19. Chapter 19

Chapter nineteen

Cormac

T his day had been through so many twists and turns it felt like a week.

Dad telling me he was going to retire.

Felix having a fucking seizure.

And then Felix confessing that he loved me back.

As we watched Raiders of the Lost Ark , I’d fallen asleep, but I’d woken up far earlier than Felix. He was out, his back to my chest, and I kept my arms wrapped around him, resting my chin on his head. I didn’t want to move while he was asleep, even though my stomach rumbled something fierce. I’d switched to The Mummy since Raiders had ended, and the windows displayed the inkiness of the surrounding night.

Even though I was exhausted, my mind was wired after the nap and Felix’s confession. I stared at the man in my arms, barely believing this was my reality. That he truly felt the same way I did about him.

Watching his seizure had been terrifying, but between the research I’d done and having seen plenty of gruesome job-site injuries, I’d managed to keep my cool. I was well aware of the way he reacted to his family mother-henning him. He didn’t need that from me.

What I could give him tonight was control.

Felix stirred, his long lashes fluttering. He let out a groan, shifting back and forth against me. When he glanced up, his lips tilted into a sexy smirk. “Hey there.”

“Looks like you finally woke up, Sleeping Beauty,” I teased.

“How long was I out for?” He sat upright with a lot more ease than before.

“About two hours. I just started The Mummy .”

He moved away from me and grabbed the paper bag of now-cold burgers. “I’m fucking starving. Sorry for sleeping that long.”

“Pass me one.” I reached out with a hand and readjusted my seat, my legs protesting after being locked in one position for so long. Not like I gave a damn. Every second I got to hold Felix had been fucking worth it. Felix handed me the wrapped burger, and he hunched over to tear ravenously into his. I didn’t even care that the deliciousness of the meal had faded. My stomach was furious for sustenance. I inhaled the burger and snagged a few of the napkins I’d packed to wipe the grease off my hands.

Felix did the same, having already scarfed down his. “So I’ve got energy again, and I’m feeling a hell of a lot better. You said you had something in mind?” The spark in his eyes had returned, and that zapped through my bloodstream like pure epinephrine.

“Yeah.” My heart thumped hard. Ever since Felix and I had started hooking up, an idea had crept its way into my brain and hadn’t let go. “You up for a short drive?”

“Well, now I’m damned curious.” His grin widened, a devilishness to it that made me want to surrender to him every damn time. Maybe at some point I’d be interested in topping him, but right now, I enjoyed this wave of bottoming and didn’t want to change things up yet.

“Come on. Let’s go.” I pushed up from the couch and grabbed my keys and wallet. As we stepped out into the night, the realization cascaded over me. We might’ve entered here uncertain of our relationship, but we were leaving my house…together.

I glanced back to him as we neared my car. “So, I know we didn’t discuss terms or anything…”

“We’ve already been calling each other boyfriends, Cor. We’re just catching up to speed, that’s all.” Felix flashed me a charming-as-fuck grin, and my heart skipped a beat. His black curls were tousled, his dark eyes animated, and his lithe frame emanated a coiled energy I was addicted to.

I nodded and got into the driver’s seat. Once Felix buckled in, I set off. The drive was barely long enough for a song to play on the radio before the all too familiar sign for Anson B. Nixon Park came into view. I’d grown up in Kennett, so I knew every square inch of this park, and I’d long held a fantasy of hooking up with a guy here. Given Felix’s adventurousness, I couldn’t imagine doing this with anyone else.

“Fuck yes,” Felix said. “God, I love your mind.”

“How do you know what I’m thinking?” I put the car in park at the barren lot. “Maybe I’m just finding a spot to fuck in the car.”

“Look, I’d be fine with that as long as I get to tap that ass,” Felix said, his smooth-as-sin voice such a turn-on. “I just want to sink inside you tonight. I need it.” The slight ragged edge to those words struck me square in the chest. As much as Felix put on the bravado, the seizure had put him on uneven footing.

“I need it too,” I admitted. Seeing him spasm on the floor uncontrollably had summoned a bone-deep need for closeness with him. “But I’d rather you fuck me at the bridge tonight.”

“Only if you’re comfortable with me taking my time,” he said. “Unless we’re interrupted.”

A thrill shot through me. We were doing this, and there was no one else on earth I’d rather take risks with. “What are we waiting for?” With that, I cracked the door open and hopped out of my car.

The brisk air swirled around me, but inside, I burned up. The semi in my slacks grew with the mixture of anticipation and sheer lust that being with Felix summoned.

I hadn’t gone a few paces before Felix stepped beside me and intertwined his hand in mine. He’d been doing it from the start of our fake dating schtick, but now…it was real. I didn’t have lingering questions as to what this meant anymore, and the exhilaration that came with it was unparalleled.

“Lead the way.” He stood on his tiptoes and pressed a kiss on my cheek.

Butterflies exploded in my chest. I started toward the trails, which I’d parked close to. In the tangle of the woods, we could get lost in each other’s bodies with no interruptions. The canopy of the trees cast us in deeper shadows, a subsequent chill following, but none came close to touching me. Not with the light and warmth that walking hand in hand with my boyfriend brought me.

That singular thrill rose all over again.

Felix was mine.

I’d thought it would be an impossibility, just some wild, farfetched dream, but somehow, we’d collided together in a way that was perfectly us.

The crisp autumn leaves crunched underfoot, and the slivers of the path illuminated by the moonlight sent a shiver down my spine. I could travel these trails blindfolded, but there was a sense of adventure, of the forbidden at being here after hours with Felix. At the awareness of the filthy things he was about to do to me.

“You know, there could be an ax murderer in these woods,” Felix stage-whispered.

I thwacked him in the side. “Are you that desperate to be watched?”

He snorted. “Truth be told, I’m just desperate to get my hands on you.” He let go of my hand and squeezed my ass, and my erection grew rock-fucking-hard. Hell, everything this man did was a damn turn-on.

Up ahead, the wooden bridge stretched into view, the quiet babble of the brook threading my way.

“Come here.” Felix walked past me to the bridge and waited by the entrance. His stance was steady, and his arms crossed as he watched me approach with a cocky grin on his lips. This was what we both needed tonight—for him to be back in control.

When I got close enough, he grabbed my hand, dragged me over to him, and crowded me against the bridge so my ass rested against the side. He pressed his lips to mine. There wasn’t a single sweet thing about this kiss. No, it was as dark as the surrounding night and filthy in a way that set my adrenaline pumping. He slid his hands around my waistband and undid my belt with a jangle that echoed through the resounding quiet. The zipper of my jeans followed, and he yanked my pants down.

Felix pulled away from me, that wickedness dancing in his dark eyes. The moonlight highlighted his curls, the sinful tilt of his lips.

“Why is it I always seem to have my pants around my ankles around you?” I couldn’t help but tease him a little.

“Talent of mine, I guess.” Those words sent a shiver down my spine. Before I could process them, Felix lowered to his knees in front of me. He licked the tip of my cock, and I gasped, reaching back to grip the rail of the bridge. Felix stared up at me and encircled my cock with his lips. A second later, he sucked me down, tight heat engulfing my length.

Holy hell.

I tipped my head back and let out a groan, even though I needed to stifle my sounds. Pleasure flowed through me in a fierce rush. Felix hadn’t gone down on me before, but I hadn’t needed to rush him. He’d been so enthusiastic about everything we’d gotten into I’d gotten swept along with whatever he wanted to try.

Except this was so damn good—more than I could’ve anticipated from a first-timer at sucking cock. He wrapped his hand around my length and bobbed his head up and down, saliva coating the way. His bouncing curls, his lips around me, fuck, this man was a dream. My balls grew heavy and full, and as he quickened his pace, the surge of a release started to build.

“I’m close,” I cried out.

Felix drew back at once, taking his mouth off my cock. “Well, we can’t have that.” He wiped his mouth with his forearm. “Turn around for me.”

My brows drew together, but I complied, shuffling with my pants around my ankles until I gripped the bridge, facing away from him. My skin prickled at how exposed I felt like this, but anticipation built in my gut until I was panting. My cock was so damn hard it ached, but I wanted his massive length inside me before I came.

However, Felix didn’t rise behind me. No, instead, he spread my cheeks open and bared my hole.

“I’ve been dying to do this,” he said, his voice husky. A second later, his tongue descended. The heat and pressure sent a rush of pleasure through me, and my legs wobbled. However, Felix had just begun. That talented mouth took me apart piece by piece. He lapped and sucked and nipped at the furled skin, and a sob escaped my throat. I clutched the bridge with all my might. The sensations were so strong I couldn’t hold back my moans. Fuck, his careful ministrations felt so damn amazing.

He thrust his tongue inside my hole, and I gripped the rail of the bridge even tighter. Saliva dripped down the inside of my leg, and the feeling of him breaching me like that had me close to bursting. Tension mounted within me, and my balls fucking ached from the torture Felix subjected me to. The breeze caressing my skin was cool, but it didn’t temper the heat burning me from the inside out.

“Oh god,” I moaned, unable to hold back anymore. “Please fuck me.”

He nipped and licked at my hole until my legs trembled. The temptation to reach down and stroke my cock, to give myself that much-needed relief, reared in a big way, but I wanted to come with his cock buried deep inside me.

Felix pulled away, and a wrapper ripped behind me, followed by rustling. I wanted to watch, but I also didn’t want to move from this place, completely at his mercy. So I focused on the stream carving through the woods. The ripples on the surface were silver from the moonlight, and the gentle murmur of the water coursed through my soul.

Felix pressed two slickened fingers around my hole, coating it with lube. His lips brushed against the back of my neck, and a shiver coursed through my body at the sweet gesture.

“Lean forward for me,” he murmured, his lips moving against my skin. His hands landed on my hips as he tugged them back, and his latex-covered cock glided right between my cheeks, already slick with lube. My skin prickled with awareness at how we were out in the middle of the park, how anyone could stumble upon us. Fuck, I loved these adventures with him. How he pushed me past my comfort zone in every damn way. And not just in this. No, he pushed me to speak up.

To make myself heard, even when I’d grown used to falling silent.

And I loved him with my whole heart.

The tip of his cock nudged against my hole, and I bore down to accept him in. His thick length slipped inside me with an ease that had my cheeks heating a little. These past few weeks, he’d fucked me so often I’d gotten adjusted to his huge cock. Fucking craved it, actually. Once he slid inside me, I basked in the fullness I’d been chasing. Goddamn. He gripped my hips tight, and I held on to the railing to brace myself. With the way he’d teased me, there was no way I was lasting long.

“Look at how easily you took me, gorgeous.” Felix slid a hand up my waist, under my shirt, caressing my side. “This hot, tight hole will be the death of me.”

He stayed still, fully inside me, and ran his palms over my skin as if he mapped my body. The cool wind brushed against my cheeks, the tip of my nose, but where our bodies connected, we generated an insane amount of heat.

“Maybe I should just stay in here all night,” he said, his sensual tone curling around me. “Your pretty little hole can keep my cock warm.”

A whimper escaped my lips. Fuck, this man could dirty talk like no one else. Maybe folks had underestimated him in the past due to his slender frame and his medical issues, but he was the strongest, sexiest man I’d ever met.

“Sounds like someone likes that,” he teased.

“Fuck me,” I begged. “Please.”

“All you had to do was ask.” Felix pulled back, slowly dragging his cock against my walls. Pleasure shuddered through me. However, I wasn’t prepared for his push back inside. His cock tagged my prostate, and fireworks exploded behind my eyelids. Fuck, I chased that high because no one filled me like he did.

Felix picked up speed and found a rhythm. Each thrust in had me gasping, had my whole body awash in pleasure. The forest around us was hushed from the arrival of autumn, which made our ragged breaths and mingled moans echo.

He gripped my hip hard and pounded into me with such force my legs quaked. I might loom over him, but he knew how to knock me down at the knees every damn time.

“Fuck, you’re so gorgeous, Cor,” he gasped out. “You fit me so well.”

My heart thumped hard, the rawness in his tone drilling right into me. Sweat beaded on my forehead, and my balls grew heavier and fuller, the tension unbearable. The crispness of the water surrounded me, mingling with the loam of the forest and the light decay of the leaves. All of it elevated me further as Felix took me apart just to build me back up again. He drove into me, and a flare of pleasure stole my senses. A low, wounded moan escaped me.

The slap of our skin meeting echoed, and his thrusts grew a little faster, a little more desperate. The breaths sawed from me, and my eyes blurred from the sting of sweat. I closed them and surrendered to the sensations. To the feel of his hands around me, to the safety he brought—even in the wilderness.

The taut thread inside me stretched tighter, on the cusp of snapping, as he railed me against the side of the bridge, where anyone could see. My whole body quaked under the onslaught of pleasure, and my cock hung heavy between my legs. All it would take was a few quick strokes to send me flying.

“I’m close.” Felix nipped on my earlobe. He thrust in, moving his hips with a piston efficiency that had us both breathless. Every time I thought I could collect my senses off the ground, he fucked into me hard enough to send them scattering.

“Come for me, gorgeous.” He reached around and wrapped his palm around my cock. I moaned long and low. His touch was electric, lighting up my synapses. He gave my length one stroke, two, and I couldn’t hold back any longer.

The taut thread snapped.

My release zipped through me like a bullet through the barrel of a gun. Cum splattered onto the edge of the bridge, and my hole spasmed. White flashed before my eyes, despite the surrounding dark. Sheer ecstasy stole me away, to the point my teeth numbed and my body shook, and I just floated along in that space. Fucking hell.

Felix thrust in a few more times, then stilled, buried deep inside me, and his cock pulsed as he unloaded inside the condom. He sagged across my back, resting his weight against me, and I remained braced at the rail. Our breaths were harsh and ragged in the quiet of the nighttime forest.

“Fuuuuck,” Felix groaned.

“You’re telling me.” An unparalleled giddiness roared through me.

He peeled off my back and extricated himself from my hole, which spasmed in protest. The idea of letting him linger there was something I tucked in my back pocket for the future. My body creaked as I pushed up to a stand after being bent over with my grip on the rail.

Felix tied off the condom and popped it into his pocket. He sank down on the wooden planks of the bridge and rested against the side. “Come sit with me.”

“Might not be as easy for me,” I said, delivering an arch look.

His smirk set off a torrent of butterflies in my chest. I lowered myself next to him, a slight sting shooting through me.

Satiation filled me, a hell of an addictive drug, and I leaned in so our shoulders brushed. Felix inched a little closer until our legs pressed against each other too, and he rested his palm over the back of my hand, threading our fingers together. A bone-deep contentment settled inside me, as quiet and intense as the surrounding night.

“When did you realize you were attracted to me?” I asked, curiosity overtaking me.

Felix snorted, his shoulders giving this cute little jump. “When you got trapped in the changing room, trying on your suit. Fucking random because I’d seen you shirtless a million times during drills, but something in my brain clicked.”

I shook my head and tugged at my beard with my free hand as if I could hide my stupid grin.

“How about you?” he asked.

Embarrassment flushed through me. I remembered the moment as clear as day. I tilted my head back and stared at the canopy of darkened branches and leaves, glimpses of the night sky peeking through. “You showed up to the sword fighting class, and when we were pairing off for drills, you walked right up to me and said, ‘Hey, big guy. Think you can take me?’”

Felix’s eyes gleamed with amusement. “Little did we know…”

“I love you.” The words slipped out unbidden, and his hand tightened over mine. He tipped the side of his head on my shoulder, just leaning against me, communicating with his body—the way he had been before his mind had caught up.

From the start, we’d been two magnets drawn to each other, destined to end up together. I stared out at the forest ahead of me, at the curving creek that trickled over stones. Illuminated by the scraps of moonlight, it left jagged edges, like it clawed its way across the landscape. And maybe that was a little of what we all did. Just tried with all our might to leave our marks. To find the person who made us feel like we mattered.

And even though it had taken some time, I’d found mine.

Felix’s words came out hushed, ones I’d never get tired of hearing. Ones I hoped to cherish for the rest of my life.

“I love you too.”