Chapter 9

Jianna

I don't know precisely why I stopped Elio from doing that because I honestly think it was the best thing for me to do. I hated seeing how they were beating up on each other because of me, it made me feel a bit terrible about myself. I could see that they were upset over me and maybe I did do this the wrong way. I might be really attracted to Elio and everything but that didn't mean that I should have jumped into bed with him. Of course, that was my decision to do so and there's really no reason that this would have to turn out badly, but I could see by the looks on both of their faces that they had a problem with one another, and they didn't like it.

I knew that sleeping with Elio wasn't a mistake, but I did hurt Christopher. Our past shouldn't have mattered, and I should have respected him a little bit more even though I didn't want to. It made me feel like I was going to do something wrong, like my time with Elio was just so I could upset Christopher. Maybe it was. Maybe I did this because I knew it would piss him off, but I couldn't be entirely certain about that either. I just know that there's no way that I'm going to let this happen.

"You both need to leave." I murmur, seeing how they both look at me like I had just said something terrible, "I need to think. You two are putting too much pressure onto me and I'm not appreciating it. Christopher, you should have never barged into my home, that was YOUR fault, and Elio, you shouldn't have hit him back. Christopher was just being an idiot. I think that we all need to cool down and I think that you need to just not think about this any longer or I'm afraid this would end up having a lot more."

I toss Elio his clothes, picking up my robe so that way I could put it on and cover my body although I was definitely going to need a shower. Elio looks like I have just betrayed him, a tense expression on his face and he doesn't look like he is happy with the predicament going on right now. I don't know how to make everyone happy, and I need him to see what's going to happen between us. I hate that this is going this way because it is becoming more and more obvious to me that he's not doing something the great way.

"Elio, I'm sorry but I just need to think about this." I murmur, giving him a soft smile, "I do think that we do have a bit of a connection, but I don't want to think about what might end up happening next. I know how I feel, and I know what I want. I know that although we work well, I don't want you fighting with Christopher. They do not deserve that at all."

My heart is pumping hard in my chest because he is looking at me like he wants to do something to me. It makes me feel weird, running my fingers through my hair as I'm trying to push them out of my home. I don't know what's going through his head right now, but it is becoming more and more possible that I'm going to do something a bad way. I guess the only thing that I can do is figure what I want and go from there.

I kind of just hope that Elio can give me that space and he is understanding. I totally get it if he doesn't want anything to do with me though because I kind of just hit and quit it, but I couldn't be so certain. I couldn't even tell him what I wanted even if I was able to. I guess only time is going to be able to tell.

As I'm walking them out of my home, Christopher doesn't look back at me, storming off. I know that he's pissed right now and there's no talking to him when he is like this but that's okay because I'm not keen on talking to him either. I thought that everything would be okay though as I looked at Elio, seeing how he is a bit tense but not like he was earlier. I can only imagine what is going through his head right now, trying to decide what I'm going to do. I honestly couldn't be completely certain because I just know how I feel. I guess one way or another, I'm going to figure it out. I don't know how I feel but I do know what I want, and I know that I just need to figure out what I have to do.

"Will you wait for me?" I ask him, a soft smile appearing on my face, "I know you might not believe me, but I didn't see tonight as a mistake. I think we just rushed into it… I hope that you feel the way that I am feeling, and I hope that you feel the same way that I do."

He doesn't look a hundred percent certain, his lips pursing as he runs his fingers through his hair. I don't know what is going through his head right now and I just know what I want. I know how I feel but I need to just go with the flow and hopefully decide what I'm going to do about this. I just hope that this goes the right way.

"I guess you better figure it out then before I grow impatient." He murmurs coldly.

Before I can think to say anything else he is already walking away from me, and I know then and there that I better figure it out. If I don't, I think that I will live to regret it.