Chapter 10

10

RIOT

"You know how I've never slept with a woman before?"

Halo turns in my arms. "Yeah?"

I swallow hard. "I don't even know if I can sleep now, to be honest."

I don't know why I'm admitting it; maybe it's because I should leave, but I don't want to. I also don't want to have a nightmare and wake her up or make her scared. I played it down earlier.

I've never talked about this with anyone before, she's the first. My heart races in my chest as I try to stammer the words out.

She sits up, her hand propping up her head. "Is something wrong? What can I do?"

I press a kiss to her forehead. "Nothin', babe. It's not you. It's me. I've had… a sleep condition since I was a child. Not just night terrors." I didn't wanna rehash this again, but now we're here, there doesn't seem to be any point in dancing around it.

"Oh, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pry."

"It's alright." With you I feel I can talk about anything. "I wake up sometimes after really bad nightmares. I didn't want you to be scared, or to freak you out, I maybe downplayed it a little."

She frowns. "Okay. But I mean, if you wanted to go back to your place…"

I shake my head. "I don't."

"But you might feel more relaxed."

"I won't." I turn to face her, so we're both on our sides. "But it's nice laying next to you."

She strokes my face and I close my eyes to her warm touch. I've fucked plenty of women, but I've never let anyone touch me like this. I've never really enjoyed a woman this intimately. I certainly don't talk and tell them about my nightmares or my pathetic life story. With Halo, nothing is off limits. I feel like I can tell her anything.

I didn't even think I liked to be touched, not like this, but as her hand caresses my face, I want more of it.

"If you ever want to talk about it, I'm here."

I swallow hard. Do I? We just had an amazing night, well, not the rescuing Cookie part, but I suppose that could be seen as a win since he's safe now. "It's shitty, trust me. I have issues, but none of them involve makin' you sad hearin' about how crappy it was."

"When you're ready, I'm all ears. I'm a good listener."

I smile. "I know. You're a good multi-tasker."

She purses her lips. "Are you saying that because I squeezed your dick, sucked it and played with your balls at the same time?"

"My, my, the shy little woman is certainly comin' out of her shell."

She bites her lip. "You bring it out in me."

"You sayin' I'm a bad influence?"

"No." She pauses, then gestures between us. "This is nice."

"It is. And I want you to know somethin'. You can always be yourself around me, Halo. You don't ever have to hide anythin', got me? I'm also a good listener. Granted, I might get distracted by that beautiful mouth of yours, but nothin' you say will make me think differently of you."

This time, she presses her lips to mine. "Like this?"

My dick stirs between us and she giggles. "Yeah, like that."

She kickstarts my heart when she whispers, "I want you to know you're safe with me."

I pull back, sure I've misheard. My frown must tell her all she needs to know about my confusion. I mean, I'm the dude, but shit do I like hearing her say that.

"I know you said I'm safe with you," she goes on. "But I'm not going anywhere, Riot. I really, really like you, and we don't have to play by anyone else's rules."

I swallow hard. Oh, she'll run a mile when she hears what my dad did. I shudder at the thought of my angel being afraid of me. It also might turn her off when she learns why I chose using guns as a career. What if she thinks I'm an animal, like him? I couldn't bear it.

I've also never had a woman tell me to my face they really, really like me, so this is refreshing. I love how shy but also how bold she can be. She just can't help being so goddamn sweet, it's in her nature.

I tuck her hair behind her ear as I study her sweet face. She looks like a slice of heaven. Her hair all mussed from our sex. Her lips pouty and swollen from how much I've kissed her. She's perfect. Her pretty blue eyes stare back at me like she's unafraid of me, but also like she doesn't know what to do with me. It's the story of my life.

"You sure about that?"

She nods. "Positive."

I don't want to upset her, so I'm not gonna tell her shit about any of that. It'll just be between me and my nightmares.

I smile. "Someday, babe, but not tonight."

After a few moments she slides her head back down to the pillow. "How do you think Cookie's doing?"

I watch her try to stay awake and it's the cutest thing. "I think he's doin' what you should be doin'; sleepin'."

She yawns. "Some wild thing kept me awake all night."

I grin. "Yep, and if you weren't fallin' asleep right now, I'd take you again."

Her eyes snap open. "Again? I thought guys could only like… you know… do it once."

I chuckle. "I think I've dispelled that rumor tonight."

"Touché."

I kiss her nose. "Go to sleep." I drop my head down on the pillow and watch her as her eyes flutter closed once more.

Pretty soon, my eyes grow heavy, and the darkness swallows me up.

Blood covers my hands.

No.

This can't be… my… my mom? I try to shake her awake. "Mom?" Panic hits me as I turn and my father's standing over me. "Why?"

The old man sneers. "So many fuckin' questions." He points the gun at me. "Now it's your turn, boy."

Bang!

I wake with a start, jolting myself awake. Glancing around, I don't recognize where I am. Take a breath. I'm sitting up, the darkness surrounding me like a cloak as I breathe in and out, trying to slow my heart rate.

You're safe.

You're with Halo.

I glance to my right and see that she's still asleep. Relief floods through me. I know she meant what she said, but I don't need her seeing me like this. Still. The nightmare wasn't half as bad as it usually is. Normally I'm tangled in the sheets, covered in sweat. Sometimes I even wake up crying. Shame washes over me. I was a fool to stay here. What would've happened if she'd have seen me like that?

I close my eyes, then I hear a sound. I snap my eyes open and turn my head.

" Myles ."

I stare at my little dove.

"Myles."

She's still asleep… and she's saying my name? What in the ever-living fuck?

Her words are so soft, so full of love that I feel it right in the middle of my chest. Here I was thinking my heart was cold and dead, yet at her slightest touch, Halo makes me feel things I never thought were possible. I'm not quite sure what to do with it all.

I've never had a soft touch before. I love Charles like a father, but he was a hard man. Not brutal like my dad, and he showed he cared in so many other ways; like taking us in.

The women I'm used to; they're only in it for the sex. Nothing more. Not that some haven't tried for more, but I never wanted that. I never connected with any of them like I have with Halo.

My mom on the other hand — I miss her. She was the sweetest, kindest woman. The memory of seeing her in her final moments will forever haunt me. She didn't deserve that. She didn't deserve that prick of a husband to treat her that way and live in constant fear of him. I have a lot of guilt for not standing up to my father sooner. Charles tried his best over the years to assure me that it wasn't my fault, that I was just a kid. And while I get that, I could've done more.

I lean toward Halo and brush her cheek with my knuckle softly. Just looking at her calms my nerves and soothes my soul. I need her like I need the air in my lungs.

I surrender to the panic that runs through me; the idea of losing her. I've always had abandonment issues, which is probably why I've never had a real relationship. The idea of people I love leaving is etched into my soul forever. The memory of pain being so bad that I couldn't breathe isn't something I wish to relive. The cold sliver of dread runs up my spine as I force it away.

She's not going anywhere.

She said it.

She told me she'd be here.

I believed her when she said that, because even if I don't know her well, I know enough that she's not just bullshitting. For some unexplainable reason, she likes me. Not my pretty face or my dirty words, but me.

My heart races again as she stirs, moving closer toward my body. Her familiar vanilla scent washes over me and I'm hard.

I shouldn't wake her up, I really shouldn't… but she's so damn irresistible. I love her tangled around me, our warm bodies pressed against one another. There's no other way I'd have her in bed except naked. Every goddamn inch of her is a sight for sore eyes. Being inside her? I felt like my heart was going to explode. The adrenaline rushing through me the first time I touched her in the shower, my mouth taking what I wanted as she begged me for more, I'm even more addicted.

I run my hand over her shoulder and down her arm, cupping her breast in one hand. Her mouth parts slightly as I fondle her, trying not to wake her up, but also needing my fill once again. We fucked a lot tonight, but I could never get enough of her sweet, soft body. It's like she was put on the earth just for me. And I'm gonna treat her like a princess; give her everything that she needs if she'll let me.

She murmurs and I chuckle, my other hand reaching between her legs. I can't get to where I want because her legs are clamped together… but if I rolled her over. I do just that, her eyelids fluttering as I watch her tits sway and her legs part slightly.

My dick grows harder as I palm myself, tugging on my hardened cock. Those lips wrapped around me… my eyes roll into the back of my head at the memory. Her pretty little eyes looking up at me pleadingly while she sucked me off. Goddamn she gives good head.

Let her sleep…

I move my hand to her pussy, cupping it as I move my mouth to one nipple. Suckling her tits is my new favorite hobby. I could suck those bad boys all day long. They're so fuckin' perfect. I groan when I feel how slick she is; even in her sleep my angel can't help but be turned on.

" Myles?" she whispers, but this time breathier.

I glance up and her perfect irises are dilated and looking down at me.

I inserted my middle finger inside her wet hole and she gasps.

I grip her tit, squeezing it so I can get more in my mouth and then I feel her hand in my hair, encouraging me.

"I'm sorry," I murmur. "But I simply can't get enough of you."

I roll on top of her, her hands moving down to squeeze my ass as I continue my assault on her other nipple. I groan, making it known how much I'm fuckin' loving every second of devouring her, and when that isn't enough, I trail kisses down her body all the way to the apex of her thighs. She spreads her knees and I throw her legs over my shoulder and blow onto her pussy.

She makes that adorable noise in the back of her throat and I part her pussy lips, sucking her into my mouth as she gasps. I suck her clit into my mouth until she's writhing off the bed, her hands in my hair as she hisses at my unrelenting tongue.

She comes quickly on my tongue as I lap her up. I insert two fingers into her hole and groan at how wet she is.

"My pretty little club whore is so fuckin' wet for me."

" Fuck ," she mutters.

Halo rarely swears, but when she does it's adorable.

I slide two fingers in and out of her tight heat as I rub my mouth and chin through her slick heat, the stubble on my chin prickling her clit.

" Oh !"

I do it again and her hands tighten on my scalp. Goddamn, I love it when she does that. "My baby likes it a little rough, does she?"

" Myles !"

I grin against her pussy as I circle her clit rapidly with my tongue. She bucks up against me and I ride the wave as she comes again, clamping down on my fingers inside her as I lap up her sweet honey.

"Inside me!" she gasps. "Now, Myles!"

I trail kisses up her body once more, my fingers still inside her. "It's your fault," I tell her. "Lookin' this hot while a man is tryin' to sleep. Shouldn't look so fuckin' beautiful naked and wrapped around me if you don't wanna be fucked like a whore."

"Oh, God."

I suck one nipple, then the other, pushing her tits together as I look up at her and move my tongue from one to the other. "Whose fault is it?"

"Mine!"

"Why, Halo? Why is it your fault?"

"Because…"

I arch a brow, her nipple in my mouth as I suck it hard.

" Oh ! Uh, because I said I could be your little club whore."

"You did, and I didn't like you sayin' that. But now that I've been inside you…" I move to her other nipple and bite it softly as she cries out. "Now I think I might like the idea."

"I like it. I…"

"Like what? Tell me."

"I like your dirty words and the way you feel inside me, but…" She's breathy as I move my lips to hers, licking her bottom lip with my tongue. "… I want it rough sometimes too."

My dick almost doubles in size. "Rough?" I slide my tongue in her mouth. "My kitten wants her tight little pussy pounded?"

"Yes, because I'm a dirty little slut."

I close my eyes and groan, my teeth pulling at her bottom lip. I thought coming on those big tits was the highlight of my fuckin' life, but hammering her hard into the mattress without any mercy might overtake that premature notion. Then again, Halo riding me while I sucked on her tits is also something I'll be taking to the spank bank.

I come up onto my hands as I lift off her. I line up my cock and shove my way in, stilling when I hit the end of her. "So baby, you wanna know somethin'?"

I feel her clench my fat cock as she tries to steady her breathing. "What, honey?"

Honey?

Fuck yeah…

"I fucked you earlier tonight."

Her eyebrows knit together in confusion and I chuckle. "Wh—what?"

"The fleshlight."

"Remind me again what that contraption is?"

I chuckle. "In a nutshell? It's a male masturbator."

Then her eyes go round. "You… you used it?"

I nod. "I fucked it so fuckin' hard before my party. I was so amped up about seein' you and my dick hadn't had any relief in months."

"That's really true?"

I'm barely holding on inside of her, but I have to get this out. "I don't tell lies, Kitten. I thought it was a stupid present and was gonna throw it in the trash. But after your text about coming to see me for my birthday, babe, my dick was so hard and painful I had to try it."

Her swollen lips round. "Did it— Was it good?"

I grin against her mouth. "Nowhere near as good as the real thing."

"Did you come hard, Myles? Did you call my name?"

"I came violently, babe, lookin' at that picture of you from Mississippi. I cried out, wishin' more than anything it was you beneath me."

"But I'm here now. Show me what you did."

I slide out, then slam back in. "This." I do it again, her tits jiggling on my thrust.

I reach up to the bedhead, gripping it with both hands as she wraps her legs around me. "And this." I start to move faster, harder, banging her.

"I feel every inch of it," she murmurs.

"Of what, babe? Talk dirty to me. Tell your man how much you love his big dick."

"I love it so much. Myles, I love your fat cock inside me."

I pound her harder, her hand squeezing my ass as she closes her eyes and she lets go. Her tight cunt squeezing the fuck out of my dick. I almost fall over the edge, but I need this to last so much longer. I haven't even touched the surface of what I want to do to this sexy body.

I don't even give her a break, I can't, not when it feels this good.

I need to fill her up, make her take my cum all day every day in that pretty little pussy that belongs to me. She belongs to me.

"I'm yours," she cries as if reading my mind.

"I know you are."

"You're mine, Myles, say it."

"I'm yours, Kitten." I grunt, sweat beading on my forehead as I pound her hard and fast. It feels so fucking good. "This pussy baby, this tight little pussy and this sexy body is mine and only mine. Got me? If anyone ever looks at you, I'm gonna rip their eyeballs out of their fuckin' heads."

"I only have eyes for you."

Her words are my undoing. "Tell me again."

"I only have eyes for you, honey , my man."

I spurt violently, my cum shooting out with force as I grind into her and she moans loudly, her fingernails digging into my flesh. Mark me, baby. Mark me all night long.

I still, emptying myself while my little angel squeezes every last drop from my balls.

We're both a panting, heaving mess as I let go of the bedhead and collapse on her.

I kiss her cheek, her neck, her chin, then her lips. I pull out, my cum fuckin' everywhere as she moans at the loss of me. I reach between her legs and rub my fingers in our mixed arousal and then bring my fingers to her mouth once more.

She opens her sweet lips and sucks my fingers without words, moaning as her eyes flutter shut.

"My good little whore," I murmur. "I'll never get sick of this."