17. Not Forgiven

Not Forgiven

Macie

A s stubborn as I want to be most days, I'm tired of the silence and tired of not having Jax with me. Even with being mad at him still, I let Jax drive my car while Sully rides with Dakota.

I'm really happy that Dakota is coming with us.

I look over at Jax, and just stare at him as he drives. I can tell he is thinking, he's got his elbow resting on the center console, resting his chin on his fisted hand; But I've been thinking too.

"How did you know where I was?" I ask him and his his lips twist, trying to hide a smile, before he sits back in the seat.

"Ask your brother, he was driving." he swallows hard, trying to bite a smile down, knowing he's hiding something for sure.

"Jax."

He looks over with a lifted brow, then laughs, "Oh, fuck it."

"Your car has a tracker in it."

"WHAT!"

"You've got to be kidding me!"

"You tracked my car!?"

"NO! Your brother tracked your car."

"Are you fucking serious? "

"Well, technically Jack put the tracker in this, but your brother was the one who was using it."

"That's real fucking nice."

"Macie, they only did it to protect you."

"Why do you guys think I need to be protected so much?" I am really getting tired of them thinking I am uncapable of keeping myself safe.

"Really?" He barks a laugh, "Angel, do I really need to explain why?"

"Yes." I snap.

"Alright, for one, look at you, your hot as fuck, and attract the attention. That blonde hair of yours is absolutely gorgeous but sometimes, that saying ditzy blonde, well, you got it girl."

"Oh thanks."

"You were just laying on a beach in the middle of nowhere and in the middle of the night, come on Macie."

I snort a laugh, "Yeah well, I wasn't unprotected."

He laughs, "That would have only worked for so long Angel."

"Long enough" I shoot him a wink before he shakes his head.

"So, did you guys go shopping with me too?"

He nods.

"Fucking stalkers!"

"You had fun, didn't you?" He jokes.

"Yes."

"That's all that matters."

"It would have been more fun to model my new outfits for you, but…" I tsk.

He looks over and his jaw clenches, "You still can."

I huff, "Maybe."

He chuckles his smile, not feeding into my sassy banter.

"Koda's really going to love me." I giggle

"Why?"

"I used his credit card."

He laughs out loud as my devious giggle rips, "He's going to kill you."

"Yeah, well, that's what he gets, just be glad it wasn't yours."

He lifts a brow with that cocky smile, "Spend away."

"Don't tell me that."

He chuckles, and our conversations continue. On and off, feeling the tension between us both, but I don't feel like it is a tension of our situation. Unable to help my eyes from locking on him as I'm leaned back in the seat with my legs crossed and stretched with my feet on the dash.

He's back to resting his chin to his knuckles as his elbow rests on the center console, driving with one hand, periodically having to shift. I watch his every move, soaking it all in, still pissed at him, but his presence warms me to my core.

"Quit looking at me like that Angel?" He whispers in a growl.

The corner of my lips curl into a playful smile, "Like what?"

He looks over, "That naughty girl is sparkling in your eyes, and it's taking everything I have already not to stop this car and fuck you into the next county."

I drag my bottom lip through my teeth and his palm cups my jaw, trailing the pad of his thumb across my bottom lip, "I want to bite that lip. "

My mouth parts more, taking his thumb into my mouth, wrapping my lips around it.

"Damnit, Macie." His chest rises and falls with his increased breaths, watching that jaw tick in frustration.

I pull his hand from my face before I climb over the center console, dropping my knees to the seat as I straddle him.

"What are you doing Macie?"

I whisper against his ear, "You know, I thought I was going to miss out on all that fun stuff you were starting the other night."

He hums his growl deep in his throat as I run my hands up his chest and around his neck.

"There is so much I want to give you Angel." His hand slides up my thigh, to my hip, before it rests on the center of my back, under my shirt. That same heat spreads through my veins, warming me to my core.

"Then don't fuck up, and I'm all yours Jax." Whispering against his neck before placing a kiss there. His fingers curl into my back, pulling me tighter against him, feeling his cock strain against my center through his pants.

He takes a quick glance down at me before I tuck my head in the crease of his neck, breathing in his scent that intoxicates me. I stay just like this, in his lap as he drives nestled against his hard heated body.

HOURS LATER

Finally, home, our new home, and I'm finally able to breathe again.

My time shopping gave me the time I needed to come to terms with everything that happened, from the most terrifying thing – seeing Corey, the guys lying to me, but I do understand as well.

It's just an all-around shitty situation and I just want to put it in the past. Like I have with the Corey situation, my Dad passing, Holly passing, letting it all go, because that is what I need to do.

Of course, as soon as we got home, I changed my clothes and got right on my silks. I have a couple of days to get my routine that is planned in my head down. During my interview the other day, they asked about certain tricks, wanting them incorporated in my routine, and I know them, they are advanced, and difficult. But I'm determined to make this work.

The guys left me alone to do my thing, I think they understand I still need some space, and they are down in the gym.

As I run through my routine, struggling a bit, but managing, I try to calm my mind but, that's easier said than done with me. A problem I have, unable to shut my mind down. It always races and normally I can get it to calm while twirling around in my silks, today I cannot.

So, I call it a day, pissed the fuck off.

Maybe cooking will help; it sometimes did.

I pull something out to make, before I go down to the gym to see the guys.

When I get down to them, they are all doing their own thing. Not able to help myself, my shoulder falls to the doorframe as my eyes lock on Jax's back towards me.

As he lifts himself into a pull up, the muscles bulge in his back instantly causing my thighs to squeeze together. He lowers himself before he lifts himself again, and if I stand here and watch this any longer, my panties will be soaked.

So, I make my way over to him before breaking into a run, jumping up and catching the bar in my hands next to him.

He chuckles as he hangs next to me, "Done already?"

"Yeah, not a good day."

He furrows his brows and I shoot him a tight smile.

"So, how many of these can you do?" I ask, avoiding him asking anymore.

"I don't know, I don't like to sound cocky."

I snort a laugh, "Oh, really."

I let go with my outside hand and swing over, grabbing the bar between his hands, bring my other over as I face him, wrapping my legs around his waist, "How many can you do with me added?"

His head tilts, holding that cocky grin, as my lips twist, teasing him as I stare into his eyes.

He starts to pull us up, and I follow his rhythm before he whispers, "You can't be doing this shit in front of your brother, Angel."

I huff my smile, "Why? Not my fault you can't contain your snake."

I rock my hips against him as he pulls us up again.

"Because I will fuck you in front of him Macie, don't play with me." He says his words through his gritted teeth, and I smile, "Hungry?"

"Famished."

"Good, I'm making dinner." I let go of his waist with my legs before I push off and let go off the bar with my hands, landing on my feet.

I hear him growl behind me as I continue to make my way out of the gym, laughing; I never said I was done being a brat.

I haven't really talked to my brother yet about the situation that happened, and I am sure he will soon come and collect me to have our talk.

As much as I am happy and excited he is here; Boy let me tell you, I am angrier with him than anyone else. He's my brother. He fucking set me up!

I take a quick shower, get myself dressed and make my way back downstairs to the kitchen to start making dinner for the four of us. Asking myself why I am being so damn nice after what they did.

I should be a bitch and put laxatives in their food. Ha! That would be funny! I'm just kidding, I wouldn't but I would if they really pissed me off.

Harmless prank, well besides their asshole on fire; I'm terrible.

"What are you giggling about?" Sully asks and I turn, seeing the three of them standing there with questioning looks.

I bite my smile and shake my head, "Nothing; Dinner will be ready in an hour."

I look at Sully then my brother, saving my last look for Jax, allowing my bottom lip to drag between my teeth, dropping my gaze to his lips, before I turn.

"Keep playing Angel." He growls before I hear his heavy footsteps leave the kitchen, snorting a quiet laugh; God, I'm awful.

Sully and Dakota leave the kitchen without a word as I continue to get my ingredients together. Turning on my music, hating that silence, my body moves with the rhythm of the music, getting into a groove with cooking and dancing. Washing dishes as I go, keeping things tidy, I hate a dirty kitchen while I cook, plus, why wait for it to pile up.

Standing over the stove, I feel large hands slide over my hips, looking down as Jax's hands slide across my stomach, pulling me back against him .

He towers over me from behind as he whispers against my ear, "How long is this bratty teasing game of yours going to go on?"

I shrug my shoulder with my smile, "I don't know."

I press my ass back against him before lifting my hips and his hand slides down between my legs gripping my nub, pressing me harder against him, holding me there.

"You've had your warning, Macie." His lips dip to my neck before he bites down, dragging my skin between his teeth, causing a shiver to rock my body.

"Can we get through the first night before I catch you two fucking in the kitchen." My brother barks out and I snort a laugh.

"You're fucking lucky Angel." Jax whispers in a growl against my ear before he presses a kiss where he just bit and pulls himself away.

I giggle to myself, not even facing my brother as I continue to make our dinner; I've gotten under Jax's skin, goal accomplished.

I finish our dinner, and we all enjoy it over good laughs and conversation, getting over the tension between us all, well, not Jax and I's tension. And because fair is fair, I promote them to clean it all up.

Finding myself wandering outside on the back patio again, nestling into the chair I had sat in the first night we got here. The guys will go back to practice in the morning, and I am going to go check out where I will be performing.

I nestle into the chair deeper, snuggling into the blanket as I begin that book I've been trying to finish.

Jax

As much as it feels normal, like it was, I know it's not. Though I'm digging this little bratty shit she's got going. It's just going to make it better for her.

As much as I want to dominate her, make her feel things she never has before, I also want her to feel what it should have been, instead of what Corey did to her.

That shit broke me but pissed me the fuck off too. And I hate to say this, but Corey will one day meet his maker.

Being promoted to kitchen bitch by Macie, the three of us clean up dinner, catching her sitting outside, stopping me from what I was doing. I can't tear my eyes off her as she reads her book. Watching her chew on her thumb nail, completely indulged in her book.

She adjusts herself in the chair, licking her bottom lip before she drags it between her teeth, biting down, my cock twitches in my pants.

She drives me fucking crazy when she bites on her lip. The focus on her book is intense, watching her legs rub together; This little bitch is reading some good shit, leaving me hang high and dry with her teasing shit.

Oh, fuck no.

Her hand covers her smile as she looks up. She sees me staring right at her from the kitchen and I lift a brow, tilting my head and she bursts into laughter.

"Yeah, caught' cha."

She covers her face with her laugh, and I make my way out to her, leaving Sully and Koda to deal with this shit; We're almost done any-fucking-ways.

She holds her gaze on me as I make my way to her and when I shut the door, she giggles, "How long where you watching me? "

"Long enough to know I will find you soaked." I spin the chair facing away from the glass windows, hiding her from the guys view as I lean over her.

She looks up, biting that damn lip again.

"Will I find you soaked, Angel?"

"I don't know, how about you find out."

I reach down and pull the blanket from her before her shorts are off and I drop to my knees between her legs.

"Jax, what if they come out here."

"That's their problem." I tell her as I slide my hands up her inner thighs holding my gaze on her as she parts her lips then bites her bottom lip again.

Sliding two fingers between her silk folds, finding her soaked brings a smile to my face, "Mhm, I was right, soaked."

Teasing her clit, her eyes flutter close, "Look at me Angel, I want to watch you come."

Her eyes fly open, and her hand reaches up pulling the hat from my head, before her nails dig into my scalp, "Then get to work, big boy."

I swear I almost come in my pants hearing this filth from her mouth, but I am fucking loving it, and I feast on her clit. Sucking her clit into my mouth, before I bite down, her grasp in my hair tightens as her body arches.

Wrapping my arms around her thighs, holding her tight against my mouth watching her eyes roll.

Flattening my tongue, I work over her opening before diving my tongue inside her tight little pussy. Feasting on my dessert, feeling her pulse around my tongue, her arousal filling my senses only causing me to become ravenous. My mind fucking with me watching her fall apart, the taste of her on my tongue; I almost lost this, how fucking stupid am I .

My cock throbbing in my pants, wanting to be buried inside her, she lets out a whimper squeezing her thighs against my head.

"That's right, Angel. Give it to me, give me what I've starving for."

Her eyes flutter and I slide two fingers inside her pussy. She squeezes around my fingers as I flick at her clit with the tip off my tongue.

"Jax… I'm…" She moans and I smile against her as her head falls back breaking our gaze and I suck her clit into my mouth against my flattened tongue, working my fingers against her walls, another moan rips from her parted lips as her come drenches my fingers and fills my mouth, savoring every last bit of her.

Fuck she comes hard.

I place a kiss against her slit after getting my fill of what I've been craving, my cock as hard as it can be, leaving my own damn pants soaked. I slide up between her legs as she holds her hooded gaze on me with her parted lips, panting her breaths, "You're too fucking good at that."

I smile as I lean down and shove my tongue into her mouth as my hand slides to the back of her head, fisting her hair in my hand.

I whisper against her lips, "Eating pussy is my favorite thing to do. Get used to it." I kiss her hard, before I pull myself away from her, leaving her to do whatever she wants.

She wants to play games, let the games begin.