Chapter 4

Dyronix

I have been following Layla around, trying to gain the courage to ask her out on a date. I had no idea that I could feel so much in so little time, but I kept worrying that maybe she didn't like me as much as I liked her. I can see her glancing at me, obviously interested but she has not said much to me about it. I hate feeling like I'm a creeper or something and I end up watching her carefully every time because what else could I honestly do about this? Maybe the best thing for me to do is to not let this get to me and figure out where I want to go from here.

I keep thinking about asking her to my home which is an act of proposing to my kind. To let someone, especially a female into our home, it's basically stating that we want them to be a part of our life. I have never felt so much in so little time before and I already know that I'm going to be completely content with whatever ends up happening between us. I mean truly, what's the worst thing that could end up actually happening, right? I guess there's only one way to find out though.

I approached her cautiously, seeing how her friend had finally walked away. She looks up when she sees me, and I see the hesitancy in her eyes once more. I don't like seeing that, so I just offer her a friendly smile. One that she actually returns.

"Oh? So, you actually decided to approach me finally." She teases me now, tilting her head to the side, "Honestly, I had worried about you deciding that you didn't want anything to do with me. I don't know why but you kept on watching me and it did make me feel weird. What's your game?"

I don't quite understand what she is saying so I just shake my head, "it's no game. I know you might not believe me, but I am really interested in you, and I think that we would be a great fit together. You don't have to agree with me on that, but I thought that I should let you know so you know what my intentions are. I have no qualms with making sure that you are NOT out of my life because all I want is you here beside me. I know that might sound a bit ridiculous but in my home's customs, this is just what we do when we feel an automatic connection."

Now she is definitely looking at me like I'm crazy and maybe I can't blame her now. I do feel a bit crazy. All I want to do is fall straight into her arms and ask her to love me the way that I deserve to be loved. I know that she might not end up feeling exactly that way and why should she? I know it might sound crazy because of everything that has happened between us, but I think that it's okay to just let her know and then she can figure out what she wants to do with that information.

She continues to study me carefully, as if she is thinking about what she's going to do next. I don't even know if I'm good enough to remain by her side, but I hope so. I want to be a part of her life more than I have wanted something in my entire life and I don't know how else to put it. I know that this could very well end badly if I don't keep it under control but to me, I don't think that I'm making the wrong decision in this sense. I think that she's going to end up loving me if I can continue to show her just how much I feel.

I have never professed myself to someone before, nor have I made my intentions known. It is so sacred to offer up my home to a female and I'm sure there is going to be a lot of jealous ones since she is human and I am not, but I don't care. She feels right. She feels perfect. I know there is no way in hell that I'm ever going to let her walk away from me and if I did, I would honestly be a damn fool for doing so. I can see by the look on her face that she might feel the same way about this situation, but I have no idea how to make it more known to her about what I want.

Fiddling nervously with my fingers, I wait for her answer a little anxiously. I am fearing that she might reject me because she doesn't understand our customs, or she's just not interested. Of course, I would end up respecting that because there's no reason for me not to, but I wonder if maybe I might end up making a mistake if I don't make things clear. Would I regret letting her walk out of my life? Would I beg her for mercy? Would I ask that she doesn't break my heart and just go along with it?

There's nothing that I could honestly say that would end up changing my mind, but I do know how I feel, and I know what I want. This could turn around and bite me in the butt, but I don't really care. I just want her to see what I need her to.

"You can say no." I promise her, my heart racing as I want to plead with her not to but I'm making sure that she knows it, "but I'd like to remind you that you will not regret it if you say yes to me. I will make you the happiest girl in the world that I can, and I can assure you that you will never live with any regrets."

I know I could just be saying this, but I believe it a hundred percent. I wouldn't lie to her about something like this, I have no reason to, nor would I even want to. I have never wanted something so much in my entire life like I do right now, and I know for a fact that I'm just not going to be able to walk away from her so easily.

I guess there's only one thing to do and to just find out.

"Sure." She suddenly says, making me really surprised, "Since you asked so nicely."

I want to jump for joy, but I just pull her in for a hug, ignoring the stares and I wonder if she can feel how hard my heart is pounding in my chest. I pull away almost immediately.

"I will come to get you then when your off work." I promise her, wondering how everything can just feel so right.

I hope I don't make her regret this.