26. Chapter 26

Honestly, it was a good thing Cooper and I talked about sex. Who knew how much work it would take to bottom for someone? I certainly didn't until I went through the process. All that cleaning and prepping was tedious. Some articles I read said it wasn't necessary, while others said it was. I got all confused, so I chose the cleaner route for our first time.

I rinsed the conditioner out of my hair in the shower and turned off the water. When I stepped out, I grabbed my towel and scrunched the water from my hair so my curls didn't get frizzy.

Next went my skin routine, always taking care of it with lotions and sunscreen. After I finished, I stared at myself in the foggy bathroom mirror. I was so fucking ready for Cooper to be inside me and to take this sexual exploration thing to the next level. But the nerves made my stomach flip around quite a bit. Would it hurt? Would I end up hating it? If so, how would that impact our newly formed relationship?

With some deep breathing, I calmed myself because, looking ahead, Cooper and I would communicate and figure it all out together.

I wrapped the towel around me and stepped out into my bedroom before stopping in my tracks. The sexiest thing I'd ever seen was sprawled out on my bed. Cooper was completely naked, stroking himself with a smirk on his face. My heart rate went from zero to a hundred in seconds because it had first stopped at seeing him in my bed, ready for me. And I may or may not have salivated at his hard body covered in his yummy freckles.

"Holy fuck, Coop. If that doesn't make me want to jump your bones, nothing will."

His smug smile turned shy as he looked away, trying not to blush. He was getting better at accepting my praises. Or perhaps he'd finally gotten used to me constantly complimenting him. Good, because he should always be complimented.

I stripped off my towel to prove how much my body reacted to him. "See how hard I am for you? Just looking at your stunning body and gorgeous hard cock will make me come in seconds."

He huffed a laugh, now turning red right up to his ears, but he didn't look away this time, focused solely on my swollen dick.

"You're fucking hot yourself."

I stopped breathing for a second with his words. It was the first time he'd ever complimented me like that, and I damn near preened.

Before I crawled over to him, I walked over to my nightstand and pulled out a condom and some lube to have ready so we didn't have to dig around as we got heated.

Cooper looked at the items, frowned, and swallowed. His throat moved up and down, and I tried to ignore my need to lick him there. First, I needed to make sure he was still on board with this.

"You can still back out, Coop. Or we can fool around like we usually do."

He looked up at me with his gray-blue, stormy eyes. "No, I want to do this."

I bit my bottom lip to keep from smiling like a loon. "Good, I do, too. But if it makes you feel any better, I'm also nervous."

"You are? You don't look nervous."

I got into the bed and straddled his thighs, trying not to groan when his cock touched mine. Then I rubbed my hands on his arms as they practically stuck to his skin from how clammy they were.

"See? I'm wrecked. But I'm so excited for this." My clammy hand reached for his face and cupped it. "I'm ready to have all of you."

Cooper pulled me down into a heated kiss, and we rolled over onto our sides and continued to make out for a while. Shit, I loved kissing him, his scruff against my skin, his firm full lips on mine, and his hard body—all reminders that he wasn't a woman.

"Who knew I'd be so into a guy and be okay with it?" he said breathlessly. "But it's effortless with you, Asp."

His words gave me hope that we had a future together—a future where we didn't have to hide our relationship because I was all in, one hundred percent.

"I feel the same."

I sat up and pushed him onto his back, pressing kisses along his collarbone and down to his chest, spattered with curly red hair and freckles I couldn't stop admiring. I was fucking obsessed. My mouth stopped at his nipple, and I took one between my teeth, giving it a gentle tug. He hissed and arched his back as his fingers reached for me. His eyes shuttered closed, and his lips parted open to all the arousing sensations I gave him.

I ran my tongue from his naval up to his other nipple, enjoying his salty tang mixed with his woodsy body wash. It was heady, and I could lick and nibble on him all day, but I had a goal to reach.

I worked my way down, down, down, pressing my lips into his happy trail, the hairs tickling my nose as I took a deep breath of him.

"God, your smell is fucking addicting, Superstar."

Before I reached his cock and gave it some love, Cooper lifted me by my armpits and pulled me back on top of him. "No. I want to… try something."

My lip curled on the side. "Something naughty?"

He snorted a laugh and rolled his eyes. "Yes, something naughty, you nerd."

"I'm always game for naughty things."

"I know you are. On your stomach, baby."

As I rolled over in the bed, my body froze at the endearment, and I vibrated with something I couldn't explain, but it was warm and made my heart pound faster and harder. I looked back at him as he moved down the bed. "You called me baby."

His face turned adorably pink at the cheeks. "I know."

I bit my lip and smiled before facing the headboard, not wanting to embarrass him further. Still, I had to say something because I wanted him to keep saying it. The endearment was simple, but it said so much. It said, ‘You're mine.' "I like that."

Cooper grabbed my hips and lifted me up on my knees with so little effort, reminding me of how strong he was. Then, he roamed over the globes of my ass with calloused hands, sending chills through my body and making my cock ache and leak. Being exposed like this was vulnerable, but it was hot, too.

"I, uhm, read this will help open you up," he said in a raspy and tentative voice.

"What wi—Oh, god…"

As soon as Cooper spread my ass cheeks apart, he just dove in with his tongue like he'd been rimming his entire life.

"Fuck…"

I rested my head on my hands, pushing my ass up for more. I'd done this to Cooper before, but I had no idea how good rimming would feel until he did it to me with his soft, warm tongue. Who knew how sensitive my hole would be? Fuck me. My cock leaked pre-cum all over my bed as he flicked the tip of his tongue around the tight muscle. He wasn't wrong. My body completely relaxed under his care, and my hole eased open for more and more.

He suddenly spat there, which shocked me for a second because I had not expected that, especially from Cooper, but then he dove in again, devouring my ass. But why was it unexpected? He'd surprised me at every turn, especially the day he said yes to my suggestion of bro-jobs. No, it shouldn't have surprised me at all at his naughty side.

As soon as he pulled away, I cried out, completely empty and needy for his mouth.

He chuckled behind me as the sound of the lube bottle opened. Soon, a finger swiped over my hole, spreading the oily substance gently around all over to make sure he got me good and saturated.

"Wow, you're so good at this, Superstar." God, was that my voice? It sounded like I'd been singing non-stop for days or I had suddenly turned into a smoker.

"I've been learning how to do this online after you first mentioned you wanted to have sex. You rimmed me so effortlessly, and I wanted to do the same in return because it feels fucking good."

"Yeah, it does—Uhmph!" I cried into my pillow when the first finger eased into me. Holy shit, we were really doing this. Cooper was knuckle deep inside me already.

As he thrust his finger in and out, he peppered sweet kisses on my ass. The gentleness of his lips and the burn of his finger set my body on fire. My cock was desperate for friction, but I held still because I wanted my full attention on what he was doing to me, which felt fucking amazing.

Soon, he eased a second finger inside, stretching me, loosening me. When he wiggled his fingers, he brushed up what I assumed was my prostate because the sensation went straight to my nuts.

"Oh, shit. Oh, fuck."

"You like that, baby?" His voice was so full of humor and confidence. I ate it up. I loved this side of my superstar.

"Yes… amazing. Look at you go, learning how to turn me on… not that it takes much effort with you. Just looking at you turns me on."

"Your hole is… Is it weird to say it looks cute and so pink?"

I smiled and snorted a laugh into the pillow. "I thought the same thing about yours."

He pressed his mouth to my ass cheek again, and this time he bit hard enough to sting, but not to bruise or leave a mark. I groaned at the stinging pleasure.

By his third finger, I was a leaking and whimpering mess, and I was so fucking ready for his big cock.

Cooper reached between my legs and grabbed ahold of my overly sensitive dick, and gave it a few tugs.

"Jesus, you're so… wet and hard."

"Uh, huh… please, Coop. I need you inside me… like now. Pronto. Because I'm going to die in a minute."

The bed moved around as he shifted and wiped his hand on my blanket, which was fine since I needed to wash it anyway, and he reached for the condom on the side table. "Need me to put that on for you?" I asked with a waggle of my brows.

He looked at me through his thick red lashes as he tore open the wrapper. "I'm afraid if you do, I'll come in seconds. Seriously, I'm so achingly hard right now that I'm already terrified I'll come as soon as I'm inside you."

"It's okay if you do. We can always try again."

His smile was nervous, and he nodded. "Thanks, but I still want to make this good for you, too."

"It will be. I know it."

"On your back, baby."

My stomach fluttered and dipped, filled with excitement that he wanted to watch me as we had sex. I rolled onto my back and spread my legs for him to kneel in front of me.

"Fuck, look at your cock so red and needy. Why is that so hot?"

"Right? Who knew we'd like dicks so much?"

We both had a good laugh before the nerves settled back in.

I pulled back my legs by the thighs as he lined himself up.

"Ready?"

I nodded and swallowed. "Ready." I felt like a fucking virgin again, having sex for the first time. Fuck virginity. It was a stupid social construct found in purity culture. Regardless, it was a strange sensation to be filled with nerves, excitement, want, and arousal.

Cooper finally eased his tip inside. I loved his gorgeous and adorable face, with his tongue peeking out, and was super focused as he tried to be so careful with me.

I grabbed his face in my hands to make him look at me and not be so worried. "You've got this, Superstar."