Chapter 7

Chapter Seven

Hayden

I knew it wasn't a good idea, but I couldn't hold back.

I needed her.

I can't believe that I'm letting my desires get the better of me, Director Hayes' words brimming in my mind, but I can't bring myself to care. I have solely given my life to working undercover and I never dared to do anything for myself because I never wanted to dream that I could even have anything. It's pretty true because it's like nothing that I have ever felt before and it's like I'm trying to make up for time that I have lost.

I just want her as close to me as possible, how hard is that?

I see the hesitation in her eyes, probably wondering if this is a good idea between us because I have no clue if it is going to be at all. When I look at her, all I think about is how happy she makes me, and I don't want to dare let anything stand in my way. I know the game that we are playing, something so cold that it would end up getting one of us hurt in the process.

Can I take that risk?

"Can you accept me?" I finally ask her, seeing how she peeks up at me with confusion, "Can you accept me for who I am? There are things about me that I'm never going to be able to tell you for your own safety. I know that you might not like it but it's just how it has to be. If you can accept that, I promise that I will do everything that I can to do right by you."

I don't know what else to say without revealing the truth about who I am, and I can't do that. It doesn't matter how I feel about her, and it doesn't matter where our relationship is going to go, I strictly have to make sure that she is never going to end up hurting me in the process of accepting me for who I am.

I don't expect for her to turn her back on her father and decide to help me out with what I'm doing. I would never be able to ask that of her, I know this, and I am truly just trying to do right by her. The whole thing is crazy, but I can't do this with her without informing her of what might end up happening afterwards. I know what I'm going to do, and it is going to rip her world to pieces.

She must have had a boost of confidence because she wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me closer, her lips softly brushing against mine. It is enough to make my heart skip a beat, longing to do a lot more but I also know that I need to absolutely keep her at a distance. I have no clue what is going to end up happening right now but as I feel the sinful touch of her lips, I'm done for.

She has already managed to dig her claws right into me.

"You asked for it." I warn her coldly, my heart racing in my chest almost when I look at her.

I kiss her like I have never kissed someone before, longing to be close to her because it's nothing that I could ever experience before. I just want to do so much more with her, a desire filling me on the inside as I'm craving to be a part of her. When I look at her, it is honestly all that I can think about, and it is really what I want.

Truthfully, I keep asking myself if this is even a good idea, but I can't come up with an answer right now. After everything that has happened so far, it's like nothing is going the way that I need it to, and I have to do everything a certain way.

Our lips move in perfect sync, brushing against one another, tasting the other. I have never tasted someone as sweet as her before, making me crave to do a lot more to her but I'm also holding myself back at the same time. I don't want to scare her off and let my wolf out when he would end up devouring her whole and holding absolutely nothing back. I love him, I really do, but he can be really scary when he is thinking about someone that he really wants.

And I know he wants her.

"Tell me you want this." My voice is coming out huskier and deeper than intended to, but I can't hold anything else back, "I won't touch you if that's not what you want but I have to hear it from your mouth. I need to know precisely what you want from me, Claire, before I do anything about it."

I'm enjoying every part of this, longing to do a lot more but I need to hear it from her. I need all of her and I'm not going to dare let anything change that. I want to do what I can, craving to do a lot more with her. I just need to hear it from her lips, that is what I need.

"I do want you." She suddenly confesses to me, sending a spark through my body like none other. I have never felt this intensely and it makes me snap almost, longing to do so much more with her because it is truly all that I can think about now.

Moving my hands along her body, all I can think about is how she is feeling, the soft curves enough to make me even harder. It's like nothing I have ever felt before, a low growl escaping me as all I can think about is touching her some more. It's like nothing else I have ever thought about, craving every part of it.

I suppose that I'm going to end up figuring it out as we go.

"What do you want me to do?" I finally ask her, holding onto that thin line of control, "I will do whatever you need."

"Whatever you want." Is all she is begging me almost, a needy look in her gaze that is enough to make me crave a lot more, "I don't care what you do to me, Hayden, I just know what I want. I want you and it's all that I can think about now. I can't stand this… Please…"

Her words do something to me, driving me crazy in just a split second. It is like nothing I have ever felt before, longing to pull her closer and do a lot more. I don't know what is going to end up happening, but I do know what I need. Feeling a little boost of confidence, I rip her dress off of her, leaving the tattered remains on the ground and leaving her completely bare and open to me.

Her eyes widened with surprise, "Hayden…"

"Don't worry." I'm assuring her now, just wanting to drive her as crazy as she drives me, "I'm going to take really good care of you, and I can promise that you're going to be fully mine. I will make sure that you never regret being close with me but you're going to be all mine… Do you understand?"

I really don't understand what she is doing to me, but I do know what I need from her. Leaning closer, I cup her soft, ample breasts in my hands, squeezing them softly. I am making sure to not be too rough with it, not wanting to upset her because that would end up destroying me. I love the feeling of how she is, aching for a lot more.

She is just too damn perfect.

She is what I need.

When I look at her, all I can think about is what I want to do to her. How much I'm really craving her and how I'm tempted to do a lot more. It is kind of a scary feeling, making me feel like I'm going wild. I don't know what is going to happen next, but I know what I'm content with.

I'm content with driving her crazy.

I don't care if I am at her mercy, she is mine.

"You're so damn beautiful." I confess to her softly, seeing how her eyes pop wide open and she is staring at me with a beautiful look on her face that makes my heart tumble a little bit, "I want to devour you whole and make you mine… No one is going to be able to take you away."

I can promise her this because I'm telling her the truth. I'm not going to lose her and I'm going to do everything that I can to make sure this goes the way that I need it to. I don't know what is going to end up coming next, but I know what I need.

And that is her right now.

I just hope she feels the same way.