19. Chapter 19

Istare at the uzain who hurries to leave. Now... Now I remember I'm here in the training field. I was here and watched a training session. But I've never stood here. This is a large place and it makes me feel even tinier than before.

"Hazel..."

Oh... I turn around to Zil. He is sweaty, but intact. I let out a sigh. "I'm glad I arrived in time."

"In time for what?" he scowls at me, doesn't seem too happy.

I swallow. The way he looks at me... Maybe I've done something wrong, which I don't understand. He fought the captain before and he won, why are they still trying to murder each other? Zil said it was a practice session, but I'm not convinced at all.

He continues, "Why are you here? I thought you wanted time for yourself."

"I did." I look away from him. The way he glares at me is a bit too much when I don't think I've done anything wrong. "Why are you glaring at me? I thought you wanted me to join you here. I can leave if that's what you want."

My heart raced so hard when I arrived to see the fight starting. But Zil doesn't seem to care. "Maybe you wanted to fight him. I worried that you'll get hurt, guess that's not needed."

Maybe there's no reason to care. maybe I should remember that he is just another uzain who has no care about me. He is just saying he will help me to get me staying with him. He is pretending to be the nice guy, which I have been suspecting.

There is a clank. I wince at that, only to see his weapon dropped onto the ground. He rests his hands on my shoulders. "Can I hug you?"

"Have you ever asked before you hug me?" I hiss at him. Maybe I shouldn't have come here. Now, I'm just embarrassing myself.

He wraps his arms around me. "Hazel, I'm more than happy to see you. I miss you a ton."

I look away from him. "I don't believe you."

"I was still heated from the... practice session. I didn't mean to glare at you. I'm happy you want to be here and look for me."

"If it is just a training session, why did both of you glare at each other as if you were trying to murder each other?"

"We... are always trying to recreate an actual battle scene. The enemy isn't going to be nice, may as well practice that."

I suppose he has a point, but I'm still not convinced. They are warriors, not actors. The weight in the air screamed something else. But if he doesn't want to tell me, I suppose I will have to figure it out with some other ways. "Okay. I hope I didn't interrupt you."

"No, you didn't. Maybe the call from the base camp did. I'm always happy to see you. Hopefully, you ate and are feeling better now."

Well, quite some of my time was spent sobbing and hating life. "Yeah, I ate most of the stew. It isn't what I set out to make, but I think it came out well."

He lifts his brows at me. "What do you mean? I think it came out perfectly. I would have finished everything if you weren't hungry too."

Aw... Maybe he is good with his tongue.

Fuck... Why did I even think about that? He... He licked my pussy and sucked me so hard that I came for him more than once. Now I can't stop thinking about that.

I shake my head to clear my mind. He always seems to have a way to annoy me.

He chuckles. "Looks like you're trying to get rid of something."

I sneer at him. "If it is up to me, you know what I want."

He blinks and his smirk falls. "Yeah, I know..."

My heart squeezes at that. I was meant to say I'd stop thinking about the things he can do to me, yet...

For him, it probably sounds like I want to get rid of him and every uzains, which is what I kind of want to do.

But Zil has been taking care of me and I enjoy him too.

I shrug. "Are you going to stay here? Is another training session starting now?"

He checks the clock up on the wall behind me. "I suppose."

"So, you've been working hard, huh?"

"Will be."

Part of me wants to be here with him, but at the same time, maybe I don't. The longer I stay with him, the harder it feels to keep myself away from him.

He wraps his arms around me and kisses my forehead. "I'll see you later."

A surge of heat explodes in me. This is a bit too much. I want more and I want to spend more time with him, which I probably shouldn't.

Maybe someone else is around, showing up for the training session. That should be the only reason he hugs me like that. We agreed to work together so I can leave when a chance presents itself. There's nothing in it for him, but apparently...

I pat his back. Before I consider being his mate for a bit too long, I have to leave.

He lets go of me. "Where will you be?"

"Maybe the kitchen."

He grins. "Sounds good."

I love his smile. He always warms me. Maybe he is looking forward to the food I will cook. I like that.