Chapter 22

JUNE 5 – MONDAY 1:35 PM

M yles

I fucking loved the dazed look Ren got whenever we kissed. Her eyelids were still heavy, making her lashes fan her cheek. Her lips were swollen as I broke the kiss, but she stood still as if waiting for me to continue. I didn't think she could get any more adorable.

Grabbing Ren's hand, she laughed as I jogged out of the bedroom, down the short hallway to the bathroom, and closed the door. Damn, she looked amazing in the bike gear, but there was way too much of it, and I wanted to feel her skin.

Nibbling at the side of Ren's neck, she shuddered as I unzipped the protective Kevlar jacket and pushed it off her shoulders. I didn't say a word as our hands moved in a natural synchronization. Within minutes, she was stripped down to a sexy pair of black lace underwear and matching bra that had every part of me standing at attention.

"Fuck Snowflake, ya have any idea how delicious you look. Yer a walking meal for my eyes, and I swear I'm gonna devour you," I said, looking her up and down as I contemplated my options.

"I feel the same way about you," Ren whispered, running her hands up my chest and along my shoulders. The hunger in her eyes drove me wild. My brain raced as I pulled the zipper on my jeans down and froze. "What is it? What's wrong?"

Pulling away from Ren, I grabbed the bathroom drawer and started rummaging through it. "No, no, no, this cannie be happening," I growled in frustration. Finding nothing, I whipped open the cupboard doors.

"Myles, what are you doing?"

I stared at the bottles of cleaner and an extra package of toilet paper in defeat. "Fuck me life." Pushing myself up and closing the doors, I leaned against the counter. "I don't have any condoms. We never bring girls here, and I don't have any on me. Shite." I ran my hand through my hair. "Such an arse." Ren laughed softly, and I looked up to meet her eyes. "This isn't funny. I've lost count of how many times Murphy has screwed me up the arse when it comes to you. I can't catch a break." Ren stepped in close and wrapped her arms around my waist as a thought occurred to me. "Wait, did Theo use protection? He fuckin' better have. If anyone is screwin' up and getting you pregnant, it's me."

She laughed harder and shook her head at me. "Stop, just stop. First of all, no one is getting anyone pregnant. As much as I love kids and want one someday, that doesn't mean in the near future. Second, yes, Theo did. Finally, when I had my last check-up before summer break, I made a point to schedule an IUD insertion. Just to be safe. I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want it to add pressure on anyone, including myself."

"That was smart, I shouldn't be surprised yer a freaking genius. But…does that mean…."

"How confident are you in your pull-out game?"

"Hmm, that's kinda like playing catch with a loaded gun, but I've got skill. I'm pretty confident." Ren cocked an eyebrow, and I held up my hands. "To be clear, I'm not sayin' that I've gone without protection before, but I think I can do it," I said, hope sparking in my chest. As she locked eyes with me, a mischievous grin danced across her lips, and my hope soared.

"I like that," she said, the pink darkening across her cheeks. "To be your first."

Cupping her face, I gently nipped at her bottom lip. "Snowflake, yer already my first in what counts. Yer the first and the last who will ever hold my heart."

Ren blinked and cleared her throat as tears shimmered in her eyes. "Stop that. I don't want to cry, even happy tears. I just want to enjoy this moment with you."

"It's hard not to say things like that when my heart feels like it stops beating whenever we're apart and restarts the moment ya walk into the room." A few tears slipped from her eyes, and I wiped them away with my thumbs. "Come on, let's shower. I need to soap the stink of Theo off ya." Ren laughed as I smiled. I never wanted to let go, even for a second, but stepped away to turn the water on.

Even though it was my Snowflake, and I knew she wouldn't care about the scars my father made, there was a part of me that worried she would take one look and walk out the door. It was an irrational fear that had been drilled into my head for years, but after everything Ren had been through, she still stood in front of me with a smile on her face and eagerness for life. That was no easy feat. Her bravery pushed me to pull the rest of my clothes off, and for the first time since my father maimed me, I stood before her naked, but more than my body was laid bare.

My eyes darted up to hers, and I sucked in a deep breath. I'd expected shock or disgust, but all I saw was an addictive combination of rage and lust. Ren stepped closer, and her eyes never left my cock. The intensity of her stare singed me. I shuddered and sucked in a deep breath as she reached out and took me in her hand. I swear I almost came on the spot. It had been so long since I'd been touched like this by her that the razor's edge was already sharp.

"Does this hurt now," Ren asked, and I realized that I'd closed my eyes. I opened them and looked down into her silvery pools.

"Naw, Snowflake. It feels so good I'm scared I'm gonna come right now, and we'll never make it to the shower, let alone the bed." I licked my lips, my throat suddenly dry as she slid her hand down my cock and cupped my balls at the same time.

"I love having this effect on you." She kissed my chest, and my heart jumped.

"Ya don't care about the scars," I asked, and she got a look on her face that I couldn't decipher.

"Do you care about mine?"

I stepped back, panic setting in as I searched her body, wondering if she'd been hurt in the firefight. "I don't see any, turn around."

Ren shook her head. "My scars can't be seen, but they are with me nonetheless."

"Oh. That's not the same thing. I look like a freakin' tiger."

"And what's wrong with a tiger?" She lifted her shoulder and let it drop. "From where I'm standing, aside from wanting to murder your father for doing this to you, I love it. It's no different than an exotic piercing or tattoo, and besides, I'll never have to guess in the dark who is who."

"Who says yer gonna be in the dark with more than one cock?" She just stared at me like I was an idiot. "Okay, fine, yer right, that's gonna happen. I do like that you'll always know it's me, though." I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her tight against me. "Yer always gonna know whose name to scream when ya come," I growled into her ear and smiled as she shuddered.

"Always," she said, pressing her body into mine and wiggling against me. The girl was going to make me lose my mind.

Fuck, what am I thinking? I lost my mind the first day I saw her.

"Turn around," I whispered. Ren lifted her hair out of the way, and I unclipped her bra, groaning as I watched it fall to the floor. She glanced back at me before pushing her underwear down, but calm flew out the window when she bent over, and her naked ass rubbed against my cock as she pulled them off.

Thud, thud. Thud, thud. Thud, thud. My heart pounded harder than it ever had before. Cupping Ren's ass, my hands followed the lines of her body as she stood straight. I slid my hand around to her stomach, my fingers skimming her ribs. She leaned back into me, her head laying over the pounding organ in my chest. Running my hand over Ren's breast, her nipple hardened and pressed into my palm, and I could feel her heartbeat matching the erratic speed of mine under my fingertips.

"Are we going to get in," Ren asked.

"I kinda forgot it was runnin'," I said but forced myself away from her to step into the shower and held her hand as she got in and closed the door.

The hot water beat down on my shoulders as I tilted my head back under the spray. I gasped when Ren's hand wrapped around my cock. Gripping the top of the shower door, I squeezed the metal hard enough that it rattled as she stroked me like a fucking pro. She'd lost any timidness from our first experience, and I hated to say it, but that wasn't all because of me.

"Sweet feking hell," I growled, looking down. My eyes snapped open as she took me into her mouth. Ren had gotten on her knees in front of me, and as her eyes rolled up to mine, every muscle flexed. "I think we should've gone to the bed straight away. If ya keep doin' that, I'm done fer?"

She swirled her tongue around my tip, and I clenched my jaw to keep a semblance of control.

"Mmm," she moaned and bobbed her head.

"Fuck."

I sucked in a breath as she pulled me from her hot mouth. "Are you saying you can only go once?"

Well, if that wasn't a jab to the old pride. Rolling out my shoulders, I locked eyes with my deviously sexy temptress. "Are ya challenging me?"

Ren lifted a shoulder in a half-hearted shrug as her tongue licked long strokes up my cock like I was an ice cream cone. I was eating up every second of it.

"Just saying that I thought you'd be able to, is all," she said sweetly, and I smirked at my vixen.

"Oh, Snowflake. After the first one, I can keep it up long enough that you'll be begging me to stop or end up passing out. Are ya willin' to take that risk?"

She smirked like the devil and sucked me into her mouth until her cheeks hollowed. My knees almost buckled as I hit the back of her throat, and her tongue teased me.

"Snowflake, ya have the mouth of a sinner and a saint." My knees were shaking, and I had to brace my feet against the sides of the shower to stay upright.

Snowflake's hair was soaking wet, and the droplets ran down her face. She looked like she had just stepped out of my dream. Unable to keep my hands to myself, I grabbed a handful of her hair and watched as I disappeared into her mouth as far as she could take me before pulling back out.

"Yes, just like that." My fist tightened, and I forced myself not to fuck her face, but every time she sucked me in and swallowed, the temptation gripped me. "Uh, God," I groaned, my hips bucking faster into her hot mouth.

Her eyes stayed locked on mine, her lips wrapped around my cock as I pumped harder and was so close that my body was tightening all over. She suddenly pulled off my cock, and I almost yelled in desperation for her to continue, but she swirled her tongue down to the base. Teasing me, pushing me higher, making me last longer, and giving me a shove off the diving board into the deep end of pleasure.

"Suck my balls, Snowflake." There was no hesitation. She sucked back and forth as my hand flew at a blinding pace up and down my cock.

"I'm gonna come. You said ya wanted this, so show me how much," I said, clenching my jaw so tight it cracked.

Ren was constantly surprising me, and she did again as she gripped my wrist and forced my hand away so she could continue sucking.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck." I braced myself against the wall, my head thrown back as I yelled her name, not giving a fuck if the guys or the next county heard me as I came. Every bit of her was mine. My body strained, and my knees were so shaky that I thought they might actually give out as she continued to suck like she was possessed.

I slumped against the wall as the last drop left my body, and then gave up entirely and slid to the floor. Ren crawled between my legs, licking her lips, and my eyes were transfixed to her mouth. It wouldn't have surprised me to find out that she was born a siren because I was entranced by everything she did.

"Fuck me," I growled as she licked her way up my abs and teased my nipple before kissing me. She smiled as she rose to her feet and held out her hand for me. If it was possible to fall in love with her all over again then I just did.

"Let's get washed up. I really want to get into the bedroom before something weird happens to us. I mean, as you said, we don't have a great track record."

I slipped my hand into hers and pushed myself up. "Don't even put that out into the air. We don't need to manifest a disaster," I teased, making her laugh. "Let me wash off quick, and then I want to take my time with yer body."

"But—" I put my finger over her lips, and she looked like she wanted to bite me. I fucking loved it.

"No buts. It's as much for me to re-coop so I can give you my best as it is to make ya feel like the queen ya are." The flutter of her eyelashes and blush that spread had me wrapping Ren up in my arms.

"I fuckin' love you with my whole soul, Snowflake. I hope ya know that I'll do anything to keep ya. Just say the word, and I'll tear this world apart for you, and no one will stand in my way."

"Love me, that's all I ask," she said, and I dropped my lips to capture hers.