26. Nitro

TWENTY-SIX

NITRO

Sitting on the couch rolling up my joint, I slept two hours after fucking her as much as I could before I could see she had nothing left in her. She wanted to ask questions and a deal is a deal, and I kept my side of it, she soon realised what I was doing.

Three questions, she got to ask about my tattoos, and that's because I made sure I fucked her good enough to tire her out enough so she wanted to sleep.

The questions weren't anything special, and I told her that too, she wasted her question, which pissed her off and I could see it on her face, which was so cute.

"Did you even sleep?" I turn to the door, as Emily walks out standing in nothing but a t-shirt.

"Couple of hours," I light my joint, and sit back on the couch, staring at her legs longer than I need to be, but I don't care because she has some sexy fucking legs, and they will be even sexier when I can cover up the fucked up tattoos she has on them.

She goes to talk, but stops when my phone rings, and I dig it out of my pocket, and see Ares' name flash.

"You're on speaker, she's here," I say throwing my phone on the table as I pick up my bowl of cereal. I wait for Ares to put a bandana on to cover his voice.

"So she didn't tell you to fuck off when she saw your ugly face," he says with a laugh. "Your client cancelled this morning, so I've booked you in with someone to talk to today, I'll send over the address."

"Okay, you spoke to Wesley?" I ask. I'm worried about him, not sure if he is safe where he is, but he won't listen.

"Went over in the night, he's good, gave me a few more files for you both-" There is silence and I wait for him to continue. "-You want to put that fucking thing down? She know your name?"

"What's going on? And yes she does." I look at Emily walking over from the kitchen with a bowl of cereal.

"Nothing, just one of the brothers wanting to fucking piss me off." I hear he's not having a good morning, which only makes me think I should pop over.

"Where is the other one?" I ask about Nyx, he's normally there in the mornings.

"Gone to talk to the eye doctor, I want the eye soon as we can get it, so the other fucker thought it would be good to fuck up my whole night by taking out the fucking power." I can't help but laugh because he sounds pissed off, and it takes a lot for one of us to piss him off, others maybe it would be five minutes, but not with us.

"You want me to come over to give you a break?" I ask, placing my empty bowl of cereal on the table, then lighting my joint.

"If you want to come over here to keep the fucker from doing something stupid, it must mean you're not fucking her well enough for her to be begging you." Ares laughs, and I roll my eyes as I shake my head at him.

"Just for that, you can fucking suffer, and I'll be over after we go the appointment, I hope he makes your morning miserable." I hang up before he can say anything back to me.

"I'm going to guess that was Red Eyes ." I laugh nodding at her. "Is he really that crazy?" she asks.

"You've not seen anything yet, he is-" I stop and think of the right word. "-a psycho nut, Blue Eyes is a disturbed nut, Black Eyes he's the quiet one, the protector, but the man is fucking smart, he will learn new things, reads a fuck ton, then you have me."

"And you are?" The words escape in a whisper, too scared for the answer, because I've not said the best things about my brothers, but it's not a lie.

"I'm the angry one, the one who wants answers." I grab my phone when it comes with a message for the appointment. "We are going to see a specialist about your memory, it's called hypnosis therapy, we leave in ten minutes." I get up and clean up the kitchen, and I hear her cuss and I look over at her.

"I don't think-"

"You have two choices, go to the appointment, or let Red Eyes get inside your head, you pick," I snap at her. She has no idea what fucked up shit Ares would do to get the door to open.

"I'll get ready," she walks over to the bedroom, and I take the moment to change up the bandage around my stomach.

I know it will take a few weeks to fully heal, but it's not the first time I've done this, and I'm sure it won't be the last.

"What happened to you?" I look at Emily staring at my stomach.

"Nothing." Nothing she needs to know about, not yet anyway, but I know I will have to tell her soon though if she's with me now.

"It doesn't look like nothing, Nitro." Is it crazy that I like the sound of my name coming from her mouth? "You need cream on it."

"I have some-" showing her the cream in my hand, which makes her walk over and snatch it out of my hand. "And what do you think you're doing?" I ask her.

"Putting the cream on," she does look up at me and she puts the cream onto her fingers, and it takes her a moment to touch my stomach.

"Doesn't hurt," I tell her with a little laughter, and she looks up at me shaking her head. "You can see this isn't my first time," I can start telling her things slowly, but can't tell her everything until my brothers all agree with it.

Her fingers move softly over my burn, but it also feels good at the same time. I never had someone touch me this soft before, and it feels good.

"Get ready, we need to leave." I pull away from her and grab my t-shirt from the couch, then turn back to her. "If anything happens, you run. You have your phone which has my number in there-" I stop talking because her whole body tenses up, and I walk closer to her. "-I'm only telling you this incase, they will have to get past me before I let them touch you, you understand?" I ask.

She doesn't say anything at first as she moves her weight from foot to foot, before finally saying. "I believe you'd protect me," she tiptoes and gives me a kiss, then walks away.

Fuck, I have no idea how to work on a relationship, never had one, don't know anyone in one either, because I'm not taking advice from Ares, so I'm going to have to learn on my own how this shit works.

The assistant walks us into the room, and Emily has had a tight grip on my hand since we walked through the front door, and I can feel her body shaking.

"The doctor will be in shortly," she tells us, and leaves the room.

Emily sits on the couch, and I take the moment to look around the room, rolling my eyes at the books on her shelf. Everyone can have a normal life, like fuck they can.

"I'm so sorry for keeping you," I turn around as the doctor walks in, and she walks over to Emily, and shakes her hand. "I'm doctor Michelle, so nice to meet you." She walks over to me, and I shake her hand, but don't introduce myself.

"I would like to start by asking what brings you here today?" she asks Emily, who looks up at me and I give her a nod. I told her to be honest, the doctor can't tell anyone about this, and any notes about today's session will be gone by morning, so I'm not worried about anything.

"I've lost a part of my memory, parts of it is coming back to me, but nothing to give me answers. My sister was kidnapped, the police are looking for her, but I was taken with her, and I can't remember being there, and I need answers." Emily wipes the tears away from her cheeks, and I finally sit down on the chair next to the couch.

"Is this your boyfriend?" She turns to me, and I smile.

"Yes," Emily whispers, and I stay quiet, because I need her to start this session so we can leave.

"And how do you feel about-"

"We just want answers, so if you can get started and see what happened to her, that would be great," I cut her off, before she starts asking me too many questions I have no interest answering.

"I do work with couples too, I feel like your past-" she stops when I start laughing.

"Doc, I remember every single detail of my past, there is no forgetting the shit that happened to me, no matter how hard I try. So how about you focus on my girl, and less on me." Now I'm not saying I don't look like I have the devil inside me, most people look at me, and my brothers and feel darkness around us, so I knew me being here the doctor would pick up on it too, so it's best I shut her off from the start.

"Doctor, I don't want to stop, until there are answers, and my boyfriend knows which answers I want, so only stop if he tells you too," Emily looks at me, and I nod telling her I'm here, and also I told her to tell the doctor that, because they would stop if it got to much for her.

"Are you sure?" she asks Emily, who tells her again to only stop when I say so.

"Right then we will begin-" as she says that, I put my phone on the table and press record, this is something my brothers would want to hear too. The doctor looks at me, but says nothing, and it's for the best too, I've already been a dick to her, I don't want to say anything else. "Lie down, and relax. Close your eyes, and I want you to go back to the time you were last happy." She takes hold of Emily's wrist, and tells her a few other things to do, and I lean back, waiting for her to get Emily where we need her to be.

"I need you to calm down, Emily, listen to my voice. What do you hear?" The doc asks her, and I sit up. Emily had finally got to the point after the man took her away, so I'm up to date with her now.

"He...he's on top of me, I'm screaming, but nothing, no one is there. He's raping me," Emily screams, and the doctor looks over at me.

"You keep going, she told you, I stop this when I want it stopped," I snarl at her that I don't care what is happening, she will continue.

"Emily, the man has gone, the trauma has passed, where are you?" I can see her chest rising and falling quickly, her head looking around for something.

"In a room, there is a table on the side but nothing is on it. Someone is coming, I can hear them outside the door." Emily's voice begins to shake.

"Emily I'm right here no one is going to hurt you," the doc tells her, feeling her pulse on her wrist.

"He's in the room, I can't see his face, it's blurry. He's talking to me-"

"What is he saying?" Doc asks.

"He's asking how important my sister is to me, and what I will do to protect her. I tell him anything he wants from me I'll do it, which makes him laugh. He's walking closer to me, hands in my hair, pulling it tight then licks my cheek, then says, ‘You protect your sister, you become our whore, in and out of the bedroom, you work for us now.' He throws me on the floor." Emily grips the doctor's arm, and I see the tears escaping her eyes.

She was their sex slave, but what do they mean outside of the bedroom?

"Ask her what she has to do outside of the bedroom for them," I tell the doctor, who looks at me.

"I think-"

"Ask her!" I shout at her.

"Emily, you are safe here with me. I want you to move forward. What did you have to do for them?" Doctor asks in a calming tone, and Emily's head moves side to side as she tries to find the memory.

"They take me to a room. There are five people there, some are women. I don't recognize any of them, but the man with the blurry face. They sit me on the chair and look at me. The blurry face starts talking, ‘We've spoken and your sister stays here, and as long as you do what you're told, she will be unharmed. I mean, she will be harmed a little, but nothing too much. You will become my sex toy, you say no to anything I want and your sister will be punished. Count yourself lucky that with you it will be simply sex and nothing special. Then on top of that, you will be sent to the park watching people, we will tell you who to watch, and then you report back to us about them. That's all we want from you.'" Emily goes quiet, and the doctor looks over at me, and I stare at Emily for a moment.

She was a sex slave for the man she can't see, it explains why she hasn't got any marks on her, it was plain rape no weapons used.

"Ask her about her first park trip," I tell the doctor.

"I think it's enough for today, I have a spot open tomorrow-"

"Ask her!" The doctor stares at me, eyes wide. She wants to stop but it's not happening, we have answers, I need two more and then we are done.

"Emily, let's focus, you're at the park, is the man with you?" She asks.

"Yes. He has brown hair, smells of cigarettes and whiskey. He's got a tight grip on my arm, it's hurting." Emily rubs her arm, as if she can feel what he is doing.

"What is he saying to you?"

"He' said, ‘You did good last night, your sister was rewarded with a nice meal. If you're good now, and at night, I might even let you see her. I ask him what he wants me to do, and he smiles. You are going to talk about that nice family, get to know them, get them to look away from their children for a while, so my men can take the little boy.. They want me to help them kidnap children. I can't do it. I can't do that." Emily starts screaming she can't do it, the doctor tries to calm her down, she gets Emily to count with her, and my body is raging with what I'm learning today, this is fucked up.

"I have to wake her, her heart rate is too high," I give the doctor a nod, and rub my forehead, we have answer that she had nothing to do with anything, but that's all we fucking have.

I turn to face Emily as she slowly opens her eyes and I give her a small smile letting her know she did well.

"I know you didn't get all the answers you wanted, but if you want to come again-"

"We will let you know," I tell the doctor. Grabbing my phone, I get up, and Emily follows. Saying thank you to the doctor, we both leave the office as we don't want to sit there and talk about shit she doesn't need to know about.

Stopping by my bike, I lean on it and look over at Emily, who still looks shaken by everything.

"Did I help them kidnap children?" she asks through tears, and I pull on her t-shirt to bring her closer to me, and pull her into a hug, letting her cry into my shoulder

"I think coming back would be good for you. They let you go for a reason." I rub her back as she continues to cry. I don't want to come back, but I think she needs it.

"Will you come with me?" she asks, with her face still buried in my chest.

"I will see when she can get you in, but for now, let's get you home, and I will go talk to my brothers about a few things." She finally stands away from my chest, and I wipe the tears away. "I promise we will find your sister, and I will get you all the answers you need." I lean closer and give her a kiss, and she leans her forehead on mine. "We will get answers."

I don't know if she wants to know anymore than what she's found out. Maybe this is all too much for her, but I'm hoping it's enough for my brothers to give her a chance now. She's had to go back to being used and treated like nothing. I don't want her to relive that time.

I want to see if she can remember more about the man though, because I have a feeling he will give us a lot of answers, but for now, I will not push it with her. Today I'm going to help her forget this morning's session.

I grab my phone from the middle of the table, playing back the recording from the session this morning. There was no way I was keeping this away from them, but it also made me wonder what else is in her head, which she's hiding. Because all this is a snippet here and there.

"She needs to go back for another session," Nyx is the first to speak. "We need to know how she got in the car."

"Already booked her in for the morning, I told the doctor about the accident, and that's where she needs to start, there is no point going back to her time there, we know what she was used for, we need to know why they got rid of her." I take a gulp of my beer and lean back in the chair.

I spent the morning with Emily, trying everything I could to make her think about anything but the session, and it worked when we spent the morning in bed, but I had to leave because I had work to do. Three clients this afternoon. One of them took three hours because they couldn't stop moving, and it was pissing me off. I wanted to tell Nyx to take over before I lost my shit with them, but instead I told him to take a ten-minute break before I continue.

The three of them look between each other, while Esha's in the kitchen making dinner. I asked if she could make extra so I can take it over to Emily.

"What's the deal with you both?" Nyx asks, and I wonder what he means. "Is she a fuck while we find out what's happening, or is this something you want to continue with?"

I lean forward, my elbows on the table, as I finish rolling up my joint, taking the time to think about what I'm about to say to them all. "I've told her she has the choice, and she chose to stay, so she's here." I know I didn't have to tell them everything I said to them, but I know this is all I need to tell them to know what I mean.

"Will she talk?" Ares asks, which makes me laugh, and Ares curls his lips into a smirk, because he knows why I'm laughing.

"I think you've put in enough fear that she won't." I flip him off because he can be a fucking dick sometimes.

"Good. Bring her over for dinner." He gets up and walks over to the row of notebooks, and puts the one he was reading away.

"What?" I ask.

"Bring her over for dinner. She's part of your life, which means she's part of ours, and she makes you happy, so she might as well meet the family and see what she's got herself in for." Ares sits back down, and takes the joint off me, and leans forward. "She makes my brother happy. We don't give a shit about anything else."

"Our past?" I ask, because I know I have to tell her about the fucked up shit soon, but I need to make sure they are on the same page.

"Esha knows all mine. She knows the bullet points for you guys. You trust her, then I trust her. You've been fighting for her the second we saw her in that building, and you'll continue to fight for her, so tell her what you want." Ares pulls out the chair for Esha to sit down, and she leans in closer to him, as he wraps his arms over her shoulder.

"The ghosts?" I ask the other thing, and the three of them laugh, and I even get a little chuckle from Esha.

"I think she knows enough about us, Nitro man. Tell her what you want," Nyx tells me, and I look at the three of them, and I wonder what made them change their minds about her. Was it the recording they just heard, or have they been talking about this all morning while I was with her?

"Dinner will be ready in about an hour," I turn to Esha, drinking her water, then she smiles, turns to Ares, and whispers something to him, and I laugh when he gets up, and walks away to the stairs.

"You're our brother, and we stick together no matter what. Just fucking hope she doesn't want a fucking room to be built in this place. The pilates room is a fucking nightmare." Nyx says, making the three of us laugh.

"Yeah, we need to get a move on with that. If Emily can be here now, we're together, so we can do it." We got all the applications accepted, but with us not having a second to do nothing, it's been a little hard to do the room, but I'm sure once we get things settled it will be easy to do.

"I'll go over and talk to her then."

I never thought about introducing her to my brothers, or telling her about my past, but here I fucking am, about to commit to a woman for the first time in my life. And it scares the hell out of me.