Chapter 4

Physically, this feels perfect. Olivia"s hot body against mine as she begs for more… Never in my life have I been so aroused, so in tune with a woman.

But she"s young and at a strange crossroads in her life. A first relationship should be about love and connection and plans for a future together. How could she see a future with me when I"ve always steadfastly refused to be tethered to one location?

Her hand caresses my cheek, looking up at me dreamily. Olivia is definitely not the type to wander the world constantly. Especially not right now, with her heart set on school.

Maybe a quick, fast encounter will show her the ways of the world. Maybe it will teach her that taking chances and having fun feels incredible?—

Yeah, right. Maybe I"m desperately searching for a way to justify this that doesn"t make me a filthy older man taking advantage of a sweet, gorgeous girl. It kills me to do it, but I pull my body slightly away from hers.

"Olivia," I whisper, nuzzling her throat, "we need to be really honest right now."

"Oh, I"m on the pill," she murmurs.

Dammit. So much for one of the reasons I needed to force myself to wait. "That"s great. But I need to make sure that you don"t have any expectations."

She stares at me intently, then sputters out a giggle. "Expectations? This is a one night stand, Riggs. I expect it to be fun and that"s all." Her words are light but her eyes are still searching for something.

No wayis this a one night stand for me. Yet I don"t have the words to explain this deep connection to her. Hell, I"ve never been able to explain myself to women properly.

"You don"t think your first time should be with someone…" I don"t quite know how to finish that sentence.

"Who is incredibly sweet and turns me on? That I click with? Yeah –and guess what, that"s you." Her small white teeth sink into her perfectly puffy pink bottom lip. "If you want me to beg some more, I will."

Son of a…I"ve never been this hard in my life. My cock is literally aching as her hand runs down my chest, her soft, delicate skin a bit cooler than mine.

I"ve been a complete bastard many, many times in my life. Some call me grumpy. Grouchy. A few people have noted that I"m outright surly if the situation calls for it. And here I am, about to take something that isn"t rightfully mine. We"re purely victims of circumstance. I haven"t put in the hours to get to know Olivia properly. It feels like I"m cheating the system, somehow.

I"d be fine with being a bastard to anyone else in the world.

Not to her, though.

Somehow I"ll get through this night without having sex with her…maybe.

My body covers Olivia"s as I kiss her hard and deep, loving the soft whimpers that she"s finally stopped trying to muffle. "Yeah, baby," I whisper. "Moan for me. Moan when you come for me again."

She gasps as I shove her tank top up to devour her perky breasts. Her skin is so soft against my lips. Every ragged breath and shuddering flutter of her stomach makes my cock harder, but it also steels my resolve. I"m going to make her come, then we"ll sleep. That"s. It.

Kissing slowly down her stomach, I look up and watch her eyes as I slip off her sweatpants and underwear with a single long pull. She"s eager and definitely excited.

Spreading her pale thighs, I can"t contain my growl of pure lust as I gaze at her soft pink pussy. My fingers reach out to trail gently against her skin. "Gorgeous," I growl. "My perfect little angel."

After years of ignoring most people, studying Olivia is fascinating. Every murmur, every sigh. The way her eyes are half closed. The way her fingers brush tentatively through my hair as I move closer to her pussy lips, spreading her open gently.

I swear she stops breathing as my tongue meanders along her skin, exploring slowly and watching her pussy begin to flush. Kissing and licking steadily, I nudge closer to her clit without quite touching it. Then I sweep my tongue straight through her inner lips and across her button, making her gasp and shudder.

My girl is so easy to read. Every sound and twitch is burning into my memory. She likes it gentle, but sometimes craves it harder. Gradually increasing the pressure, my thick finger drags along her lips, slipping inside just a bit while I lap steadily against her clit.

Olivia"s fingers tighten in my hair, pulling my mouth against her. I want to tell her that I"m already devoted to caring for her. That this is not just some fling in a cheap motel, but the start of our lives together.

I doubt she can read all that in my eyes, though. Nobody can ever read me properly. My features are too rugged to look friendly. Most people turn away, and honestly, that suits me just fine.

But this amazing girl stares directly at me, moaning and shifting her hips. "Riggs," she whispers as her entire body begins to quake. "Just a little more. Mmm…please…"

Digging in, my finger thrusts a bit deeper as my tongue laps faster against her swollen clit. Finally, I watch her climax spill through her. Her legs tighten around me as her back arches, fingers spearing my hair, nails pricking at my scalp as her lips fall open as she comes hard against my mouth.

That moaning, gasping breath sends fire up my spine.

Olivia collapses back against the bed as I lap up her juices, reveling in the taste of the most delicious, sweetest pussy in the world. She"s mine. We already feel so connected. The wave of possession surges through me. I"ve never needed any other person in my life like I need her.

I kiss my way up to her lips, then lie beside her. She curls into my arms like her body was designed for mine. After a moment, she looks at me with a sweetly seductive smile.

"Please…" Her soft whisper is almost a purr as her fingers start to dip into the waistband of my shorts.

Mmm, this girl."If you want it, beautiful, take it." I roll onto my back with my hands pillowed under my head, then grin at her soft giggle.

"Seriously?"

"Seriously. I need to know how much you want it, gorgeous." My breath hitches as her hand slips under, gripping the head of my cock in her delicate palm. "Stroke it," I command.

I groan as she rubs both hands gently up and down, caressing me tenderly. It feels like she"s afraid to hurt me. She"s driving me so wild that it"s difficult to control myself, but I"m determined to fight the urge to throw her down and plunge inside her just to hear her tiny cries again.

"That"s it." My voice is dark and rasping. "Use both hands. See how much you can touch at once as you move up and down."

She obeys instantly, diligently following my instructions to the letter. I study her eyes carefully, and it hits me: it isn"t just that she wants to be careful and do the right thing. She wants me to tell her precisely what to do.

Well, in that case…

"Skim lightly along the skin. Then grip a bit more firmly. That"s it. Run the center of your palm over the head." I shudder as she follows my every command. "Good girl."

Olivia"s tiny, breathy sigh at the words makes my cock jump in her hands. Fuck. She really does adore the feeling of being controlled. I"ve heard of that helping anxiety. Yet I"d be lying to myself if I said this was just for her benefit. Every touch, every soft moan from her precious mouth is driving me insane.

"Lean closer," I growl, reaching out to stroke her hair. "Wrap those pretty lips around the tip, and slide them down as far as you can."

Her eyes sparkle mischievously as she shifts, moving down between my thighs. "Like this?"

Sweet merciful?—

My hands grip the sheets as her mouth moves down, her lips pressing against the head. Her tongue darts out, licking all around before sucking me down, managing almost a third of it before she eases back.

"It"s so thick," she giggles. "It"s hard to get my mouth around it."

"Just wait until it"s stuffed deep in your pussy, gorgeous." My voice is becoming huskier and I can"t stop myself. Her eyes light up every time my tone deepens.

The sound of her airy gasp burns into my memory. "You really think I can take all this?"

Sure, why not let her think of it as a challenge. "I bet you can." Olivia sucks me down again, humming along my length. "That"s it." Stroking her hair again, I resist the urge to fist it as I plunge my cock between those perfect lips. "See if you can take a bit more."

Oh sweet fuck…

My eyes roll back in my head from the combination of perfect pressure, perfect obedience, and the perfectly dazzling eyes of the beautiful girl looking up at me eagerly. She"s so hungry. Not just for me, and to discover sex. She"s hungry for life. For new things and experiences.

And she loves the way I need to possess her.

She can already read me. Feel the way my shaft pulses in her hand and mouth. I"m positive she"s listening intently to the way my breathing is faltering. Her luscious lips release my cock for just a second.

"Please?"

Then she swallows my entire length, stroking firmly, and I"m already coming down her throat, fisting her hair as I thrust into her perfect mouth too hard. Hot streams of my come explode down her throat as she swallows eagerly, moaning happily until she"s taken the last drop.

Luckily I"m on my back, or I know I would have fallen. Holding Olivia"s sweet face between my palms, I watch in awe as she sucks and licks me clean. "Amazing, baby."

"Really?""

"Hell yeah."

She grins, clearly pleased with herself. "Okay for my first time?"

I guide her up to lie beside me. "Here"s a tip, gorgeous. The most important thing about giving a great blow job is enthusiasm."

Olivia cuddles against me, her head tucking perfectly against my shoulder. I wrap the blankets around us, making sure she"s toasty warm.

"You"re so perfect," I murmur quietly, stroking down the center of her back. "Every single inch of you is divine, my gorgeous girl."

I really should stop calling her mine. Should stop thinking of anything but tonight.

There"s no way to tell what"s going to happen tomorrow. All I know for sure is that I"ve touched Heaven, and now that I have, I"m going to have to find a way to keep this angel in my life.