25. Cagan

25

CAGAN

O ur kiss deepens, becoming urgent and needy, as if we're both trying to make up for lost time. The taste of her is intoxicating, familiar yet new after all this time apart. I feel her heartbeat against my chest, echoing the rapid thrum of my own.

We break apart, gasping for breath, our foreheads resting against each other. "I can't believe you're here," I murmur, my voice barely more than a breath.

Hayden smiles, her fingers tracing the line of my jaw. "I'm here Cagan, and we will never be apart again.” she says.

Her words send a surge of warmth through me. I kiss her again, more passionately this time. She responds with equal fervor, her body pressing against mine in a way that makes me dizzy with desire.

Our surroundings fade away, leaving just the two of us at this moment. I feel like I'm drowning in her, in the feel of her lips, the scent of her skin, the sound of her breath hitching in response to my touch. This is what I've been yearning for, what I thought I'd lost forever.

Our movements are frantic and uncoordinated. I lower her onto the bed cushions, following her down, never breaking our kiss. Her hands slide along my muscles, her touch sending shivers down my spine. I pull back just enough to look into her eyes, seeing the same hunger and love reflected back at me.

"Hayden," I whisper, my voice hoarse with need. "I love you."

"I love you too, Cagan," she replies, her voice trembling with emotion.

As our touches grow more bold, I feel an overwhelming urge to hold her even closer, to feel her against me without any barriers. I slide my hands under her thighs and lift her up, her legs wrapping instinctively around my waist. She gasps, a soft, breathy sound that sends a thrill through me.

"I can't wait, Hayden," I murmur against her lips, my voice rough with desire. "I need to be inside you."

Her eyes darken with the same need, and she nods, biting her lower lip.

I trail kisses down her neck, savoring the way she arches into me, her soft moans driving me wild. "I've missed you so much," I murmur against her skin, my hands exploring every inch of her body. "Every day, I thought about you. About us."

"I missed you too," she gasps, her fingers digging into my shoulders. "I never stopped loving you, Cagan."

With deliberate slowness, I reach for the waistband of her pants, my fingers grazing her skin as I begin to slide them down. She lifts her hips to help me, and I discard the fabric to the side, leaving her in just her underwear. I pause for a moment, taking in the sight of her—flushed, vulnerable, and utterly beautiful.

I trace my fingers lightly over her stomach, feeling the slight softness that wasn’t there before. The evidence of her carrying our daughter. My heart swells with a profound mix of love, pride, and awe. “You’re so beautiful, Hayden,” I whisper, my voice filled with reverence. “Every part of you.”

She blushes, a lovely pink spreading across her cheeks. “My body isn’t the same… after Amira, ”she starts, her voice uncertain.

I silence her with a gentle kiss, my lips lingering on hers. “I know,” I say softly as I pull back. “And I love you even more for it. You created life, Hayden. Our daughter. Every change, every mark, is a testament to how strong and incredible you are.”

She cups my face with her hands, pulling me down for another kiss. It’s slower this time, filled with emotion and gratitude.

“Cagan,” she breathes, her hands tangling in my hair as I kiss and caress her. The sound of her voice, the way she says my name, is my undoing.

I take my time removing her underwear, savoring the sight of her fully exposed beneath me. She’s breathtaking, every curve and line a reminder of our shared past and the future we’re building together. I undress quickly, eager to feel skin against skin, and settle back over her, my body aligning with hers.

The moment is electric, charged with the weight of everything we’ve been through and the promise of everything to come. As I enter her again, slow and deliberate, it feels like coming home. We move together, our bodies and souls reconnecting, each touch, each kiss, reaffirming our love.

“Hayden,” I whisper, my voice thick with emotion. “I want to make you feel how much I love you. Every inch of you.”

She nods, her eyes never leaving mine as she bites her lower lip, a small, expectant smile playing at the corners of her mouth.

I kiss my way down to her breasts, my hands following the path of my mouth. I take one nipple into my mouth, sucking gently while my hand massages the other breast, eliciting a soft moan from her. Her back arches slightly, pressing herself closer to me, and I feel a surge of pride and desire at her response.

“Cagan,” she breathes, her voice teeming with encouragement.

I switch to her other breast, giving it the same attention, my tongue flicking over her nipple before I take it into my mouth. Her hands tangle in my hair, holding me close, and I can feel her heartbeat quicken beneath my touch.

When I reach the apex of her thighs, I pause, looking up at her. Her eyes are half-closed, her lips parted, and her breaths come in shallow gasps. I press a soft kiss to her inner thigh, then to the other, feeling her shiver beneath me.

“You’re so beautiful,” I murmur against her skin.

With that, I gently part her legs, positioning myself between them. I press a kiss to her core, feeling the heat and wetness that await me. She gasps, her hips lifting slightly, and I take it as my cue to continue. I glide my fingers along her folds, feeling her slickness, and then slowly insert one finger inside her.

“More,” she moans, her voice filled with need and pleasure.

I move my finger inside her, slowly at first, finding a rhythm that makes her body sing. Her hips move in time with my hand, her breaths coming faster. I add a second finger, curling them slightly to find that spot that makes her cry out. Her reaction is immediate, her body tightening around my fingers, her hands clutching the sheets.

“You feel amazing,” I tell her, my voice low and husky.

I watch her face, her expressions of pleasure driving me on. I curl my fingers again, pressing just right, and her moans grow louder, more desperate. She’s close, I can feel it, and I want to take her over the edge.

I lean down, my tongue joining my fingers, flicking over her clit with a steady rhythm. Her reaction is electric, her body jerking, her moans turning into cries of pleasure. I suck gently, my fingers moving faster, and I feel her body start to tremble, the telltale sign of her impending climax.

“Cagan, oh God, I’m—” she gasps, her whole body tensing.

With a final flick of my tongue and a firm press of my fingers, she cums undone. I feel the waves of her orgasm ripple through her, her body arching off the bed, her cries of pleasure echoing in the room. I don’t stop, continuing my ministrations until she’s completely spent, her body relaxing into the bed, her breaths coming in ragged gasps.

I withdraw my fingers gently, kissing my way back up her body, savoring the afterglow of her release. I position myself between her legs, unable to contain myself any longer.

With a slow, deliberate movement, I begin to enter her. The sensation is overwhelming, her heat and tightness sending a shiver through me. Her warmth envelops me as I push deeper. She moans softly, her hips rising to meet mine, urging me on.

Fully seated inside her, I pause, savoring the feeling of being inside her again. I begin to move, slow and steady at first, each thrust a gentle exploration of the pleasure we can bring to each other.

But as the minutes pass, the intensity between us builds. Our movements become more urgent, our breaths coming faster, mingling in the heated air around us. The need to be closer, to feel more, drives me to quicken my pace. Hayden’s nails dig into my shoulders, her moans growing louder, more desperate.

“Cagan, please,” she gasps, her voice a plea for more.

I respond with a deep, powerful thrust, eliciting a cry of pleasure from her lips. The sound spurs me on, and I find a rhythm that’s faster, harder, each movement a testament to the raw, primal need we feel for each other. Her body arches beneath me, her hips meeting mine with equal fervor.

Hayden’s eyes are wild with desire, her hands clutching at me, pulling me closer. “Cagan, I’m so close,” she whispers, her voice trembling.

“So am I,” I manage to say, my voice strained with the effort of holding back. I want us to reach the peak together, to share this moment of bliss.

With a final, powerful thrust, I feel her body tighten around me, her orgasm crashing over her. The sensation pushes me over the edge, and I follow her into ecstasy, my release mingling with hers in a perfect, harmonious crescendo. We cry out together, our voices blending in a symphony of pleasure.

As we lie entwined, the afterglow of our passion still warming our bodies, I feel an overwhelming sense of peace and fulfillment. Hayden’s head rests on my chest, her fingers tracing lazy patterns across my skin. I gently stroke her hair, savoring the intimacy of this moment.

“Cagan,” she murmurs softly, her voice filled with contentment, “What do you think is next for us?”

I smile, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. “I think of our little family and everything we’ll do together. Watching our daughter grow, teaching her about the world…”

Hayden looks up at me, her eyes shining with love and excitement. “I can’t wait to see all her firsts.”

“Me either,” I agree, my heart swelling at the thought. “And I’ll be there for every moment, supporting her, loving her.”

Hayden’s eyes soften, and she snuggles closer to me. “I love imagining our future together.”

“You and our family are everything to me. I’ll always make sure you know how much you mean to me.”

Hayden smiles, a look of pure happiness on her face. “I love you so much, Cagan.”

“I love you too, Hayden,” I reply, my voice filled with emotion.

We lie there in comfortable silence, wrapped in each other’s arms, dreaming of the beautiful future that lies ahead. And in this moment, I know that no matter what challenges we face, we’ll face them together, with love and unwavering commitment. Our little family is just beginning, and I can’t wait to see where our journey takes us.