Chapter 11

Mav

Yes.

Logically I had known that would be Eli's answer since everything he'd just said was proof that he needed me as much as I needed him, but hearing the word released the stranglehold I had on my emotions.

I would get this moment with him. This one night.

It would be enough to sustain me when I was forced to let him go for good. Because I wasn't foolish enough to believe Eli really wanted me . He wanted something I could give him in this moment…escape, relief, the ability to forget – I wasn't really sure which and I didn't care. But eventually he would do what all the others had done and turn his back on me. He'd be kinder about it, of course. He'd say he was too busy with school or family or he wouldn't say anything at all and I'd be forced to watch him silently withdraw from me.

It didn't matter because long before that happened, I'd figure out how to do what I hadn't been able to these past three days – walk away from him.

I managed to use one hand to work Eli's shirt off of him before I lowered him back down to the bed. But unlike before, he didn't look tense and on edge. Instead he just lay there and let me have my fill of him. He was definitely a lean guy, but he also had considerably more muscle definition than I'd expected. I'd had the sense to turn on the wall lamp next to the bed before I'd climbed into the shower so even as darkness fell outside, I could still make out his features and the warm hue of his bronzed skin. I let my hands skim over his sides and relished in the way he sucked in his breath as I touched him. I teased his nipples a little bit before I leaned over him and ran my tongue across one of them. Eli let out a gasp and then I felt his fingers thread through my hair. He held on to me as I nipped at the turgid flesh before turning my attention to the other one. I explored the rest of his torso with my hands and quickly followed with my tongue. By the time I reached his belly button, Eli was squirming beneath me and trying to guide me farther south. I dipped my tongue into his navel before letting my mouth drag over the bulge that was still covered by his jeans.

"Mav," Eli grunted as he tried to increase the pressure where I was nuzzling him.

"Take yourself out," I ordered as I sat up and reached behind me to work his shoes and socks off. There was no hesitation as Eli fumbled to get his pants open. His cock was so hard he had to gently pry it free of the confines of his pants and underwear. I helped him work the clothes completely off, but was careful not to touch him. Once he was naked, I knelt between his spread legs and reached down to lift them so they were bent at the knee, his feet flat on the bed.

"Show me where you want my mouth," I said softly as I began stroking myself through the athletic pants I'd thrown on after my shower. The loose fabric did nothing to hide my erection and Eli was clearly more focused on it rather than my words because he didn't react at first. When I stopped stroking myself, Eli lifted his eyes to mine in confusion and I repeated my order. His cheeks flushed with color even as his hand reached for his cock. He fisted himself and began slow drags up and down his shaft as his eyes fell back to my hand which I was once again rubbing along my stiffness. I didn't miss how he matched his strokes to mine .

"Where else?" I asked after I let him play with himself for a good minute. Pre-cum leaked from his crown and stuck to his abdomen in glistening, sticky streaks.

Eli's eyes flipped up to mine again and his mouth parted as if he were going to say something, but he didn't. His hand tentatively dropped lower until he was cupping his balls and gently rolling them in his palm. I was having trouble staying on track because the sight of him playing with himself was a thousand times more erotic than I could have imagined. I lowered my own pants to free my cock, but ignored the rock hard flesh for my own balls.

"Where else?" I managed to ask as Eli began brushing one finger back and forth over the soft flesh just behind his balls. Since I wasn't expecting him to actually do it, I nearly swallowed my tongue when Eli's long fingers disappeared into his crack. I was about to reach for him so I could split him open to get a better view, but he surprised me yet again when he lifted his legs up and folded them in on himself, exposing his hole and the fingers that were gently massaging it. I forgot about my own aching dick and lowered myself so that I could run my tongue over one ass cheek, then the other, never taking my eyes off the sight of Eli fingering himself. I reached up with one hand to gently pull his fingers away, but instead of replacing them with mine like I was tempted to do, I stuck his fingers in my mouth and covered them with saliva. Eli let out a little moan as I sucked on his digits just a bit before placing them back on his eager hole.

He needed no instruction on what to do next. I kept licking closer and closer to his opening as he began pushing one finger inside of himself. I glanced up long enough to see he had managed to brace himself with his free arm so he could watch me watching him. I'd been with plenty of guys in my time, but I'd never seen someone so lost in their pleasure before. The intimacy of what was happening, the taboo aspect of it, either didn't register or he didn't care because he didn't hesitate to keep working his finger farther into his body. I began placing little kisses on his hand as he fucked himself and when he needed more moisture, he eagerly sought out my mouth. By the time he had two fingers jammed deep inside his body, I was humping the bed looking for some relief of my own. I finally dipped my head and began running my tongue in circles around his stretched opening and the second Eli pulled his fingers free, presumably to add a third finger, I stiffened my tongue and stole into his quivering entrance. Eli's reaction was instantaneous. Besides the hoarse shout that exploded from his lungs, his still wet fingers clamped down on my head and fisted in my hair until it was nearly painful.

I feasted on Eli's ass like a starved man and when I finally pulled my tongue free of his trembling body, his hole was stretched wide. I quickly wet my fingers and pushed one inside of him. His muscles instantly clamped down on the digit and he shoved hard against my hand, trying to get more inside. Since my finger was as far in as it could go, I added my middle finger to the mix and twisted my wrist back and forth until Eli was whimpering for more. He used one hand to hold his leg back so I would have room to work while his other hand was frantically jerking at his cock. I kept up the motions with my fingers as I leaned down to lick over his balls. Eli let out a swift curse and bucked up against my mouth, impaling himself even farther on my fingers. His feet were flat on the bed and he was using them to leverage his body to get the angle and depth he wanted and needed. I sucked each of his balls into my mouth and played with them for a while as I eased off on the finger fucking, but when I spit out his balls so I could suck his dick into my mouth, Eli screamed my name and snagged me by the hair again. He fucked my mouth without reservation which was a clear sign of how close he was so I swiveled my fingers until I found the knot of nerves I was looking for deep inside of his body. The first stroke over his prostate had him freezing in place. The second had him letting out a loud moan that was definitely mixed with a couple of desperate pleas. The third one had him shooting into my mouth as his ass clamped around my fingers with so much pressure, that I barely managed to keep from spilling my own release on the bed.

The orgasm tore through Eli to the point that he had absolutely no control over anything he said or did. My head hurt in the best way where he was holding on to me as he continued to try to ram his dick down my throat as far as he could even after the last of his seed had left his body and his inner muscles were clenching and unclenching around my fingers as pulse after pulse of pleasure washed over him. When the climax finally released him from its grip, his whole body went lax and instead of holding my hair in a brutal grip, he began stroking it softly back and forth. I kept my fingers inside of him as I gently cleaned the proof of his release from his softening dick. When his inner muscles finally eased their stranglehold on me, I carefully pulled my fingers free of his body. I lifted up and climbed up Eli's body and just stared at the dreamy expression on his face. He pulled me down for a kiss and I felt his legs wrap around me as we made love to each other's mouths. I loved knowing that even as tired and as sated as he was, he still wanted me close.

My own body was tight with need and while my plan had been to get Eli worked up again before I actually fucked him, Eli clearly had other ideas because he kept shifting his hips so that my hard cock was sliding through his crease, grazing over his hole. At one point my cock hit his opening just right and I actually began to push into him a little bit before I could stop myself. It was only when I told Eli that I needed to ready myself that he actually released his hold on me and I couldn't help but smile and kiss him for that. It felt like forever before I managed to strip off my pants and search out a condom and lube from my bag which was on the floor next to the bed. My fingers struggled to get the latex on even though it was a task I'd done countless times before. I glanced at Eli to make sure he was still okay and was surprised to see him watching me with rapt fascination. With his splayed legs open wide in invitation giving me a teasing glimpse of his reddened, fluttering entrance, I nearly dropped the condom all together. I actually had to take my eyes off of him to focus enough to roll the condom down my painfully sensitive length. I slathered lube on my shaft before adding some to my fingers. I crawled up Eli's body, settling my fingers at his opening and covering it generously with lube before wiping my hand on the bedding .

"Tell me you want this," I said as I placed the head of my cock against his slick hole.

Eli reached up to tenderly push my hair behind my ear. "I don't have the words to explain how much I want this," he whispered.

My heart constricted painfully at the open emotion in his eyes. He'd been brutalized by so many and so early on in his life, but all I saw was complete and utter trust when he looked at me. He'd meant exactly what he'd said.

I sealed my mouth over his as I began to push forward. Eli bore down on me and let out a huff of air when my cock finally began to breach his tight body. His fingers bit into my upper arms as his muscles tried to keep me out and he couldn't stifle a small cry of pain when the outer ring gave way. I held myself still to give him time to adjust and as he tried to catch his breath, I brushed kisses all over his face and mouth.

"So perfect," I whispered over and over again. Eli's eyes were closed, but every time I said the word, he smiled just a little bit and when his body finally relaxed and began to suck me in, his lips sought out mine for a deep, sweet kiss. As badly as I wanted to sink into the tight heat enveloping my aching cock, I kept up the painfully slow pace of rocking gently back and forth into Eli's body until my balls were finally pressed against his ass.

"You okay?" I asked. My own body felt like it was on fire and Eli's lush brown skin was glistening with sweat. He was wrapped tight around me and was physically shaking, though I knew it didn't have anything to do with pain or fear. Because I was in pretty much the same boat.

Eli managed a nod. He was the first to move as he pulled his hips back just a little before sliding them forward. I groaned into his neck at how good just that little bit of friction felt, but I resisted the urge to pound into him. I would let Eli control the pace for as long as he needed.

It turned out that he didn't need long because within a minute of rocking against me, his movements became more desperate. With my weight pinning him to the bed, there was only so much freedom of movement for him .

"Mav," he begged. "Please."

"Please what, baby?" I asked as I licked away the sweat that had formed around his parted lips.

"Fuck me," Eli managed to say and then his mouth was fastening over mine. I'd never been so physically close to a man as I fucked him, but the idea of even separating the slightest bit from Eli was unacceptable to me so I slid my arms beneath his back and hugged him tight as I took over. I would have liked to have gone slow, but there was just no way as my dick surged through all the tight heat that was fisting it like a second skin. And with Eli's little grunts of delight in my ear urging me on, I didn't stand a chance. I rocked into him over and over as the lube began easing the way and within a matter of minutes I was pounding into him without reservation, even as our upper halves barely moved as we held on to one another. We didn't kiss or speak as our bodies fed off each other. Besides our breath mingling and Eli's fingers digging into my upper back every time I surged into him, there was very little movement going on from the waist up. From the waist down, the pace was frenetic and raw…almost frantic. I could feel Eli's cock smashed between our bodies, but I couldn't find the strength to reach between us to get him off.

Because I didn't want to risk losing even the little bit of connection it would cost if I moved my hand where it was splayed along his back down to his dick. From the grunts and pants that were spilling from Eli's lips as we fucked, I guessed he might not need the extra stimulation. My theory proved to be correct when Eli began clawing my back in desperation and shouts of pleasure fell from his mouth. In the same instant that he let out a satisfied howl of relief, hot liquid coated my abdomen and Eli's inner muscles clamped down on my dick so hard that I went off just like that. Blackness threatened as my balls emptied and electricity shot up my spine and out to all my nerve endings. I called Eli's name as I began shooting into the condom. I drove my cock into Eli as deep and as hard as I could as I tightened my arms around him to keep him from sliding away from me. The force of my orgasm was so intense that my hips rocked Eli's ass up and off the bed, forcing his legs to bend back in on his body in what had to have been an uncomfortable position. But I couldn't have stopped it even if I wanted to.

Because for the first time that I could ever remember, my pleasure controlled me and not the other way around.

The blissful agony rolled through me in endless waves and even after every drop of cum had been sucked from my body, I was still shoving into Eli in a desperate attempt to ride out the orgasm to completion. I'd lost track of Eli's orgasm in the fray, but he was still clinging to me when my body finally began to relax. I recovered enough to finally look at him, but his eyes were closed, effectively shutting me out of what he was feeling.

"Eli," I whispered, almost afraid at what I would see when he opened them.

He shook his head. "Not yet," he said softly.

"What?" I asked as I leaned down to brush my mouth over his.

"I don't want to wake up yet."

I kissed him again, but when I made a move to pull out of his body, he locked his ankles around my lower half to keep me where I was.

"Not yet, okay?" he said, his voice barely audible. "Just not yet."

"Okay," I murmured as I settled my head against his chest and listened to the sound of his still racing heart. I knew I was too heavy for him, but when I tried to even shift some of my weight off of him and to the side, he tightened his arms around me.

I sighed in relief. He wasn't letting me go…yet.