19. Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Nikolai

I think I died in that storage room. I must have. How else would I have found myself in heaven? There’s no other explanation. Although, I’m not going to heaven, so…what’s going on?

There’s absolutely no way that this ethereal being would be interested in a useless piece of shit like me. It just doesn’t happen. I pinch myself, but don’t wake up. My cock is still buried deep inside Z’Ree’s pussy, my hands still gripping her hips and my eyes are still glued to her hypnotizingly beautiful purple orbs. She’s still here with me. Mine.

“I can’t…” I shake my head. There are no words to describe the absolute bliss I’m feeling right now. Nothing compares to this. Nothing ever will. The incessant humming inside of me has quieted down now that we’re finally joined but my desire still rages full force. I still want her. Again and again.

Z’Ree moans, the sound going straight to my cock. She squeezes her internal muscles, those incredible ridges inside of her pussy digging into my cock in the most delectable way. I already came, but I never lost the erection. I’m just as hard as I was before and more than ready for another round. This time, though, I’ll take my time.

Carefully, I flip us over, making sure I stay seated deep inside of her pussy. Z’Ree looks like she’s about to protest, probably ready to order me to rest, but I’ve never felt more energized in my life. “I’m fine,” I say, silencing her with a kiss. “If this is a dream, I want to get as much out of it as I can before I wake up.”

Giggling, she shakes her head. “No dream. It’s real. I think…” I cut her off by sucking her nipple into my mouth, suckling on it. Z’Ree whimpers at the feeling, arching her back to bring her nipple closer to me. “If it’s a dream,” she whispers, every word a battle against the reflex that keeps her from speaking, “I never want to wake up.”

“Me neither,” I say, moving to lavish her other nipple with attention. “I don’t know how this could be real, though. Celestial beings like you don’t end up with people like me.” Guilt tears at my heartstrings as if trying to rip me open. “I’m not a good man, Z’Ree,” I confess. Pulling out of her, I sit back on my knees. Mesmerized, I watch as our combined juices slowly seep out of her pussy. I fucking love that sight.

Raising her head, Z’Ree frowns at my confession. “You are the best man, Nikolai. You are nothing but goodness.”

If only. I rub my face as if that alone could hide me from Z’Ree’s scrutiny. But she deserves to know about my past. I should have told her everything about me before we had sex. “I’m a terrible person, Z’Ree. My family…” At the mention of my family, my cock, which was rock hard a moment ago, shrivels. “My family are bad people. They’re just like the people who took you. Like your masters.” I’m sure my father more than dabbled in the skin trade, along with other unsaintly ventures. The Volkov family has their fingers in nearly every criminal enterprise in Moscow.

Z’Ree shakes her head. “Your family. Not you.”

“No. I did those things too. I tried to resist but sometimes, there just wasn’t a choice. I couldn’t…”

The gun is too large for an eleven-year-old to carry. Too heavy. The man before me is resigned. There’s no fight left in his one remaining eye.

“Finish him, boy,” my father’s voice demands, a voice that fuels my nightmares. “Kill him, now.”

I don’t raise the gun. I don’t want to take the man’s life.

“Kill him or I’ll bring his family in here and butcher every single one of them in front of both of you. Pull the fucking trigger, boy.”

A tear rolls down the man’s face, mixing with the blood. He looks at me, pleading. For what, I don’t know.

I raise the gun. It trembles so fiercely in my little hand that father’s men step clear of that whole side of the room. They don’t want to be hit accidentally.

The man gives the tiniest of nods. Permission. I don’t want his permission. I want to turn the gun on the monster behind me.

“Hurry up, boy!”

I squeeze the trigger. The noise is deafening, the recoil knocking the gun out of my hands. My cheeks are wet.

“If you want to cry, I’ll give you a reason to cry!”

The sharp slap has me stumbling to the floor, in a pool of blood. I curl up in case he kicks me but he doesn’t. Father just spits on me and marches away. The lock clicks and the lights go off, leaving me curled up on the floor in the darkness with the man I’d just murdered.

“Nikolai.”

The sound of my name brings me out of the terrible memory. Z’Ree is kneeling in front of me, her hands gripping my shoulders.

“I’m sorry,” I whisper, lowering my head to avoid her look of disdain. “I just…I’ve done terrible things. I don’t deserve you. You are so…” At a loss for words, I wave my hand, gesturing at her perfection. “And I’m not.”

Z’Ree sighs. “We are both damaged. Imperfect,” she says. “I…I’m not innocent.” She struggles with each word as I patiently wait for her to finish. “Sometimes, I could have stopped Master from punishing other slaves. I could have tried, at least. But I never did. I was too scared. Nobody is perfect but perhaps we are perfectly imperfect for each other. Please. I need you.”

I don’t deserve Z’Ree. I don’t, but I’m a selfish man. I want her and she wants me back and that’s all that matters to me in this moment. “You will always have me, my jewel.”

I shut out the memories of my father and his cruelty. They’ll be back later to haunt my dreams but for now, they’re safely locked away leaving me free to focus on pleasuring Z’Ree. “Lie down for me,” I say, pressing softly against her shoulder. “Let me worship you like you deserve.”

Breath catching and eyes wide, Z’Ree lies back without protest, letting me part her knees. She’s slick with our release. Eagerly, I slide my finger inside of her glistening pussy. The breathless moan that follows ensures me she still wants me as much as I want her.

I realize I’m an idiot. I’m halfway across the galaxy, away from my father and yet, I almost let him fuck this up for me. He has controlled my every thought and action for way too long. Not anymore.

Curling my fingers, I begin stroking the delicious ridges inside of Z’Ree’s pussy. They feel hard yet soften under my touch. She’s whimpering in time with my ministrations, moving her hips forward and backwards, then up and down, against my fingers. “Oh, Nikolai…”

My name on her lips is like a drug. I want her to say it again. To moan it again. To scream it like she did when she came. Fuck, I need to make her come, right now.

Diving between Z’Ree’s legs, I suck her clit into my hungry mouth. She tastes divine, like an exquisite delicacy. Better than any food I’ve ever put in my mouth including the magical polvoren she made me eat. That stuff was good, sure, but nothing compares to the orgasmic taste of Z’Ree’s juices on my tongue.

Tasting my own release on her pussy lips should gross me out but surprisingly, instead of weirding me out, I want to pound on my chest like a caveman and scream “MINE!” for everyone to hear. Maybe I will. Later. For now, I’m too consumed with the desperate need to savor Z’Ree and my combined flavor as I continually flick my tongue, lapping her clit over and over, reveling in her screams of pleasure.

“Nikolai!” she shrieks, bucking so hard I nearly lose my place at her pussy entrance. Refusing to be denied my favorite meal, I kiss her clit softly as I continue moving my fingers slowly inside of her pussy, prolonging her pleasure. Her inside walls squeeze my fingers, the ridges pressing into me, my cock growing hard as I imagine being inside of her again.

I want that but first, I want to make her come again.

Z’Ree whimpers when I don’t stop with my ministrations. I ease up on her clit, knowing it will be over-sensitized now but double down on my efforts with my fingers. Before she has completely come down from her last orgasm, her body is already tensing up in preparation for another one.

“Fuck…” she whines. “Good geodes. You’re going to kill me. Oh. OH! Yes!”

She writhes as if undecided whether she wants to move away from me or into me. Knowing she’s close, I continue teasing her. Same angle, same pace, same everything. Over and over until she cries out again, her thighs squeezing my head as if she wants to crush it. What a way to go! I’d die a happy man..

This time, she shoves my head away as soon as she’s calming down enough to think clearly, pushing me away from her pussy. Wincing when she accidentally touches the bandage, I don’t make a sound. If she thought I was in pain, she’d want to stop and I’m far from done with her.

“Nikolai…” she whines, tugging on my hair to bring my head up. “I need…I need a minute. Geodes…”

I lie down beside her, failing to hide the smug grin overtaking my face as I watch her chest heave up and down and sweat bead on her iridescent skin. I made that happen and it’s impossible not to feel smug about it. Yes, I’m a bad person who’s done terrible things and I most certainly don’t deserve someone as pure as Z’Ree, but I have her and I’m not letting go.

Turning to face me, Z’Ree throws one leg over my hip, drawing our bodies closer together. The tip of my cock brushes against her spread pussy lips causing a full body shudder, my hips jerking forward in reflex, one I can’t seem to control.

“You…” she whispers, chuckling as she plants kisses along my jaw. “I’m not… I haven’t… Wow.”

Squeezing her delectable buttocks, I pull ZRee’s hips into mine, groaning as my cock slides between her pussy lips again. I’m so hard I could come just from rubbing myself against her wetness but she’s not having it. “I want you,” she whispers, sneaking a hand between our bodies.

She doesn’t guide my cock to her entrance like I suspected she would but touches herself instead. I grab Z’Ree’s wrist and pull it away from her pussy. I’m the only one allowed to touch it now.

“I was just checking,” she says, giggling at my scowl.

“Checking?”

“Mhm.” Her nipples rub against my chest as she moves even closer to me. “That I won’t hurt you.”

“Hurt me?” I don’t understand at first, then I remember her question when I first entered her. It’s a bit of a blur since most of my blood was in my cock at the time, but…did she say she had crystals inside her pussy? “Oh, you mean the ridges? They’re the best fucking thing ever.”

She chuckles against my neck. “When I’m aroused.”

“And when you’re not?” I ask as I guide my cock to her entrance. We can talk all she wants but I’ll be inside of her for it.

“They’re crystals. Sharp ones.”

I can’t stop the very unmanly whimper that escapes as I push inside of Z’Ree. Her crystals, soft and pliable, massage my cock in ways I couldn’t have imagined before today but even if they were cutting into my flesh, I’d still choose to be inside of her because this is where I fucking belong. For eternity.