23. Holden

23

HOLDEN

She’s sucking me so well I feel my balls draw up, and I’m about to blow my load. As soon as her eyes lift to mine, I know I’m a fuckin’ goner. Gone in every way I can be. She’s going to be mine—not just today but forever.

I strangle out the words. “Get up here, Cat.”

Her eyebrows lift, but she doesn’t stop. Fuck, this is too hard, but I don’t want to come in her mouth, I want to come inside her pussy. I’m not sure why this is so important to me, but it is. I lift her under her arms, pulling her up my body until she’s straddling me and my seeping cock is pressed against the crevice of her ass. She wipes her mouth. “What—”

I cut her off. “I’m clean. ”

She leans forward, putting her hands on my chest. I’m not sure if she realizes it or not, but she’s pushing her hips back and forth, grinding her pussy into my stomach. “Talk to me, baby. Tell me I can go in you bare.”

“I’m clean and I’m on the pill, but…”

She stops, and I put my hands on her hips to pull her tighter against my body. She’s so reactive, and she moans as she grinds into me. “Talk to me, Cat. Will you take me bare?”

She nods. “I trust you.”

It’s like a hit to the solar plexus, and I don’t take her words lightly. “Ride me, baby.”

She lifts up and wraps her hand around my length, positioning me at her entrance. She sucks in a breath as she lowers herself on me, and her whole body starts to tremble. She’s tight like a vise on my dick, and I give her time to adjust to me. When she sinks a little farther, I’m concentrating on not coming right here, right now. She feels so good, and I tell her so. “Fuuuuck, You feel like you were made for me.”

“I need to move, Holden.”

I lean up and put my hands on her hips. “Move, baby.”

She lifts up and slams back down. She twirls her hips, finding what she likes, and it’s pure torture, but I grit my teeth and take it. “That’s it, Cat. Can you give me another one?”

She laughs and shakes her head. “There’s no way.”

I flip her to her back, lift her knees to her chest, and drive into her. She gasps and hooks her feet on my shoulders.

“Deep… you’re so deep, Holden.”

“Come for me, Cat.”

“Arghhh.” She grunts as I pummel into her.

I reach between us and press a finger to her sensitive clit. It instantly sets her off, and she clamps on to me until I have to force myself in and out.

Her head is thrown back, her whole body pulled taut, and she feels so perfect that I can’t hold back another second. I let myself go and thrust into her, painting her insides until I’m spent and half out of my mind.

We’re both heaving our breaths, and I’m trying to keep my weight off her, but she has her arms around me, holding me to her.

She pulls me tight to her, but I resist. “I’m going to squash you, Cat.”

She doesn’t release me, though; if anything, she holds me tighter. “Please, hold me, Holden. I just need you to hold me.”

I let my body sink against hers. I’m still buried inside her, but I’m not complaining. As our breaths even out, I nuzzle into her neck. “I need to get up.”

I feel her chest expand as she takes a deep breath. Is there disappointment in her voice? “Okay.” She releases her hold on me.

I pull out of her and then move to lie next to her. “You ready?”

Her eyes pop open, and she looks at me. “Ready for what?”

“A shower… food… and then round two?”

She leans up on her elbows. “Round two?”

I cup the side of her face. I want to tell her that this was perfect and that I want her and Cole to stay here, but I keep it to myself. “Yeah, round two, round three… whatever we can fit into tonight. And then tomorrow we’re picking up Cole and—”

She half-whispers, “And then we’ll be back to friends.”

I chuckle and shake my head. “Oh, we’re more than friends.”

She puts her hand to my chest. “Holden, we agreed—”

I cover her hand with my own. “We agreed that you want to keep this between us, and that’s fine for now, but eventually—”

She cuts me off, stretching her body and then climbing over me. Her body glides across mine, and even though I’m exhausted, my cock twitches. She smiles, knowing exactly what she’s doing to me. “Let’s not talk about ‘eventually.’ Come on, Holden, if we’re going to get to round three, then we better shower.”

I watch her ass shake side to side as she walks to the bathroom. I give her a few seconds to herself and then follow her just in time to see her walking into the shower and standing under the hot water.

I stand at the open door and watch her. Her eyes are closed, head tilted back, and she’s letting the spray hit her in the face and trail down her body. She’s beautiful, and I love seeing this unguarded version of her. When she lifts her head and sees me watching her, she smiles and holds her hand out to me. “You coming in?”

I grab on to her hand like it’s a lifeline and walk up to her, wrapping my arms around her. A need I’ve never felt before comes over me, and I hug her to me, resting my cheek on the top of her head. My arms are around her shoulders, and she lifts hers to go around my waist. But my favorite part is the way she melts into me, accepting the hug that I need from her. We stand here for so long that I worry the hot water may give out. It’s been a long time since I’ve hugged someone, and I let all the emotions roll through me.

“You okay, Holden?” she murmurs.

I sniff. “Yeah, I’m good… the best.”

She leans her head back, resting her chin on my chest, and I loosen my hold on her so I can look her in the face. “Are you okay?”

She smiles. “Yeah, I’m just surprised. I never would have thought you would be a cuddler after sex.”

Hell, I’m not. I’m usually looking for ways to put some distance between me and the woman, and that’s just another reason why I know what’s happening between Cat and me is more than just sex. I lock my hands at her back. “I’m usually not… It’s different with you.”

She tenses in my arms, but I don’t let her go. It’s like she doesn’t want to believe that this is more than it is. She has to realize this is more than just some fling. She pulls from my arms and grabs the soap off the ledge and squirts it into her hands. “Come on, Mr. Gray. Let’s get you clean.”

She puts her hands to my chest and starts to wash me. I want to insist we have a real conversation, but it’s clear she wants to keep this light. I’ll let her have her way, for now. I cover her hands with my own. “If you’re going to be running your hands over my body to get me clean, then round two is going to happen sooner rather than later.”

She rolls her eyes with a big smile on her face. “Promises, promises.”

And because I can’t hold back any longer, I cup her face in my hands and kiss her like there’s no tomorrow.