10. Conner

10

Conner

T he sun is cresting the horizon as I just about finish my run. I take off my shirt and wipe the sweat from my forehead. Tanner Bang has the cup at his place tonight, and he's having a big get together. It will be the first time Dani and I have been out with anyone since we started having sex, and now, we're going to tell everyone that we're dating. I'm not sure how they're going to react. Maybe they won't be surprised. We do, after all, spend a lot of time together. Still, she used to be my brother's wife and that can make things a bit awkward.

I head inside the house, and even though it's a workday for Dani, it's still early and she doesn't have to be up just yet. I've been helping her out at the Airbnb, but soon enough, once school lets out at the end of June, just a week away, I'll be busy helping with the hockey camps. I love helping out the younger players and giving back to the community. A lot of the guys who live in the local area like to help out too.

I tiptoe up the stairs and make my way to the shower. I pass by my room, and glance in to find Dani sound asleep. My heart squeezes tight at the adorable sight and while I'd like to climb back into bed with her, I'm too sweaty. She's not ovulating until next week, but that hasn't kept us from ravishing each other. I pass by her bedroom, and my chest tightens. I don't want to sleep in my brother's bed, which is why we're always in the spare room.

What if you become a real family, Conner?

I step into the bathroom and tear off my shorts and socks as that thought bangs around inside my brain. Dani hasn't even cleaned the place out yet. It's pretty much the same as it was when my brother was alive. I don't even think she's emptied his side of the closet. I realize it's because she still loves him, but when does one move on, and will she ever be able to love another?

Will she ever be able to love me?

Fuck, that's what I want, what I've always wanted, and if it's never going to happen having a baby with her isn't my smartest move. Not that anyone ever considered me smart. But that could lead to hurt and pain…loss. I gulp, because I can't lose Dani. I can't even consider what my life would look like without her in it in some capacity.

I turn on the rain shower nozzle and step into the big open shower. I tilt my head back, and try not to let panic overtake me as I let the hot spray fall over my tired body. A good run is supposed to help clear the head, not mess it up.

"Need a hand?"

I open my eyes and find a sleepy-looking Dani gazing at my naked body. My cock instantly thickens at the deep desire in her eyes and it's in that moment, as I look at her, the fear subsides and I think maybe things will be different this time.

"Did I wake you?" I hold my hand out to her, and she unties her fluffy pink robe, letting it fall to the floor. My cock jumps at the gorgeous sight and I can't help but think how quickly she's became comfortable in her own skin around me. It was just three weeks ago that she wanted to have sex with the lights off, which is ludicrous. She has a body that needs to be admired. Did my brother allow her to leave the lights off, or worse, not pay her the attention she deserved? Jesus, I hate to think that, but the more time I spend with her, the more apparent that becomes.

She takes my hand, and mine swallows hers whole as I guide her in, and pull her against my body. "No, but I wish you would have."

"I was probably going to, after I showered," I confess.

"Didn't you know I like my men hot and sweaty?"

I laugh at that. "I somehow doubt that."

She squirts soap into her hand and starts washing my chest. "I also like when they smell like grapefruit."

I moan. "Yeah, it's such a manly smell."

She breathes me in and I cup her chin, lifting her face to mine. I bend my head and kiss her deeply, and her moan of pleasure curls around me and tugs at my balls.

She runs her hands over my cock, massaging the length of me and I groan. "Shower sex is the best."

Her hand stills for a second and that's when I realize what I said. Of course, she doesn't want to be thinking about shower sex with my brother, and I know I sure as hell don't want to be thinking about it either.

"I'm sorry, Dani."

She blinks up at me. "For what?"

"Memories," is all I say. "They're not easy. I know."

She groans and glances down, her hands still on my cock, still caressing me. She stares at my length, and I'm not sure I even want to know what's going through her head. I'm about to pull out of her hand when she speaks.

"I've never had shower sex before, Conner."

What the fuck.

"Dani." Her head lifts, and eyes full of sadness meet mine. What the fuck was wrong with my brother? How was he not having sex with this amazing woman all the time, all over his house. "I'm your first?" I ask. She nods and averts her gaze, like she's embarrassed about that, but it's not her who should feel shameful. My brother didn't do right by her. But goddammit, I sure as hell am going to. Then another thought hits. "Do you want to have shower sex?" I ask.

She nods eagerly. "I do," she admits eagerly and honestly, which prompts me to tell a small truth, too.

I push her damp hair back, my gaze moving over her flushed face. "I like having a first with you."

She grins, and teases, "I woke up so needy." A small laugh bubbles out of her throat. "My hormones are all over the place."

Her words are a reminder that we're not a couple, a family. We're friends having sex and while we're enjoying it, there's an end purpose. She rubs my cock a little faster, and blood drains from my brain. What was I just thinking about?

No longer able to remember or care, I squirt soap into my hands, and run them down her back, wanting to make her first time having shower sex spectacular for her. I cup her ass and give it a small squeeze and she chuckles as she continues to stroke my hard cock. If she keeps that up, this will be over before it begins.

I move her so she's positioned under the warm spray and I run my hands over her breasts, taking time with her pert nipples. Her body sways and I slide one hand lower, brushing her inner thighs.

"Conner," she murmurs, and reaches down, taking my hand and putting it on her sex. I do love a girl who knows what she wants.

"Need something, babe?"

"Yes," she groans, and I slide a finger into her. Her muscles clamp around me, and I curse under my breath. She really did wake up needy. I move my finger in and out of her slick heat, and her hands move to my balls.

"Fuck yeah."

"Seems like you need something, too," she teases.

"I do." I pull my fingers from her hot sex, grip her shoulders, and turn her. She gasps as I take her hands and put them on the back wall. With my mouth close to her ear, I whisper, "Keep them there."

She gasps again, a quiver racking her body as I put my foot between hers to widen her legs. "Conner," she whimpers, the pleasure in her voice teasing pre-cum from my crown.

I grip her hips and tug until her ass is in the air, her body opened for me. Pistoning forward, my tip breaches her tight opening, and in one quick thrust, I'm all the way inside her, my cock hitting her cervix. She calls out my name as she gasps and claws at the wall, her muscles quivering around my dick. Jesus, that feels incredible.

I grip her hips and hold tight as I pull out and drive back in again. I am never, ever going to get enough of this woman. Her breathing changes and I fuck her for a few more minutes. Her hot juices coat my cock, and I easily slick in and out of her. As her body quivers, chasing an orgasm, I fall over her, taking one breast into my palm while I slip my other hand between her legs to tease her clit.

The second I touch her, her heat explodes around my cock and I groan as I press hot, open-mouthed kisses to the wet flesh of her back. I circle her sensitive clit as she rides out the waves, and once her tremors subside, I grip her hips again.

"Conner, so good," she breathes out, her voice soft and sated.

I drive in and out of her, her muscles squeezing me tight. After three thrusts, I drive deep, and stay there as I deplete myself in her, filling her body with my cum. "Fuck yeah."

She whimpers and moves her body, milking every last drop out of me. I fall over her again and breathe against her back as my heart pounds against her. I run my hands down her legs, knowing they're probably unsteady.

I hold her to me, and when we both catch our breaths, I stand and pull her up. With her back pressed against my chest, I move her hair to the side and lightly kiss her neck. She moans, and sags against me, and the intimacy in the way our bodies meld tugs at my heart.

After a moment, she breaks the quiet. "Shower sex is pretty amazing."

I chuckle against her ear. "It's pretty amazing based on who you're having it with."

"We're going to be doing that again."

"For sure." I get the sense that Dani has only ever had bedroom sex, and dammit, I want to broaden her horizons. "But did you also know sex on the kitchen table, in front of a mirror, against the window, or even outside under the stars is just as amazing?"

I turn her in my arms and her half-lidded eyes meet mine. "Really?"

"Yeah, we can try all those things."

She tugs her bottom lip between her teeth. "I'd like that. But my neighbors…"

I shrug. "My place is pretty private." I like the idea of us being in my house, in my own bed, where memories aren't haunting either of us. "No one can see into my windows or my backyard."

Her eyes go wide. "Ooh, pool sex."

"You want that?" She nods and I kiss her. "How about tonight, after the party?"

She chuckles and reaches between our bodies. "Will you be up for it?"

"Babe, I'm just about ready for round two right here in the shower."

She grins. "While that sounds nice, I have to get to work. I don't want to be late picking up my pups."

"Right." I move her again until she's under the spray, which is beginning to get cold, so we both shower quickly. Once done, we dress, have coffee and breakfast, and thirty minutes later, we're on her bus. I get great joy watching her face light up as she picks up the dogs, and they truly love her as much as she loves them. Honestly, what's not to love? I knew how loveable she was when I first met her in high school. But I was worried about our friendship and then my brother stepped in. I couldn't help but think she went for the right brother. I barely made it through high school. At least I was good at hockey and channeled all my frustration at my inability to learn into scoring.

Once all the dogs are picked up, we head to the Airbnb, and she opens the gate. After closing it behind her, she opens the doors to the bus and the dogs all jump off and start running around the fenced-in grass area.

I shake my head and grin. "You have the best job."

She laughs. "I love what I do." She stands and I pull her into my arms, needing my mouth on hers. "Can't wait for tonight," I whisper when I break the kiss.

She nods and is about to get off the bus, but stops and calls, "Conner."

"Yeah?"

"I liked having a first with you too."