Chapter 39

AUGUST – 9 TUESDAY 6:10 PM

M yles

"What are you doing," Ren asked as I covered her eyes and walked down the hall behind her. She looked so pretty in the sexy little dress I'd bought her. It was shimmery blue, and it looked like rippling water clung to her body. I wanted to give her everything. I wanted to spoil her rotten, but all she ever said was that she wanted me. My heart ached with how much I loved her.

"It's a surprise," I said, stopping before we reached the open sitting area and then uncovered her eyes. She gasped and looked at the table decorated with flowers and the silver dome keeping our meal warm.

"What is all this? I thought you said we were going out for dinner." Ren looked around. "And where are the guys?"

"Theo made dinner for us since we all know I'm useless in the kitchen, and the guys are taking Lip out to the movies, so we have the place to ourselves." Slipping my arm around her waist, I soaked in the feel of her. "I wanted ya all to myself."

She lifted her eyes to mine, and neither of us said it, but we both knew this could be our last night together. Rising on her toes, she kissed me softly, her lips as warm and tender as the heart in her chest. No matter what happened tomorrow, she'd changed me. I was a better man. One that my Ma would've been proud of, and I could go to my grave knowing that I would rather die than live without a conscience.

"I love it. I love you," she whispered against my lips.

Grabbing her hand, I placed it over my heart. "This is yours forever, no matter what happens. I love ya more than I can put into words, Snowflake. I hope you know that without ya, my heart would shrivel and turn to dust." I sucked in a shuddering breath as her eyes shimmered with unshed tears. "We better eat before I skip straight to dessert and drag you back to the bedroom."

Ren wrapped her arms around my neck. "What if I want my dessert first?" The coy smile that spread across her lips made me hot, and I wanted to pull at the collar of my shirt. She glanced at the table. "I don't mind heating our dinner later. Do you?"

Laughing, I picked her up and carried Ren back to the bedroom. "Not even a little."

Placing her on her feet, I captured her lips as if it were our first time all over again. I needed to commit the feel of her not just to my memory but to the fabric of every nerve ending. The sweet scent of her skin, the silkiness of her hair, her little moans, but most of all, I wanted to know her with just the brush of my finger.

"Turn around," I said, breaking the kiss. Ren turned and pulled her long hair over her shoulder. My fingers were surprisingly steady as my heart pounded in my chest. I tugged the zipper down one small tooth at a time, savoring how her breathing picked up and goosebumps rose on her skin. As soon as I was done, Ren let it drop to the ground and pool at her feet.

I groaned as Ren looked at me over her shoulder. "Are you going to undo my bra?"

Swallowing hard, I gripped the clasp. She should never wear bras. It was incredibly arousing staring at her nipples through any top. It drove me completely insane when she came to bed wearing one of my T-shirts and nothing else.

"If I'm a sinner for wantin' ya the way I do, then it's God's fault for placing one of his angels in my path. There has never been a more beautiful sight." Her cheeks turned bright red, making her silvery eyes stand out even more.

"I don't think we go to hell for loving someone the way we love one another," she said, undoing my belt. "And if it's wrong, then I'll be right beside you as we ride a hot seat to hell."

Smiling, I ripped open my black dress shirt, and Ren laughed as little buttons scattered all over the floor. A growl escaped my lips as I yanked her adorable undies down. Gripping her ass, I pulled her pussy toward my mouth and loved that she was already wet. Her moan was sweet as my tongue flicked over her clit. Forcing her to step back to the bed, she sat down and slid her legs over my shoulders as I devoured my dessert.

"Oh God, Myles," Ren moaned, her body shuddering as her hips bucked up into my mouth, but it still didn't feel like it was enough. Sliding my arms under her body, I lifted her and stood. Ren squealed and grabbed my hair, but I turned and sat down, laying back until she was sitting on my face. My view was intoxicating.

Ren's hands roamed over her tits and rubbed her nipples as she wiggled her hips. She was looking down at me, her white hair creating a waterfall effect around her. My cock ached and throbbed in my dress pants, but I ignored it, wanting her to come on my tongue more than I cared about my next breath.

I groaned and sucked on her clit as Ren bit her lip and rocked faster.

"Oh, Myles. I'm so close," she panted, and my fingers dug into the soft skin of her ass. Ren jerked and twitched in my hold. "Myles, yes, oh yes…fuck…I'm coming," her body went rigid, and her mouth hung open in a silent scream as she came. I licked up everything she gave me like she was my last meal before growling at her and sitting up, forcing her to slide down my body.

Ren wrapped her arms around my neck and kissed me hard, our tongues battling. "Make love to me," she said, and I nodded.

Patting the bed beside me, she moved off my lap. I stood before running my hands and lips down her soft legs to the strappy little heels she was wearing. As soon as I removed them, she got up on her hands and knees and crawled away from me.

"Fuck." It was humanly impossible to get the rest of my clothes off fast enough as Ren lifted the covers and got under the sheets. She held the corner open for me as I pushed down my boxers and ran my hand up and down my stiff shaft. I loved how she watched me, her eyes full of desire. I opened the bedside table to grab protection, but Ren touched my hand and shook her head. "You sure?" One elegant eyebrow lifted. "You won't hear me complain," I said, closing the drawer.

Getting in beside her, she pulled the covers up, and I wanted to hide out under them like I had as a child. Maybe the monsters would go away and leave us alone. It was stupid, but a piece of me longed for it.

Ren rolled onto her side, and I pressed against her as my cock pushed between the soft globes of her ass. Wrapping my arm around her, I kissed the side of her neck, eating up her gasps and the feel of her hand on my hip.

"Put your leg over mine, Snowflake." I groaned against her ear as she obeyed.

The need to have her was like a wild living creature in my chest, but I fought off the urge to rush and rubbed my cock between her warm pussy lips. Teasing brought on a special kind of high. The look on her face and the desperation I felt coming off of her were addicting.

"Please, Myles," Ren begged.

Shifting my hips, I lined up and closed my eyes, savoring the bliss of pushing into her body.

"Fuckin' hell, Snowflake. Ya feel unbelievable." She was so hot and tight that I had to steady myself to keep from coming instantly. Kneading her breast and rolling her nipple between my fingers, I gasped as her muscles tightened around my cock. "Oh fuck," I groaned, at a loss for what to say as she pushed back into me hard, and I sank deeper. "Yer tryin' to kill me with pleasure. God dammit. Roll on to yer stomach."

Ren shifted, and I blanketed her body with mine. Running my hands along her arms, I linked my fingers with hers and began to move. Each thrust pushed me higher, and all other thoughts vanished from my mind until there was nothing left but the sound of Ren's moans and the feel of my cock sinking into her.

Pushing myself up onto my arms, I moved faster and groaned as Ren grabbed handfuls of the sheets and lifted her ass higher.

"Yes, right there…oh god, Myles…so close." I pulled out, and Ren whimpered like she was in pain. I knew the feeling.

"Turn over, love. I want to look in yer eyes when you come." Her hair was wild as she twisted, and it matched the desperation in her eyes. Grabbing her legs, I wrapped them around my waist and sank into her once more. Her back arched off the bed, and her nails clawed at the sheets as her breasts bounced. If I was gonna die, then please let this be the last thing I remembered.

"Rub yourself. I want ya to come all over my cock." It took all the control I had and more that I didn't know I possessed as she reached between her legs and rubbed at her clit. I could feel her tightening around me, and her body jerked as she closed in on the blissful peak.

"Faster," she breathed, her eyes locking with mine. I would've done anything she asked at that moment. I fucked her as hard and as fast as I could, and when she started to come and gripped my shoulders with her nails, I was done. "Myles, yes, yes, yes," she yelled. I shuddered as I handed myself over to the orgasm that I'd been fighting.

"Fuck!" Each thrust had me swimming in a sea of ecstasy. With the last jerk of my body, I collapsed on top of her and buried my head in the side of her neck. Ren wrapped her arms around me, and I never wanted to let go. "I don't want to go tomorrow," I said, even though she already knew it, and I'd said it a dozen times already.

"I don't want you to go," she said, her body hitching as she began to cry. Lifting my head, I saw Ren trying to wipe the tears away, but I linked our fingers and kissed her tear-stained cheeks.

"My life so far has been painted with a tragic brush until you, Snowflake. If I'm being honest, I never thought that I would have something like this with anyone. I was a machine on auto-pilot in a kill-or-be-killed world. My da, Lawrence, Devin…." I shook my head. "If things go wrong tomorrow and Nash's plan doesn't work, I want ya to know that I love ya more than anything. You've given me the best few months of my life, and I wouldn't trade a single moment. Even though I should've pushed ya way to keep ya from this pain, I'm a selfish bastard and would do it all over again." Her bottom lip quivered, and I placed my forehead on hers, feeling the pain and fear of what tomorrow would bring through her touch.

"Make me a promise," Ren said, sucking in a deep breath.

"Aye, for you, I'd do anything."

"If it comes down to you or them, and you have the opportunity to kill them…do it. We'll figure out the repercussions but don't ever bow down to them. You're better than they ever could dream of becoming."

"That would definitely cause waves," I said.

Ren's eyes hardened. "I don't care. If I could, I'd go in your place. Kill them if it's your only chance at living." She cupped my face. "I'd rather be on the run with you than live without you."

I kissed her lips and poured all the love I could into it. "Let's hope it doesn't come to that," I said and began praying to anyone who was listening to help me out of this. God help me. I'd do what she said. I'd shoot them both in the head if I got to keep her.

Ren is my life.