34. THE PRESIDENT

34

THE PRESIDENT

Summer

After I waste Wednesday indoors, I decide when nighttime comes that maybe it's time for me to put my big girl panties on. I get in blue jeans and a hoodie, take my phone and go. I am at their house in 15 minutes, and I knock.

Jaden opens the door looking surprised to see me.

"Hey, Sunshine," he says with a smile.

I give him a small smile too.

"Hey, Jay."

He grins. "Glad to know I'm back to Jay."

I roll my eyes as I walk in, finding them watching a basketball game. I realize I haven't really watched any sports since we broke up.

"Hey, Peach," Arch says, all eyes are on me.

I wave with an awkward smile. "Hey. Um, can I please talk to you?" I look at Harv.

He looks hesitant but he gets up and follows me to his room. I walk in and stand in the middle of his room. He's got the same furniture as Arch's room but he has posters of the fights he loves and two framed basketball jerseys. His walls are also painted a navy, the whole mood is a little dark and moody, especially with the dimmer light.

He doesn't come to my front, standing behind me and I am a little nervous to turn around. It feels like I'll be facing my shittiness.

"Can you ever forgive me?" I ask, terrified of the answer.

The air is so shrunken, it's a little too dense to breathe too and I just want to draw it louder and quicker as my heart races. He doesn't answer me. After a minute, and some bravery, I turn. Our eyes find each other, but I can't read his face.

"I'm sorry, Harvey. I…I should have listened." My voice is barely a whisper. "What happened to you, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

He doesn't answer for a full minute while I stew there.

"It's the past, Summer."

It's not an acceptance of my apology.

"Are you angry at me for how I handled things?"

He looks at me for a long while before he says, "Yes."

An involuntary tear slides down my face.

"Oh." I manage. I don't know why but I wasn't expecting that . My foolish self expected him to pull me to his arms and tell me he still loves me, that he wants me back and doesn't blame me for anything.

I nod, having no words to respond.

"What can I do?"

He looks away from me. "It's the past, Summer."

"Is that girl your girlfriend?" I can't help the jealousy and all the raw emotions taking me over. I didn't think I'd have to be in this position.

"I am seeing her, yes." A strange note accompanies his words.

My ears ring after he says it. He's not single? I can't help the rushing tears that fall. I clear my throat and exhale loudly before I start moving. He doesn't stop me or ask me to not go, and I leave his room feeling rejected more than I ever have in my life.

I close his door gently and walk out, calming myself, I throw on my hoodie. After I clear my throat, I head downstairs. I don't look at them.

"I'll see you," I say, rushing to the door.

I am glad my voice comes out steady and not like I just got my heart ransacked. I sprint across the campus, but I can't run fast enough to put distance between me and Harvey.

I am sweating by the time I get to my dorm. Closing the door behind me, I lean on it. My face is hot, my ears are hot, and my body is trembling. A sob is just bubbling under, and I know I will sleep in tears again.

A knock disturbs my slow slide into sorrow. My first thought is to ignore them, but they knock again.

"Sunshine, open it's me."

I just got here. Did he follow me? I contemplate not answering the door because I don't want him to see the mess I am.

"I won't leave. So just open it." Jaden says, and I roll my teary eyes.

Trust Jaden to never take no for an answer. He always has to negotiate, make a deal, persuade.

But it's not like he has never seen me teary eyed. So I open for him and he stands there with concern in his features, panting.

"Did you run after me?" I ask.

"Yes, and you still run like a gazelle," he says and I snort. "May I come in?"

I let him in even though I doubt I can handle one of them being here after that whole thing with Harv.

I close the door slowly and he turns and looks at me. "Wanna tell me what happened?"

He gets closer when it's evident I'm not getting close to him. I am still leaning against the door, and he closes the distance between us, but we aren't touching.

"Harvey hates me," I say, fresh tears falling on my face, and I sniffle.

He frowns. "Did he say that?"

I shake my head. "He didn't have to, Jaden. I fucked up so bad." I shake with the force of my emotion, and he pulls me to his chest.

"Oh, Sunshine."

I release all the tears and when his shirt is too wet, I retreat. I stare at his messed-up shirt, another mess I've made. All I do is make messes. Now how is he going to walk across campus with a wet shirt.

I am feeling lower than low right now and I just want to wallow in self-pity.

"Come let's prepare for bed," he says. I let him lead me to my bathroom and he prepares my toothbrush and I give him a spare.

He quips his brow. "You won't make me brush my teeth alone, would you?"

It's a silly thing to say but I just don't feel like doing anything alone right now.

"I'll prepare your bed and pajamas." Then he shifts to go but I hold his hand.

"Don't go." I plead, a little needy, not wanting to part with him.

He looks confused as to what I'm asking.

"Do you have a girlfriend too?" I ask. Which would suck a big one if he was seeing someone too.

He looks even more confused before he shakes his head.

"I don't wanna shower alone," I say when he doesn't ask anything.

He nods, turns on the spray and waits for me.

I start undressing and he does too. We get in the shower and his gaze roams my body with that hunger I have all but forgotten. We stand there at first with him looking at my breasts and it makes me feel a little better. To know that they may not all feel like Harvey, that the others do want me. Perhaps I can be good with that.

"Summer, I…I don't know what to do here," he confesses.

I breathe out an awkward chuckle. "I don't know either. But maybe we can shower."

He gives me a crooked smile before his hands reach for me carefully, like he is expecting me to jump back and say no. When his hands touch me, all my senses awaken, and I feel a charge all over my skin. He explores my skin slowly, cautiously, like he is testing my limits, his eyes never leaving mine.

"Summer, I want to get back together," he says, his hands cupping my face. The water continues beating us on our side and we just act like it's not there.

"I don't know, Jay," I answer honestly. With Harvey seeing someone else I don't know how it's going to work.

"Do you not want to still?" He looks a little hurt.

"I am open to it, yes. But with me and Harv being where we are, I don't know if I can move forward to a relationship without us being okay first."

He looks like he understands. "You're not shutting us out anymore, right?"

"I'm not."

He leans in. "Can I kiss you?"

I plant my lips on his and the kiss gets hot instantly. We get closer and he holds me. And I remember us. Me and Jaden. Me and the president .

We basically rinse in the shower and step out. The air is heated, both of us feeling the anticipation of the night. He helps me dry my hair before he switches off the light and pulls me to the bed.

I lie back on my pillow and he kisses down my body. He is gentle and taking his time caressing my body with his lips. Arousal has me clenching on air anticipating what I know is coming. His head disappears between my thighs and my hands scratch his head as I moan as he finally kisses my needy pussy. He eats me out like he is ravenous. Both making pleased sounds when he introduces his fingers and he starts fingering me hard. He's never gentle, always making me come the hardest.

I moan with no abandon as I watch one of the men I still very much love get his fill of me. I let go of all my worries as I bow in orgasm after orgasm.

After three consecutive orgasms, he climbs up my body, lifting my legs and spreading them. And before I say anything, he pushes inside me in one swift move, and I scream in pleasurable pain. He doesn't muffle my sounds, loving that shit. A bit of an exhibitionist, the louder the better for him.

"Fuck yes, baby," he says as my pussy clenches crazy around him. "That's fucking right, just like that."

He pulls out and slams into me again, knocking the air out of me.

"Oh my fucking god." I moan.

He has a devilish grin as he leans in to bite my neck and my eyes go cross-eyed as he pounds me hard. He gives me vicious strokes, my pussy clenching crazy and I want to sob from pleasure.

"Say my fucking name, Sunshine. Who's fucking you?"

"Jaden, fucking oh yes. Yes, oh yes." I moan in his ear. I moan like his bitch for him as he rams into me. I feel wetness sliding into the sheets and I am laying in a wet spot not long after, and I haven't even come. No one makes me puddle harder than Jaden and not even through coming.

He licks, sucks and bites me and I reciprocate. He is rough and I love every minute of it.

I come from his relentless stroke and fingers on my clit, and we climax together. He stares into my eyes as we breathe into each other.

"I fucking love you, Summer. I don't fucking care. I love you. You understand?" he growls that last part and I nod quickly.

"Good, now turn over, I'm not done." He pushes back from me, and goes to the bathroom coming back with a damp cloth and the bigger towel. He takes my second pillow and places it below my pelvis then wipes me down. My ass is in the air, knowing exactly the position he wants, and fuck it I have missed it. Jaden loves flat doggie more than anything and it always hits different. I love it but my g-spot is too easy to hit from that angle and I come a lot.

He slides in and spanks my ass when he is halfway in, almost straddling my legs.

"Sunshine, I am going to fuck you all night." He bottoms out and I shudder, moaning.

"Oh, Jay."

He starts moving, spreading my cheeks apart and pushing them back before spanking them. I quake in an orgasm barely five minutes later. It's like I can just sleep and just let him make me come all night.

"Fuck, you are so tight. You are driving me crazy, baby." He roars and I clench around him as I bask in his praise. I feel a finger in my ass and relax into it even though it's been a minute.

"Do you have lube here?" he asks, his strokes don't falter.

"Yes, bottom drawer."

"Come for me before I fuck your tight little hole then."

I nod with a moan, my orgasm already on the horizon.

"Spank me, baby, please," I beg.

He spanks me hard and my body jolts, but I don't come. He spanks me again and I come with a loud moan and I twitch around him as I gush. He continues spanking me as I come.

When I am settling, he pulls me to kneel. I don't have much strength left but I still want it. Still need him.

He wipes me fast then gets the lube. He pulls me up to his chest as I kneel on the bed, and kisses me passionately, moaning with me. It feels so good to be enjoyed by the man you love. So good. I hear the cap pop and I can't help the smile. He feels for my ass before he works the lube in just on the outer side before he fingers me. He uses one hand to play with my nipples while his other works the lube, making me wet again.

"I missed this body, fuck."

"I missed your dick too," I say and he grins.

When he is satisfied, he stands. "Bend over then, show me how much."

I lean in for one last kiss and he kisses me with a hot passion, making me dizzy.

I turn after, facing the wall, and give him my ass. He spanks me and I giggle, shaking my ass for him.

"Fucking gorgeous," he praises. Two fingers make sure there is a way in before he spanks me again. And I place a pillow in front of me, my cheek on it.

"Spread it for me, baby. Show me how much you need it," he says, and I reach for my cheeks and spread them wide.

"Fucking beautiful. Just like that." His cock nudges my entrance and I exhale remembering everything. I relax, knowing it will be good.

He slides in slowly and I groan. "Oh god, Jay. Oh, fuck my fuck." I want to weep as he fills me like he is filling my very soul. When he is fully in, I clench as I exhale slowly.

"Fucking stunning."

He doesn't move immediately. "Jay, please. Give it to me. I'm so ready."

"That's my girl," he praises before he starts pulling out slowly. He groans when he's out before he pushes in, faster than before but still slow and careful.

"More," I beg, desperate to be rearranged.

Next time he pushes hard, and I jump a little in pain filled pleasure. His hands find my hips to steady himself and he starts moving. Before I know it, I am crying as he fucks me mercilessly. I sob. It feels like catharsis. My soul is floating in space. Completely surrendered.

"Baby, you okay?" he asks but he doesn't stop.

"You're a beautiful angel." I blabber and cry loudly as I come hard unexpectedly.

He thrusts harder as I come, and then I feel his hand on my clit and I cease moving when he rubs me, elongating my orgasm. My body feels so much pleasure it can't comprehend all of it at once. My ears cease working and I only hear warm liquid coating my insides and he says, "I love you, Summer. I fucking love you."