Chapter 12

twelve

. . .

ADDY

With one brush of lips, everything had changed.

The feeling was so strange, so final, yet so peaceful. Like I had unknowingly been standing on a boat and now was on solid ground for the first time.

Alil's soul soothed me. He had always been like a balm to me, but suddenly his presence felt like a tonic that had been swallowed down and now worked from the inside out.

The way I felt hadn't changed, yet it had completely at the same time. The biggest change of which was that I now knew I was not alone.

I was not me. I was us.

Whatever we faced from now on would be together and that was a good thing. It made me feel stronger.

And yes, holding him in my arms, made my body feel in a way that it hadn't ever before, butthere was no rush now because I knew we would have forever.

"Come," I said. "Let us have our feast."

Alil blinked, clearly having forgotten the effort I'd gone to earlier. He looked over at the picnic spread out on a blanket, ready for us and smiled.

Then, taking my hand in his, he led me over to the spread and sat, gingerly pulling me down next to him.

Neither of us seemed to know what to say, but every time our eyes caught, Alil was smiling, a sweet, silly smile, that he could not hold back and my heart felt like it was going to burst.

"Do you like it?" I asked, watching him take a bite of the desert I'd made. It was a simple classic, made of some of the berries I'd found in the oasis mixed with a syrup, the ingredients of which were in our shelf.

"It taste's as good as my grandmother's," he informed me, watching me curiously. "For an alpha, you are an incredible cook."

"What do you mean, for an alpha?" I teased. "Do you think we can do nothing but fight?"

"Well, yes," he said, laughing and reached out, trailing his fingertips over the jagged spikes on my shoulder blade.

"Be careful," I warned. "They're sharp."

He rolled his eyes.

"I'm sure that's what every alpha thinks."

"It's true though," I said, wiggling out of reach. "Okay, maybe you would have to rub your skin against them with some force, but it's still possible. Better to be safe."

Alil hummed thoughtfully.

"Truthfully, you are a rather big, intimidating alpha."

I couldn't resist leaning closer and stealing a quick kiss.

My heart raced. It was still shocking that I could do that.

Alil's gaze darkened.

"That feels so nice," he breathed.

He leaned in for another and I met him halfway. For a long time, our food was forgotten as we kissed, tentatively tasting each other's lips. Literally.

When I touched my tongue to his lips, Alil gasped, drawing back to give me a wide-eyed look before suddenly I was being pulled onto the blanket on top of him.

He yanked me down, pressing his lips hungrily to mine, his arms tight around my neck so I couldn't pull away this time, not that I was planning to.

I moaned, leaning half my weight down on him, not yet letting him feel my hard length as I slid my tongue out again. This time, his lips parted and we both moaned as I slipped between them.

Our tongues touched, rubbing together sensually.

My cock was so hard, I didn't think I could take it. Did it always border on pain? Was that why Alil had been so desperate for release? Or was it because this was my first proper erection in years and the first time I would ever use it with someone else?

It was nearly hard to breathe, but I couldn't pull back. I was intoxicated by his mouth and the warmth of his body under me.

I shifted, desperate to press my length against him, but the moment I did, my tail hit something, and there was a clatter somewhere behind me.

We parted on a gasp, and both looked over.

Luckily, I had only knocked over the plate of flat bread.

"Its fine," Alil said, pulling me back in for another kiss.

I returned it, but dragged myself away after a moment.

"We're going to end up rolling around in food," I told him, extracting myself from his arms.

I went about collecting the plates, carefully placing them back onto the log, using it as a makeshift table.

"How is it that you're the responsible one now?" Alil wondered aloud.

I chuckled and glanced back at him, about to tell him that he was thinking with his cock, but my mouth went dry at the sight of him.

He was disheveled, his lips swollen, gaze dark with desire and his cock was hard, just like mine, tenting the front of his robe.

Oh Goddess, that was all mine now. Every part of him belonged to me and he owned me completely in return.

Breath caught in my throat, I crawled toward him, not stopping until I was over top of him.

He took a shuddering breath and remained still, waiting to see what I would do.

I didn't know. Until last night, I had never done any of this. I was completely out of my comfort zone.

For a moment, I was frozen, thinking.Then I remembered that following my instincts was all I could do. We would figure this all out together.

I lowered my hips purposefully.

The moment our hard cocks rubbed together we both gasped. Even through fabric it felt amazing, but I knew it wouldn't be enough, so I lifted up and carefully pulled my robe off, tossing it aside.

When I turned back, Alil was watching me with wonder.

He reached out tentatively, tracing his hands over the planes and curves of my body as though he hadn't just seen it this morning.

His hands trembled a little and it was so sweet that it made me ache.

When they skated over my cock, liquid seeped from the tip.

I shuddered, eyes fluttering shut while he explored me, taking me close to the edge.

"You're so beautiful Addy," he whispered.

First perfect and now beautiful, it seemed that Alil could make me believe anything, but the way he said it left no room for doubt.

"You too, Lili," I said honestly.

He smiled softly.

"Can you come kiss me again?" he asked.

I nodded and lowered over him, lining our hard cocks once more.

It was so good lying there, kissing him endlessly, our cocks rubbing together. So good in fact, that my body suddenly shuddered all the way through, and I came, pressing down against his length as my cock jerked and emptied.

I groaned, burying my face against his shoulder, overcome by pleasure.

When I felt like I could move again, I lifted my head and looked down at Alil.

"That was the sexiest thing that has ever happened," he informed me.

I chuckled, still breathless and yes, still hard. Our new bond would not allow us to stop until Alil had taken my knot. Everyone knew that. It was common knowledge, but I was suddenly nervous for the next part.

Alil had known from his personal experience touching himself how to make it feel good for me. I didn't have that kind of knowledge.

"Are you ready for more?" I asked, stroking back his hair.

"Feel me," Alil whispered in answer.

His cock was large and hard and already jutting against my stomach, so I knew he didn't mean that.

Swallowing, I reached down.

He bent his knees, wrapping them around my waist, giving me better access to touch him down there. His bottom was round and cute and for a moment, I palmed a cheek, just glad that I got to touch it, and then I tentatively reached in deeper, brushing my fingers over his hole.

Unlike last time, it was dripping wet already when my finger bushed the opening.

Desire overwhelmed me all over again as I began gently rubbing his hole, so silky with slick.

"My damn claws," I grunted because I wanted to push my fingers inside, but I didn't want to cut him.

"Allow me," he breathed and for a few, glorious minutes, I massaged the outer ring, feeling his fingers going in and out while his cock twitched between us.

"Now," he gasped. "Please."

Moaning, I aligned my cock with his opening and pressed my hips forward.

There was only a moment of resistance and then I was sliding into his hole, feeling the sweet muscles tight around my cock.

"Oh, oh Goddess," Alil gasped, clutching my shoulders.

His heels dug into my ass and he hoisted himself up a little to change the position and cried out as I pressed all the way inside.

We both moaned in pleasure and for a moment it was too much. I was going to come again, dammit. I bit my lips, trying desperately to steel myself. I needed to give Alil something. It couldn't all be about me. Surely, he would be nice about it, but I would be crushed if it was over too fast for him to enjoy it.

He seemed to sense my struggle because he stayed still, waiting, his hands rubbing gentle circles on my back until I thought I could breathe again.

"Okay," I gasped and started to move.

As soon as I did my eyes were practically rolling.

So, this was what sex was like with a working cock deep inside a willing body—perfect.

"So good," Alil gasped beneath me. "You feel so good Addy."

His eyes were squeezed shut against the pleasure, his nails and heels digging into my back.

I knew he meant it and already knew from before that he liked it slow—which worked for me because if I started to thrust into him with abandon, I would lose all control too fast.

Even so, my thrusts took us closer until Alil was gasping and squirming, chasing my cock every time I pulled out and crushing our hips together whenever I was inside him all the way.

He began to moan, incoherent words slipping from his lips, and I couldn't resist bending my head and kissing him while he babbled.

I pushed my tongue into his mouth and that was it for both of us, all control evaporated and we thrashed together, hips smacking until another release shook my body and with it, Alil broke from my mouth, crying out as he released between us.

I clung to him, holding him through the tremors as my knot thickened within him.

"Oh, yes," he gasped, and shivers kept passing through him for a long time, far longer than I thought possible until we were both exhausted and sated.

"I can't pull out yet," I whispered, feeling my knot thickening. His arms tightened around me.

"I don't want you to yet," he informed me.

With a happy sigh, I snuggled against him, allowing my weight to settle on his body.

"Was it okay?" I asked after a minute.

"Okay?" he asked, chuckling. "Addy, that was amazing..."

He made a happy noise and stroked my back, his lips absently drifting over my temple.

Finally, my knot released and cock softened enough to be pulled free. I was a bit disappointed to do it. I liked being connected to Alil.

I rolled off of him, curling up on my side facing him and he positioned himself so that we were still pressed together.

"This is nice," he said.

"It is," I agreed, looking up at the stars.

At some point everything had gone dark, but I couldn't place when exactly. I had been distracted, but there was something magical about lying naked under the stars together. It really felt like we were in our own world out here.

"How nice would it be to stay out here," he whispered, reading my thoughts. "You and me in our own little haven where no one can say anything."

I ran my hands through his hair, smiling softly.

"That is such a beautiful dream," I agreed and kissed his forehead before holding him close to my chest.