Chapter 28

Chapter Twenty-Eight

FUCK!!!

M y insides are almost shattering because you forced me to say those horrible words. I can’t lose you, Beauty! Because if I lose you, I’ll lose my mind, too. And if that happens, I can no longer guarantee anything.

I quickly step into my garage and shut the door behind me. I had to escape from you because the darkness inside me was reaching dangerously for you. But it mustn’t get you; otherwise, the same thing will happen to you as it did to her.

Roaring, I clutch my skull and squeeze so hard that it hurts. But I can’t stand the angry voices in my head any other way. They scream at me so loudly and hatefully for letting you go that I feel like I might lose control. I sink to my knees as I pull at my short hair, trying to divert my anger and distract the boiling rage inside me. But it doesn’t work. Images of the past catch up with me relentlessly, showing me what happened the last time I was so unspeakably angry.

I see her blood. His blood. Both of their blood mixing. I had to cover my tracks and make it look like an accident. But it wasn’t an accident. The voices in my head. They made me punish her for cheating on me. She wasn’t allowed to cheat on me because she was mine alone. Only I was allowed to touch her, taste her, kiss her, and no one else. But my best friend believed that what was mine was also his. Wrong, buddy, because I don’t share what’s mine. Ever!

A pained cry escapes my throat as the images try to overwhelm me. Then I see you lying lifeless on the floor at my feet instead of my ex. Your blood, it’s on my hands if you’re not mine soon! You have to be mine! Mine alone! Fuck, Beauty, do you see what you’re doing to me…?