9. Saying Goodbye

Saying Goodbye

Macie

I have not been this excited since I was a little girl. I can barely contain the shakes that are erupting in my body as I drive to Sully's house. I don't care if Sully goes. I'm used to Sully, and this was always their dream, to go pro together.

My brother did, but he decided not to go pro, which in my opinion, he's throwing his talent away. Funny how mom is okay with that.

Jax said Sully doesn't know so we are going to tell him now, as I pull into his driveway, following Jax, before I shut my car off and get out.

"So, when are we leaving?" I ask, because I'm ready right this second.

"I don't know yet, let me talk to Sully first." I nod, understanding as I follow Jax into Sully's house, well, it's really a couple of the guys from the team, Dax, Brayden. But it's so quiet and Jax turns to me and chuckles his words, "That fucker is sleeping, I bet you."

"Oh, I got this." I giggle and sneak up to Sully's room, Jax behind me, I try to not laugh, but it is so hard.

Sure enough, Sully sound to sleep in his bed, flat on his back, zonked and I snort a laugh, my cheeks hurting so much from my smile, before I continue to sneak into his room, before I jump, launching myself on top of him .

The laugh roars from my throat as his eyes fly open, scaring the shit out of him. Jax behind me curled over laughing, Sully's eyes bounce from me to Jax, "What the fuck are you doing Macie?"

I can't stop laughing, before I swing my leg and crawl from his lap and sit beside him in bed.

"What the fuck are you two doing?" Sully barks and Jax answers "I got the call man."

Sully's sleepy eyes light up, "Are you serious?"

"Yeah, man, when you ready to go."

"Right fucking now!" Sully springs out of bed, he and Jax sharing their brother like hug, team mates all their life's and now going pro together. It's a big deal for them.

When they get done, Sully turns to me, holding that cocky smile, before he dives on top of me, with his laugh, ripping a laugh from my throat, "Whoa Girl!" he barks out, always the high energy kid, and Sully and I have always had a friendship.

He squeezes me tight before he finally lets me go and I sit back up, "You sure you can handle the big boys now baby girl."

"I think I've made it clear I can handle you guys, I think the better question is, can you handle me." I huff my smile.

Jax laughs, and Sully lifts his brow before he looks over to Jax, "So, when are we leaving?"

"Coach wanted us as soon as we could, and it would be nice to see where we're going to be living before, it gets crazy with the team."

"Yeah, I agree; Macie?" Sully looks to me.

"I never unpacked; it's getting Kenny to let me go."

"You don't need to worry about that, he'll let you go without a problem." Jax holds that dangerous look in his eyes, knowing he's done something.

"Okay." I whisper cautiously .

"Alright, then let's get packing." Sully laughs.

"Um, don't we need to tell two people that we are leaving." I ask, and Jax hums a laugh, "Yeah, except my dad already knew this was coming, it's your mother we need to worry about."

I roll my eyes with that before I say, "Well, it really doesn't matter, I'm leaving and I'm an adult now."

"Alright then."

After leaving Sully's, the closer I got home, my stomach twisted, I don't even want to face my mother right now.

And as we pull into the driveway, before I get out and ask, "So, how are we getting there?"

"Driving, I'm going to take my truck so I can take the bikes too."

"What about my car?"

"We'll come back and get it."

"Promise?"

He nods as he takes a step towards me, curling his fingers around the nape of my neck as he looks down at me, "I promise Angel, I'll put it in the garage, and come back once we get settled. Just take what you need for now."

"Okay. "

The garage door to the house opens and Paul walks out, "You going to tell me how that call went or are you avoiding it because they shut you down?"

"I wasn't shut down." Jax smirks.

Paul's face lights up and he and Jax share that father/son, but also, Coach and player celebration. Paul is straight up with Jax and so is Jax with Paul, and they do have a good relationship, I think.

"When do you go?" Paul asks and Jax answers, honestly, "Morning."

Paul's eyes widen and he looks to me.

"Yeah, I know." I already know why he looked at me.

"Macie, she's calmed down about it and is coming around." Paul defends her.

I roll my eyes as I take a deep breath, letting it out with a sigh, "Yeah, I'll believe it when I see it, where is she?" Just getting the fuck over with it, that I am out of here.

"Living room." I nod and look to Jax, "I'll be back."

He nods in response, catching I need to do this alone, before I make my way inside.

Finding her on the couch, reading her book, she sees me walking in, putting her book down.

"I need to tell you something, actually a lot, but we'll see how far we get." I snap, not in the mood for this shit.

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"It means, there are several reasons I don't want to be here Mom; Same as skating. I love to dance, and the type of dancing I do goes way beyond what you've seen me do. I am just getting started, and the club was my way to gain experience, and money, to get out of here so I could do what I wanted."

"Why didn't you tell me?" her voice still filled with annoyance .

"Look at how you are acting!" Returning her annoyance.

"How do you expect me to act Macie?"

"A supportive mother instead of a judgmental one."

I shake my head with my sigh, "Look, it doesn't matter. Jax got signed, and we are leaving."

"I can't stop you."

"No, you can't, but you could support me, and I promise you mom, one day, I will prove you wrong for your judgmental ways." It's no use, she will never agree, unless my feet are in skates.

I stand and look down at her with my head shake, "Funny how you're letting Dakota throw his talent as a goalie in the trash, but yet…" I huff annoyingly, "You aren't up his ass." I curl my sinful smile before I walk away.

Skipping two steps at a time, I am up the stairs and in my room in seconds, throwing the little I had used and pulled out being here, back into bags.

My phone vibrates, noticing a text from Kenny.

Oh boy…

I open it and start to read…

I'm sad to be losing my best girl, but you're better than this club. Keep shining and remember you are Jack's daughter; you have his fire. He would be proud as I am. Send me a ticket to the big show.

My hand covers my mouth, trying to bite my cry, as the tears sting.

See, Kenny cares, and he knew my dad. They all played hockey together.

Before putting everything away, I jump in the shower, needing a minute to process this all. I'm ready for a new start, new people, new town, city wherever, I just want to go. My bathroom door opens, and I pull my head up, seeing Jax through the glass shower walk in.

"Do you know where Dakota is?" I ask, since I've been trying to find him.

"Yeah, he's downstairs." The shower door opens, and I curl a smile, watching Jax's eyes roam down my body, before they meet mine.

"Well, are you going to get in here, or stay out there?" I tease.

"Do you want me to get in there?" He asks and I nod.

He pulls his shirt over his head, before his pants are off and he's in the shower with me.

His hand slides up the nape of my neck, sliding his fingers through my wet hair, as he looks down at me, "Are you sure this is what you want?"

"Why are you asking me that?"

"Because I don't want this to backfire on me, and you say you followed me."

"I smile, getting that, "I won't say that. I'm sure."

His fingers curl into my scalp as he leans down, pulling my lips to his, and that fire between us ignites. Pushing me back against the shower wall, brushing my tongue across his, tasting and feeling all of him, all our new beginnings.

His touch between my legs, sending those shivers straight to my throbbing center. Sliding between my folds with two fingers, teasing my opening and my clit, causing a moan to hum in my throat.

His arm hooks around my waist, lifting me up, I wrap my legs around his waist, never leaving this toxic kiss our lips are creating, carrying me out of the shower and takes me to my bed.

Dropping his knee to the bed as he falls with me, nestling between my legs, feeling the tip of his hard cock press to my thigh, resting on his elbow, his hard body pinning me into the sheets, he whispers against my lips, "You have to be quiet Angel, we don't need more problems."

I snort a laugh, but damn it, it's hard not to let that scream rip, "Then don't make me."

His growl hums in his throat, feeling his hips rock and the tip of his cock slide between my folds.

He lifts himself from my body, before he kisses his way down my neck, over my collarbone, before he finds his way to my nipple, sucking it into his mouth and a low hum moans in my throat as he swirls his tongue around my nipple before he drags it between his teeth.

My thighs tighten around his waist, and he slides from my grasp, continuing to kiss his way over my stomach before his head is nestled between my legs, holding that consuming gaze on me.

His tongue flicks over my clit, causing me to buck, and beg, "don't fucking tease me, Jax."

"I love it when you beg" He growls, before he sucks down on my clit so fucking hard, my thighs slap against the sides of his head, as my hand fists the hair on the top of his head, as he sucks, that tongue works against my clit, and I curl into him, trying to hold my breath so my moan doesn't ricochet from the walls in the basement.

My opening pulses with intense pleasure, taking a life from me, still sensitive from last night's fun, and now his tongue doing dream work.

He lifts his head, before sliding between my legs, his lips crashing against mine and his cock slides inside my wet opening, eating my moan as my hand wraps around the back of his head, before his lips leave mine and meet my neck, planting opened mouthed kisses against my skin causing my nipples to tighten with the shivers prickling my body.

Raking my fingers up the nape of his neck, up through his hair, as he continues to pin my hips into the bed with each stroke; There long, and steady, following the rhythm of his stomach rolling from mine, sending his cock to hit deep within my walls .

Hitting my most sensitive spots, I feel the wave of arousal fill inside, heightening the feel of him inside me. Teetering on the edge, my walls squeeze around him, ripping a growl deep within his chest. Sliding my hands down, I cup his jaw and pull his lips to mine, to silence the climax that is about to shatter me.

He cups my ass, raising my hips, allowing him to send his cock deeper, hitting low in my gut, sending me over the edge, and the trembling shiver quake my skin and I kiss him harder, diving my tongue down his throat, which only encourages his harder thrusts.

My climax shakes me, harder than I've ever been shook, as my eyes flutter before he eats the moan that starts to slip, feeling my arousal coat his cock making it slicker, wetter, and fucking amazing.

He whispers against my lips in a growl, "I love it when you come." He thrusts using the full length of his cock, hitting spots I never knew existed. Sweat beads on his forehead, our breaths are panted with our wild kiss.

When I think he's hit all my most sensitive spots, he hasn't, he hits another.

The high that courses through my veins sends me into a blissful unknown.

Hearing him grunt with his final hard thrust, feeling the pulse of his tip against my walls, he pants against the skin of my neck, and I kiss his neck, trying to breath with the weight of him on top of me, slowly getting heavier, but not wanting him to move either.

When he does, he slides to his side, pulling my front tight against his chest, and I drape my leg over his hip as his spread fingers slide up my thigh to my ass, before gripping into my flesh, pulling me in even tighter.

"We have a long drive Angel, get some sleep, since you barely slept last night."

"How do you know, you were out cold. "

He chuckles, "You thought I was out cold; you are like wrestling an alligator when you can't sleep."

I giggle to that as we hold our gaze on each other, before I tuck my head into his chest, and sleep finds me with no problems.

NEXT MORNING

What I need is packed, and loaded, Jax has loaded his bike and what he needs, now we just have to say bye, and my mother hasn't shown her face to me all morning.

I talked to Dakota earlier, I'm really going to miss him; But he knows I've wanted this and now is my shot to take it and go. Plus, he can come visit whenever he wants.

Taking my mother's silence as a sign she has nothing to say to me, I don't bother trying to find her to say bye. It's a damn shame she is acting like this.

Standing in the driveway with Paul, Dakota, and Jax, my mother finally makes an appearance and beelines straight for me before her arms are around me and the tears sting instantly.

"I'm sorry Macie. I am sorry for not seeing the big picture and only seeing the small." My mom whispers half in a sob .

That pulls a smile to my face, she finally caught onto what I was trying to tell her; You start from the bottom.

She pulls back, her tear-filled eyes search mine, "You have so much fire in you like your father, and I think I might have resented that a little. And resented the fact you threw a skating career away."

I shoot her a tight smile.

"I made a mistake, a few mistakes, but I see how strong your fight is for this. You want my support; you've got it Macie."

"Thank you, Mom." I cautiously believe that; she'll have to prove that shit.

She wraps her arms around me in a tight hug before she pulls herself away.

Jax steps up beside me and I look up to him, "You ready?"

I nod.

"Take care of my daughter Jax."

"Will do" he shoots me a wink and I quietly giggle, before my brother says his good-bye.

"I'll come visit soon."

"Alright, I'm sure I'll be back soon too."

He laughs, "I doubt that; you've wanted out of here for so long, you are going to avoid this place like the plaque."

I laugh, he's probably right, but I will always come back, because of the one place I still need to say bye to.

I get into the passenger seat of Jax's truck, still needing to get Sully, I watch Jax get into the driver's seat, meeting my gaze, "Can we stop somewhere before getting Sully?" I ask.

"Yeah, it's on the way." He starts his truck, and I look out the open window, giving the three of them a smile, before Jax wastes no time driving away.

It doesn't take long, and we are at my spot, so I can say bye to my father, needing to close this door, the one I haven't yet allowed myself to close.

I think the reason I was never able to shut this door, the door of saying good bye to my father because, in a way, I've always felt this spot, he was here with me.

No matter what my mother thinks I know my father would be proud of me, and I will only continue to make him proud.

"The big show is coming Dad. I just have to get there."

I kneel down, scooping up a handful of the gritty soil, I squeeze it in my hand as I close my eyes, the tears trickle down my cheeks before I say the words I've never wanted to say.

"Good bye, Dad."

I let the soil fall from my hand, trying to hold my shit together so this doesn't turn into an outburst of tears, before I open my eyes, the blurry lake comes in my vision, and I wipe the tears from my cheeks and sniffle up my heart break.

"I'll make you proud Dad."

I stand, my heart feeling like it's being ripped from my chest as I turn and walk back to the truck and get in, settling in the seat, I avoid Jax's gaze on me.

"You good?" I shake my head to his question, and feel that fight begin again to swallow down my emotion .

"Just drive Jax please."

He doesn't say anymore, he starts his truck and pulls away from my spot, my dad's spot, our spot. I need to let him go. But damn it if it doesn't feel like the day, I lost him.

Jax reaches over, lacing his fingers through mine, curling his fingers into my hand, but he doesn't say anything, and I appreciate it; Maybe he does know me better than I think.

The further we get away from my spot, and the closer we get to Sully's, my lungs are finally able to breathe a full breath, and I look forward to my future, and the possibilities, not only with dance, but Jax, above it all now, I look forward to doing this all with him, someone I know is in my corner, on my team, just as much as I will his.

Jax and Sully load Sully's bike, and I run up to Sully's room to grab his last bag, when I stumble upon an old picture. It's of me and his sister, Holly.

She was my age, a good friend, my best friend, my sister in a way. She was in a car accident a year ago, and she didn't make it. Another heartbreaking reason for wanting to leave this place.

I grab the picture and Sully's bag before making my way back outside, looking down at the picture in my hand; This picture has to go with us.

I walk out and put the bag in the truck before turning my attention on the guys. "I stole something " I say giving Sully a playful smile .

He cocks a brow before I show him the picture and he smiles, "Do you remember that day?"

"Yeah, it was the day we both got our driver's licenses." I remember it like it was yesterday, and Holly was a good driver. She was hit by a drunk one.

I miss her so much. She was only 18 and had that big future in skating too.

"Let's get on the road, we have a long drive" Jax snakes his arm around my waist, pulling me into him, that cocky smile returning in full force.

He leans down and presses his lips to mine, squeezing me tighter and I can't help the smile curling against his lips.

"Let's go have some fun" he whispers against my lips, and I nod before he pulls away.

Walking to the passenger door, before I crawl in and over the passenger seat and into the back middle seat so Sully can sit up front; Only fair, he needs leg room, and I don't really.

I settle in my seat, the guys getting in theirs, and my heart starts beating faster.

This is it.

A shiver rocks my skin from head to toe.

We're doing this.

I'm leaving this town.

Both Jax and Sully turn and look back at me and I lift a brow, my eyes bouncing from the two as they hold their playful gazes on me, before Jax chuckles "You ready for this wild ride?"