Chapter 21

CHAPTER 21

T hey really should be talking, but he knew that talking could lead to the decision that they should never do this again, so he was going to be an asshole and get his fill before that. He didn't know what she wanted or what he could give her, but he was in no rush to end this. He wanted her too fucking badly to do the right thing.

When she'd left this morning, he'd been determined to do the right thing by her. Letting her walk away was one of the hardest things he'd ever done in his life. If Bill hadn't bugged the hell out of him until he gave in and helped out with the annoying bastard, he probably would have done something stupid like go after Joe and promise her things they both knew he couldn't give her.

While he'd tried showing Greg how to use the equipment, he'd thought about her. He loved her, they both knew that, and he never wanted to hurt her, but he would. He didn't know how to be what she needed because he'd never cared enough to do that for another woman. He'd love to be the man that could take care of her and be there for her, but he was fucking terrified.

After he'd finally had enough of Greg's bullshit, he went home, showered, and tried not to think about her, but it had been a losing battle from the beginning. He promised himself that they'd have tonight and tomorrow before she had to go to New Hampshire, and then, they'd see where things took them from there. He knew it would probably lead to nothing, but he couldn't help but give himself a little hope that he could be more for her.

" Hell ," Eric groaned when his fingers brushed against her slit.

She was wet, soaking wet and the knowledge that a few simple touches had turned her on almost as much as him nearly sent him to his knees. A second later, the thought of her soaking wet did just that.

When she spread her legs without a word, Eric had to suppress a groan. He had a feeling that she'd be demanding in bed and he couldn't be happier about that. He pushed her tee-shirt up and kissed the skin he'd exposed. He followed the smooth thigh with his lips until he came to his new favorite spot and pressed his lips against her slit.

Joe's moan caught his attention and when he looked up, she grabbed the hem of her tee-shirt and pulled it off, letting it drop on the floor next to them. He'd seen her naked before, but seeing her leaning back against the wall with her legs spread and ready for him nearly fucking destroyed him.

He frantically grabbed hold of his self-control and forced himself to relax. Last night he'd been too fucking desperate to enjoy the body that had starred in every fantasy he'd ever had. Today, he wouldn't be making that mistake again.

Keeping his eyes locked with hers, Eric leaned in and ran the tip of his tongue over her slit. He did it again when she licked her lips and closed her eyes in pleasure. When her flavor hit his tongue, he groaned and licked her again, desperate for another taste.

She tasted so good, better than he ever imagined she would and he wanted more. He ignored the demands his cock made to be freed and reached up and gently spread her folds open with his fingertips.

Beautiful, absolutely beautiful, Eric thought as he leaned in to lick her from her core to her clit. When she fisted her hands in his hair, he did it again, this time flicking the tip of his tongue over her clit before pulling it between his lips and suckling gently.

"Eric," she moaned.

He gave her clit one last pull before sitting back and slowly slid a finger inside her. For a moment, he was content to watch his finger slide in and out of her, but the need to taste her again became too strong to ignore. He kept his finger inside of her as he kissed, licked, and suckled her clit.

All too soon, he felt her body tighten around his finger. One minute the sounds of his groans and her soft moans filled the room, and the next, she was screaming his name and holding his mouth tightly to her clit. He felt her body slump against the wall a moment later. Before her legs gave out, he had her in his arms and was carrying her to her room.

"What now?" Joe asked, desperately trying to catch her breath as he laid her carefully on top of her bed.

"Now," Eric said, reaching back and grabbing a fistful of his shirt, "we move on to the next fantasy."

"Not yet," Eric mumbled against her mouth as he caught her hand heading south again.

His next fantasy turned out to be a bit of a surprise. After he'd stripped his clothes off and climbed under the sheet to join her, he'd kissed her. That was it. His hands didn't wander and every time one of hers tried to move, he stopped her and just kept on kissing her.

They'd been kissing for at least a half-hour, and it didn't appear as though he was going to grow bored anytime soon. Actually, he seemed to be really enjoying himself. At least the incredibly hard erection poking her hip and the way he moaned against her mouth let her know that he really liked what they were doing. Honestly, she loved it, too. She loved the way he touched her while he slowly devoured her mouth.

Unfortunately, it turned her on a little too much and left her desperate for more. If he didn't do something soon, she was going to kill him that's all there was to it. When several minutes passed and he still didn't put her out of her misery, Joe decided that it was time to take matters into her own hands. She moved her hands up his chest as she moved to sit up, giving him no choice but to roll over onto his back or break the kiss.

When he laid back, she didn't hesitate. She threw her leg over his waist and straddled him. He didn't seem to register the move until she rolled her hips, the move causing her lips to spread open around his thick cock. Then, he let out a groan and tried to roll her back onto her side, but she wasn't having that.

She rolled her hips forward before slowly pushing back. When she felt the soft tip of his cock press against her entrance, she didn't hesitate in pushing back until he was sliding inside of her. He felt so damn good. He wasn't her first lover, but he was undoubtedly the best.

He was also the first man she'd ever had unprotected sex with, and God help her, but she never wanted anything to come between them. She wasn't worried about catching anything from him. They both got tested every six months whether or not they'd been with someone and she knew it had been a long time for him. She also wasn't worried about getting pregnant. She'd been on birth control since she was sixteen out of fear that she'd end up just like her mother.

"I wasn't done," Eric said, even as he rolled his hips to fill her.

"Yes, you were," Joe said breathlessly as she gave him one last kiss before sitting up.

She'd never felt anything this good before, Joe thought, licking her lips as she savored the way that he filled her. It felt good, better than good and she wanted more. She slowly raised herself up only to take her time as she lowered herself back on him, moaning as she felt every inch of him sliding back inside of her, tearing a groan from Eric. So, she did it again, this time more slowly. Sex had never felt this good before, Joe thought as she struggled not to lose control. She met his eyes and nearly moaned when she saw the way that he was looking at her.

She loved the way he looked at her, the way he made her feel and wanted more. She wanted him to hold her while they made love, needed it more than anything. He must have felt the same way. Before she could lean down, Eric was sitting up and wrapping his arms around her.

"I love you, Joe," Eric said against her lips as she wrapped her arms around him and slowly rode him.

"I love you too," she said seconds before he swallowed her screams.

"This is a fantasy for you?"

"Oh, yeah," Eric said, pulling her closer.

"Seriously?"

"Mmmhmmm, now, shhhh, the good part is coming," he said, pressing a kiss against the back of her neck.

Grumbling, Joe settled back against him so that she could watch the horrible action flick that only a man could appreciate. She wasn't exactly sure how spooning on her couch and watching a movie that was threatening to put her to sleep counted as a fantasy. They'd done this a thousand times over the years.

Okay, granted, they'd never done this naked with only a throw blanket covering them from the waist down and Eric's hand cupping her breast, but still. When he told her that he wanted to live out his fantasies, she was thinking a strip tease, licking whipped cream off each other, and a hundred other things she'd thought about over the years.

When his lips touched her neck, Joe tilted her head to the side to give him better access. His hand tightened around her breast as he teasingly traced her nipple with his thumb. She was just about to roll over onto her back so that she could kiss him when she felt the tip of his cock slide against her bottom.

"You have no idea how many times I've imagined doing this to you while I held you in my arms," Eric admitted as he slowly pushed inside of her.

"You imagined doing this?" Joe asked, trying not to moan when he slid inside her.

"Constantly."

"Oh, God ," Eric groaned as an orgasm tore through him. His hands tightened on her hips, holding her in place as he suffered through her body throbbing around his sensitive cock.

When Joe dropped face-first on the bed, he wasn't far behind. He rolled onto his side and pulled her into his arms. His eyes shot to the alarm clock and he couldn't help but wince. It was after three in the morning and she had to drive up to New Hampshire in a few hours.

He opened his mouth to tell her that he'd drive her but stopped himself. He couldn't go with her. She would be gone for three days and they needed that time to figure out what they wanted. Even if she was willing to risk what they had, he wasn't sure that he was.

There was no question in his mind that he loved and absolutely adored this woman, but he knew that he was a fuckup when it came to relationships. He couldn't stomach the idea that she would end up being just another woman that he'd hurt. He wanted to try for her, but he was scared shitless. What if he fucked up and she never spoke to him again?

He would never survive losing her.

Joe groaned as she buried her face against her pillow. "I have to get up in a few hours."

"Get some sleep," Eric said, pressing a kiss against her shoulder.

"Only if you manage to keep that damn thing leashed," Joe said, making him chuckle.

It didn't seem to matter how many times they'd made love, his body wanted more. Pressing another kiss against her shoulder, Eric pulled his hips back only to wince when his sensitive cock that couldn't seem to get enough of her caressed her ass.

Joe released a long-suffering sigh before somehow managing to roll over onto her back beneath him. "Fine. You may have your dirty little way with me one more," she said, making sure to sound put out.

"You're very generous," Eric said as he rolled his hips back before he slid home.

Joe nodded solemnly as her back arched off the bed to take him deeper. "Very generous."