27. Ally

Laying against Luke's firm chest, Ally thought about his offer to try doing some of the Christmas traditions that she used to do with her parents. The thought of doing them without her parents made her heart ache, but at least now she wouldn't be alone. Luke would be there with her, and he even said they could start some of their own traditions.

Her body warmed at the thought of him wanting to create traditions with her, as though he planned to be with her in the future. She liked the thought of that. His thoughtfulness touched her heart. She wanted them to have traditions, too, and she knew what he said was right. Her parents would want her to continue celebrating in their memory.

"I would like to try. But I don't know if it will make me all emotional and sad and I don't want to ruin your Christmas."

Luke kissed the top of her head and lifted her from his chest until she was looking at him.

"Baby, I don't want to spend Christmas with anyone else and whether you are sad or happy or need to grieve as we go, I want to be here to comfort you because I'm your Daddy and I am in this for the good and the bad. Do you understand me, baby?"

Ally grinned, flinging her arms around his neck to hug him as tears spilled down her cheeks again.

"Thank you, Daddy."

Closing his arms around her, he squeezed her against him.

"Remember, Ally, if it becomes too much or you feel like you just can't do it, tell Daddy. We will eat pizza every Christmas going forward if that's what you want. Okay?"

Pulling away from his grasp until her face was only inches from his, she studied his face.

"You say that like you plan on keeping me."

Luke chuckled and kissed the tip of her nose.

"Baby girl, I plan on keeping you for as long as you'll allow me. I won't hold you against your will, but I will do everything in my power to make you the happiest Little girl in the world so you'll want me to keep you forever."

Ally's breath caught in her throat at his words. Even though she had only known Luke for a few weeks, she knew she wanted him. She wanted to be his. To be his baby and his love.

"I want you to keep me, Daddy."

Luke grinned and kissed her deeply.

"I want to keep you, too."

She snuggled back into his chest, and he held her until he felt her entire body relax against his.

"Okay, baby girl, it's time for bed. We have a busy day of Christmas tree hunting to do tomorrow."

Nodding her head, Ally realized how exhausted she was. It had been an emotional day, both good and sad. Luke picked her up and carried her securely in his arms to his bedroom. After he tucked her into bed, he crawled in next to her, holding her against him.

"Thank you for talking to Daddy tonight, baby. I hate seeing you so sad, but even when you are sad, I need you to talk to me. I can't be the best Daddy possible if I don't know what's going on with my Little girl. I'm also sorry I didn't ask about your parents sooner. I got the feeling when I asked about your family that you didn't want to talk about it, so I didn't press it."

Nodding her head, she accepted the pacifier that he held up to her lips. Ally found his hand under the covers and pulled his arm around her. He squeezed her against him firmly. For the first time in years, she felt excited about the week leading up to Christmas. Her exhaustion overrode the excitement as she faded into a peaceful sleep in her Daddy's arms.

Ally woke in the middle of the night needing to go to the bathroom. Luke's thick arm was still wrapped around her body. Squirming slightly, a light crinkle noise reminded her of the diaper between her legs. Remembering that Luke told her the diaper was thick enough to last through the night and that one of her rules was to use her diapers when she was wearing them, Ally closed her eyes, trying to relax her body. Several minutes passed as she tried to shut her mind off and relax enough to let go of the pressure that continued to build, working at the pacifier nipple with her teeth to distract her. After what felt like forever, Ally felt her body release and begin filling the thick padding.

When she finished, she moved slightly, feeling the swollen padding between her legs, and she couldn't help but smile knowing her Daddy would be proud of her. She also knew she would be embarrassed in the morning when he discovered she was wet.

Luke's arm tightened around her, pulling her body against his. Ally blushed, unsure if he was awake and aware of what she had just done. When he didn't say anything, she relaxed against him and fluttered back to a peaceful sleep.

When they woke up in the morning, Luke made breakfast for them both, cutting her toast and fruit up into little bite sized pieces. She loved when he did that. It was such a small thing to do but so caring. After breakfast, Luke took her into the nursery and changed her soaked diaper. He praised her repeatedly for using her diaper like a good girl, though she blushed and hid her face during the entire diaper change.

When he wiped her folds, his touch was gentle but thorough. Ally hoped he wouldn't notice the arousal she felt as he touched her. She didn't understand how she could get aroused from being in such an embarrassing and vulnerable position. If he had noticed her arousal, he stayed focused at the task at hand, wrapping her into another thick diaper before pulling a pair of thick leggings up her legs.

Realizing he had put another diaper on her, Ally panicked.

"Wait... I can't wear this out there," she pleaded, pointing to the diaper.

Luke smiled and continued to pull the leggings up and over the crinkly material.

"No one will be out where we are going so there is no risk of someone noticing. We'll be out in the middle of nowhere for hours and you're going to need a diaper."

Frowning, Ally thought about it for a moment.

"What about you? You need a diaper, too, if we are going to be out that long."

Luke chuckled. "Nice try, little girl. This Daddy doesn't wear diapers. Those are only for my Little girl. Besides, Daddy can go behind a tree."

Ally stuck her tongue out at him in response.

"Watch that tongue, little girl."

She giggled and pulled her tongue back in behind her lips. By the time Luke was finished layering her in clothes, she felt as though she looked like a snowman. She had on a diaper, a onesie, two pairs of thick leggings, a long sleeve shirt, a fuzzy sweater, two pairs of thick socks, and a puffy jacket.

"Daddyyy... I have on too many clothes."

"If you get warm, we can always remove layers, but I'd rather have you overly warm instead of freezing cold. Come on, little bunny, quit fussing with your clothes."

The drive was long as Luke navigated through the snow filled roads towards where they were going. They chatted the entire time, Luke making jokes about random things along the way, making Ally giggle. She couldn't remember when she had laughed so hard, and when her bladder leaked slightly during a laughing fit, she was happy he had made her wear the diaper.

Although it wasn't snowing, the entire world around them felt like a winter wonderland. Blankets of snow were everywhere, coating the road and icy branches on all the trees they passed along the way. He slowed briefly to point out several deer in the distance. Ally squealed with excitement, watching the wild animals leap and play in the snow.

"Maybe they are Santa's reindeer!"

Nodding, Luke chuckled. "Maybe they are. They might be checking out the area so they know where to land the sleigh on Christmas Eve."

Ally nodded, smiling at the thought. When Luke finally parked the truck, Ally looked out at all the trees in front of them. She had always loved picking out the perfect tree. It had to be well rounded, with thick branches, and it had to smell like Christmas. Realizing how excited she was, she reached out and grabbed onto his hand.

"Thank you, Daddy. I didn't realize how much I missed this part of Christmas."

Luke squeezed her hand, bringing it up to his lips to kiss gently.

"Thank you for trusting me enough to try Christmas again."