off the engagement yet and I have no idea what to do about it. I don’t want to admit that I’m interested in him, feeling a bit sick to my stomach any time that I think about it because I can’t be sure precisely how I feel about him. I don’t even know what I want nor what I need. I don’t know what I could do about it because I don’t know what he might end up doing to me because it makes me feel really weird about it.

My stomach was churning with need, trying to decide what to do about it because I couldn’t be completely certain about what I needed. I hold onto his arm, trying to pretend to be beside him and do the best that I can to be his happy fiancée. I don’t know what I need to do and I don’t know what I even want. I don’t know if I can accept him and I couldn’t be certain about what I would do about it.

I glance over at him, seeing how he is chatting with some of the guests, looking very unbothered by everything that has been happening. We have to act all lovey-dovey even if it isn’t how we feel. I notice how some women are glaring at me though, obviously upset because he decided to be with me. It made me want to run away because there was no way that I was going to be his fiancée for long so it is possible that he would be up for grabs.

I don’t know why but that thought made me a little sick to my stomach. I didn’t want to even think that I could end up being just the ex of Lark, but I also knew that I didn’t want to be forced into this relationship. It is making me feel more and more weird because I couldn’t be sure how I feel about this situation. I hate it, making me wonder what is going through his head as he looks down at me with a gentle smile on his face.

He leans down and surprises me when he kisses the top of my head, making my heart skip a beat. I don’t know if he just knows what he is doing to me, but he is making me feel more and more odd with every passing second. My lips part with surprise as I glance up at him and try to calm my heart because I’m not a hundred percent certain about what I’m going to do about it.

“Is everything okay?” He asks me softly, looking at me worriedly, “Are you alright?”

I couldn’t be certain about what he was thinking but I just looked up at him with a smile, “I don’t know. I’m just dozing off. I didn’t get much sleep last night.”

I am definitely hinting at what we did last night, making his cheeks burn slightly with embarrassment. I hear the giggles around us, making me know that everyone heard it but that was the point. I wanted them to know precisely how I felt with him, and I didn’t care if I made an embarrassing moment from this. I want him to break this off, it’s just how it is.

“I’m glad to see that you two are compatible.” Mom suddenly speaks up, making me tense because I couldn’t believe that she has decided to butt in, “I didn’t know that you move that fast, Prince Lark, I hope that you are not going to be using my daughter…”

He just smiles and shakes his head, “Don’t worry, ma’am, I can assure you that your daughter might be the one using me and I’m letting her do it. I don’t want to be without her though. She is it for me.”

It makes my stomach churn to hear him talk like that and it pisses me off a little bit because I have no idea why he is doing this. I kind of thought that he would make everyone think that we are not compatible, but now he is making it seem like we are a perfect match. I give him a look, showing him that I’m a bit irritated and I have no idea what I’m going to do about it because it doesn’t seem like he is keeping his end of the bargain.

“Don’t worry, it’s just a show.” He whispers in my ear, “So smile.”

I just smile then, pretending to be all for this. Everyone is gushing over us, and it is a bit annoying because I don’t like it happening like this. Although I do like Lark, there’s no way that I can give away my freedom for this. I know what I need, and I know there’s only so much that I’m going to be able to accept. I just want my freedom, but I also know it is very possible that I could lose everything if I’m being honest.

I guess I better figure it out though.

Because it doesn’t seem like he is going to be the one to back down at all.

I just don’t know what to make of it. The music starts though and Lark takes my hand, guiding me onto the dancefloor. I’m not much of a dancer but I don’t think I have much of a choice. I might as well give him what he wants.