12. Chapter 12

When I fished for Zil's huge cock, I swore at myself, but I couldn't stop my hand. Something seemed to be wrong with me.

I have no idea why I would be cuddling with him. He said he didn't move my arms, which I don't doubt. But... How did that happen? I remember rolling to sleep, facing away from him. But...

How did I wake up hugging him and... It felt good to stick to him. His warmth is tempting.

It feels like his existence lights a fire in me and pulls me to him. Maybe I want this. But... Maybe I want to thank him and that's all about it.

He did take care of me and I'm grateful for that.

He grunts and his huge cock with bands on it twitches. He is so huge and so hard that I'm not sure whether I can take him and still survive. Yet... He is so thick, looks so tasty.

His cock dangles in front of me. When he starts off half-naked, it doesn't take long before he is naked.

My pussy pulses with heat. I lick my lips when my pussy contracts at the emptiness. Who cares whether I should hook up with him? I want him and that's all I'll care about for now.

"Zil... Are you good with women?"

He grabs me and yanks all my clothes off before he puts me on the bed again. He pushes my legs to the side, baring my naked pussy for his viewing pleasure. I shiver at his heated gaze. That's a bit too much, a bit too tempting. He rubs his tip against my entrance. "Yes. You won't regret this."

"Hm... Fucked some before?" There is, oddly, a jab in my chest as I say that. Maybe I shouldn't ask for an answer I may not like. It makes no sense when I don't really care about that. I'm not here to date him either, but still...

He huffs. "What's that about? Maybe I'm on a battleship, but it doesn't mean I've never touched a female before."

"Mm... Is she a human?"

He pauses and lifts his brows at me. "Is that important?"

I laugh at that. "Not really. But look at this cock, so different from a human one."

He sneers. "So, are you telling me you've taken quite some males? Humans?"

I shake my head. "Geez... I don't have time for that. I work in the space station almost the whole fucking day. When I'm not working, I'm sleeping. Not like you, running around all the time."

He rolls his eyes. "I don't care about that. You're mine now and no one else is going to put their hands on you, ever."

I wonder whether he is just going along with that mate thing. Or maybe he doesn't like it when I mention other males when he has his cock right there, waiting to fuck me alive. "I'll only agree if this is going to be good."

He pushes his thick cock into me and the ring-like band on it rubs against my wall. "You'll scream and shout my name."

I gasp when the bands get into me, sinking deeper and deeper. My body craves his hot cock, and this feels so right, almost as if I'm melting. "Zil... Do you want everyone to hear my moans?"

His cock twitches, seemingly getting even larger. He already stretched me. Now... he is taking up every single inch. "You are so tight with this cute pussy."

I close my eyes, enjoying his thick cock. Maybe this is better than I imagined. He starts moving. He rubs, and fuck it... Every time a band goes through and it feels like I can take a breath, the next band will stretch me again.

He huffs and goes even harder. He pounds my pussy with that huge cock, so much so the bed shakes. I wrap my arms around him. He is a muscular, big guy. I can't even hold him completely in my arms. "Fuck... Zil... I... Yes!"

I scream when he hammers onto my sensitive spot. He chuckles. "Look, I know you are going to love this."

"Yeah..." Pleasure explodes in me. I can't even make out words.

I've never taken such a huge male before. I must be crazy. But this is so good.

He grins at me. Now, he doesn't seem as scary as before. "Scream louder for me."

"Zil... You'll have to— Oh! Yes! Please!"

"Good." He grunts and hammers at me again. This is more pleasure than I've ever felt before. My whole body is burning, and I still want more.

He flips me over and rides me from behind. "So good. Maybe you are meant for me and you don't even know about it."

I gasp. With how good this feels, I'll let him think whatever he wants.

He keeps hitting at my sensitive spot.

He grabs my boobs, pinching my nipples. "Your body is so soft."

His strong muscles press against me, wrapping me completely in his arms and his body. "I like this." He thrusts in deeper and harder. I moan and scream from the pleasure. Maybe he has a point. This is pretty good.

"Zil! Yes! Fuck! You're so huge."

"Yes, and you love to get pounded like this."

"Maybe." I gasp when an orgasm hits me squarely. "Fuck... You are so good at me."

He bites my shoulder, almost breaking my skin. "Mine..."

"Mm... Zil..." Maybe it won't be that bad.

Fuck!

His cock twitches in me and he groans. "I'm going to fill you up."

"Yes! Do that!" My pussy contracts around his thick cock, wanting his cum already. He makes my body burn with lust even though...

None of this makes any sense. It feels like my body craves him even though I should know better than giving in.

He shoves his cock into the deepest of me and he pulses in his cum.

My toes curl and my body tenses when he is so hot that he almost burns. My pussy milks him, letting him take over every inch of me. I hate how he has complete control of my body and he can make me come whenever he wants.

My body tenses even more and I roll over, trying to get rid of him. But he is heavy, and I can't shake him off just like that. "Zil! Stop it! Go away!" My voice cracks and my throat hurts at that.

He flinches and rolls over. When he gets off me, I kick his stomach and he rolls to the side a bit more, almost falling off the bed.

I wrap the blanket around me and grab my knees, hoping I'll disappear from the room.

He frowns as he gets up and sits on the bed instead. His naked cock is still hard, right there facing me, as if flexing how it can make me scream like a bitch.

"Hazel... Are you... fine?"

I gasp when his hot cum burns my inside. I don't even know whether I hate that or not.

His frown deepens. "I don't mean to hurt you or upset you. If I knew you didn't want this, I wouldn't have."

I close my eyes. I'm the one who started this. Even when I woke up to my arms wrapping around him, I could have just apologized and turned around. He wouldn't do anything to me, yet...

I pull the blanket to cover my face. "Leave me alone."

"I just want you to know that I would never hurt you."

"Stop it. I know. Just... Please... I'm tired."

He sighs. I can't see his face when I bury mine in the blanket, but I can imagine his scowl. He says, "Are you scared of me?"

My cheeks burn even hotter than my body. He is driving me crazy... "No."

"But you pushed me to the side."

"Are you mad?" I know he is close by, but when I hide in the darkness like this, it feels better.

"No, I'm not. I want to understand what's with you. I thought we were having fun."

I open my mouth, but my throat is tight. I hate how... when he had his way with me, it was... It was great, but at the same time, I hate that. Maybe it's not him, but...

He remains quiet as if he is waiting for me to talk. But I don't want to talk. There are enough things happening in the day that I don't want to deal with anything.

But he is a lot more patient than I'd like. I wish he would say something or do something, so I wouldn't have to answer him. I won't even care if he gets mad and wants to whip me like his stupid captain would.

All he does is sit there and watch me. The blanket separates us, but it doesn't stop his burning gaze from scorching me. Why must he keep staring at me?

He sighs. "Well, if you don't want to talk, it is fine. Can I at least have my half of the blanket so I can sleep?"

I suppose it is only fair. But... My body is tense again. Maybe it is how we fucked around, or maybe it was from the long day. I don't even know how long I've spent here. When I was in the dark room, there was no sign of time.

Zil has been trying to help me. But I'm the one...

He is one of those who kidnapped me, though. I shouldn't have to feel sorry about that.

But...

The bed shifts. I wait for him to yank the blanket away from me. He is a strong one and he can do that for sure. I can't stop him.

"It's okay if you want to keep the blanket."

So... He isn't going to take it away from me?

I peek out of the blanket without getting it completely off my face. There are gaps wide enough for me to steal a glance at him.

He lies on the bed, staring at the wall away from me. Maybe he is going to leave me alone. He is still naked, and... While his body is warm, maybe he will be cold sleeping completely naked.

I unwrap myself from the blanket. Maybe this is what he wants. I hate to play into his plan.

The blanket sits on the bed. I'm still naked. He doesn't move and doesn't come over to take the blanket. Maybe he is still waiting for me to give it to him. I sigh. "Are you cold?"

"I can deal with it. If you want the blanket, you can have it."

"I didn't mean to push you away."

"It's okay. I understand if you don't want me. You can take your time. I was surprised you touched me and seemed to want me, anyway. Not what I expected."

"I..." I put the blanket over him.

He asks, "Can I roll over? Or do you want me to leave you alone?"

I slide on the bed and put my head on the pillow, hiding my naked body under the blanket. "What do you want?"

"I want to hold you and comfort you. But I doubt that'll be the case."

I stare at the ceiling while he remains staring at the wall to the other side.

He continues after he waits long enough in silence. "Why, though? If you weren't ready, you could let me know. I'm not a monster. I won't make you do anything you don't want."

The load in my chest grows. I don't hate that. I like how good it felt when he took me in his arms and when he hammered me with his huge cock, it's just...

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be." He moves to get comfortable without turning over to look at me. "There's nothing to apologize for. I'm confused."

"I'm confused too. It just... I mean, you said you want me to be your mate. I guess we should practice that."

"Practise?" His voice turns husky, maybe I'm nudging something, and I should stop if I don't want to get that close to him again.

I nod even though he won't see it. "Yes. I don't know how to explain. But... I don't hate you. Probably."

"Okay? While I want you to be my mate, take your time. I'll wait until you beg for my cock and my cum."

Maybe I should be worried. His voice is filled with lust, which sends a fire in me again. His strong body acts like a magnet to me. I want him, but maybe I should figure out what's wrong with me. I don't even know what's right and what's wrong by now. He is confusing.

I want to believe that he is here to help, but what if he isn't?

But... I stare at the blanket between us with my eyes narrowed. Why am I staring like this? As if I'm trying to see his cock?

When we are under the same blanket together, his heat seeps its way into me and wraps me up, regardless. He can annoy me even when he isn't looking at me. How dare he?

"Hazel."

"Yes?"

"Tomorrow, I'll show you around."

"As your mate."

"Yes. I swear, I'm trying to help you."

"So, the other uzains will keep their hand off me."

"Yes." He seems to be very certain about that.

"Or maybe you just want me for yourself." My cheeks burn as I say the words. Maybe I shouldn't say that.

"Don't be a tease. Sleep." He sucks in a deep breath.

"Did I make you hard again?"

He remains quiet. Has he fallen asleep? That's rude.

After I pushed him to the side, maybe I should stop tempting him. But... his heat seems to pull me over to him. I want his arms, but at the same time, I don't want him.

I close my eyes, willing myself to sleep. I need that. I need my mind off his body.