17. Maddie

Maddie woke up sometime after midnight and started crying again. The love of her life had completely and utterly rejected her. Her Daddy. How could she have been so stupid and put herself out there like that? She was an idiot.

Being a Little was a piece of her, and she so badly wanted to experience having a Daddy. Ian definitely did some Daddyish stuff, but she was sure he would never do those things again now that she had mentioned how much she loved it. He would probably suggest she move out. Actually, no, he wouldn't do that because Cam asked him to keep her under his roof until she married, and Ian would stand by his word and honor Cam's wishes.

Picking up her phone from the nightstand, she saw that Quinn had messaged her while she was sleeping.

Hey! I'm back in town. Are you still in Seattle? Let's get together if you are.

Maddie typed up and sent a response even though she figured Quinn would already be asleep.

I'm still here. I'm living at Ian's. Let's plan something!

Grabbing her laptop, Maddie opened a webpage and typed into the search bar.

BDSM clubs in Seattle.

Maddie hesitated when all the websites came up of different clubs in Seattle that specialized in BDSM. She didn't want to find a Daddy somewhere else. She didn't want anyone else at all. But maybe if she put herself out there, she'd meet someone who would satisfy her Little side enough that she didn't feel like she had a huge gaping hole missing from her heart.

Her finger hovered over the mousepad as she stared at the screen, deciding if she was actually brave enough to go to an adult club. Maybe Quinn would go with her. Quinn knew she was interested in DDlg, and Quinn had even asked her for some Daddy Dom book recommendations, so maybe she was into it too. She thought about it for a few minutes before deciding against asking Quinn to go with her. This would be her own adventure, and if she wanted to find a Daddy to scene with, she didn't want Quinn seeing her in full-on Little space.

Her phone vibrated with a text from Quinn.

Do you want to get dinner tomorrow night? We could go downtown and dress up!

She quickly sent a response.

Okay, that sounds good. Want to meet at the City Grill at 7?

Her phone vibrated immediately with confirmation from Quinn that she would be there.

Returning to her search results, Maddie clicked on the third club in the results that was called Passions. After perusing the website for a few minutes, she didn't see anything about age play, and it seemed to be a walk-in and pay-to-go inside sort of club. Maddie knew from the books that she read that a safe club usually did background checks or at least made the patrons fill out paperwork before going in to play.

She backed out of that website and clicked on another for a club called The Playground. She explored the website and found that they had a Littles' section in the club where Littles and their caretakers could play in an area that was private and totally separate from the more hardcore activities. They emphasized how important safety and security were and required paperwork to be filled out to be approved to visit the club.

Maddie hovered the mouse over the button that said Complete Paperwork Electronically. Taking a deep breath, she clicked the button. Just because she filled out the paperwork didn't mean she had to go. She could just fill it out and then decide after that. Besides, by the time they sent her an approval, she might not be feeling so enthusiastic about finding a Daddy to play with.

She read through all the rules of the club, which were extensive. They obviously took safety and consent very seriously. The following document wanted her name, address, date of birth, and other personal information. She then had to upload a photo of her driver's license that they would keep on file. After completing all of that, it took her to a page to complete her hard and soft limits. She stared at the screen for a long time before she started clicking the boxes that she thought would be her limits. How was she supposed to really know what they were? She had never experienced anything before.

After checking and unchecking several boxes, Maddie hit the submit button and closed her laptop. Resorting to a club was the last thing she wanted to do, but if Ian didn't want her, she had to move on and try to start her own life. She couldn't stay with him forever, and she didn't want to be without a Daddy forever.

Still wearing her ruffle panties and onesie, Maddie went to the bathroom and handled her business before stripping completely out of the outfit and getting changed into a cotton nightie. She grabbed Stitch and snuggled him to her chest when she crawled into bed. She'd really made a mess of things, and there was no going back. Things would be awkward, and Ian would probably avoid her as much as possible, which would make her feel even worse.

The next day, Maddie stayed in her room most of the day. She went downstairs to grab some food at one point after she'd heard Ian's car leave the driveway. She searched the cupboards, hoping to find her candy stash but didn't luck out, so she settled for some crackers, cheese, and a banana that she took back to her room. She wanted to avoid seeing Ian if she could.

While she ate, she worked for a bit until she saw an email notification from The Playground letting her know her application had been accepted and she could visit the club anytime. She hadn't expected a response so quickly, and suddenly, her mind was going a million miles an hour. Could she actually go to a club like that? What would she wear?

Maybe she could just stop by the club after her dinner with Quinn to see what it was like. If she didn't like it or felt weirded out, she could just leave. It was downtown, not far from the restaurant where they would be having dinner, and she would already be dressed up. Maybe she could bring some Little clothes with her that she could change into if she decided to stay and play in the Littles' area.

Feeling excited and nervous all at once, Maddie went through her clothes several times, trying to pick out an outfit. By the time she was done, she had clothes strewn all over her room but had found what she wanted to wear. It was still early afternoon, and she had some more work to do, but she was too excited, so she decided to take a shower. Maddie took her time curling her hair into beach waves and applying some makeup. She put a couple of hairbands into her purse to put her hair into pigtails once she got to the club.

Rolling up a snap crotch onesie, Maddie also put that in her purse along with another pair of ruffle panties. She didn't know if she would actually be brave enough to wear so little in front of a bunch of strangers, but the clothes were small enough to fit in her purse, so she would have to suck it up. She didn't want to answer any questions from Ian by having a bag of clothes with her when she left the house if she happened to ran into him. The club website said changing rooms were available for anyone who wanted to get dressed after they arrived.

Maddie worked for a couple of hours before getting dressed. The time was crawling by, and she had no idea how she would be able to focus on anything at dinner. Hopefully, Quinn wouldn't notice her nervousness. At six o'clock, she shut her laptop and began getting dressed. When Quinn had mentioned dressing up, she knew that she meant dresses and heels, so that's what Maddie put on. The skintight bandage dress that she wore was black and pushed her cleavage up, making her boobs look bigger than they actually were. The straps that held the dress up were about an inch wide, and the bottom of the dress came to her mid-thigh. She put on a pair of hot pink patent leather pumps to go with the dress and give her outfit a pop of color.

She wasn't overly comfortable in sexy clothes like that, but she did enjoy dressing up sometimes. Usually, Quinn out-sexied her without even trying. She didn't want to look like a frumpy toad compared to whatever her friend would be wearing. She also kind of hoped to see Ian as she was leaving so he could see exactly what he had rejected. Yeah, she was being petty, but she was pretty sure it would make her feel better. Luckily the weather was warm as it was heading into summer, so she didn't need to take a jacket with her.

Opening her Uber app, Maddie ordered a car to pick her up and saw that one would arrive within ten minutes. She checked out her makeup in the mirror and applied a hot pink lipstick to match her shoes. As she sprayed herself with a little bit of perfume, her phone dinged, letting her know her driver was there. Grabbing her purse and phone, Maddie stepped out of her bedroom and headed downstairs.