Riri

I 'm in the middle of packing my things when I hear the door to my dorm room open. I turn around, and it's him .

"I'm sorry, ."

God, oh God.

It's the gentleness of his voice, oh God.

It's that of all things that reminds me of last night.

Get out of my house!

My heart feels like it's about to explode with pain.

" ---"

He reaches for me, and I just scream.

"No!"

His face whitens.

"..."

I suddenly realize that this is my room.

I suddenly realize that I can say it now.

To him.

But I can't.

And the realization tears me apart.

"Why can't I say it?" I sob out. "Why?"

Why can't I tell him to get out like he did?

Why?