six

six

dear jake

when i used to dream of you, it was this frantic thing

i was trying to reach you

or you were trying to reach me

bobbing around in the ocean, i could see you and then not, pushing against the waves to find you

searching for you in a crowded shop, thinking i saw you and then finding it was just someone who looked like you

being told that you would be at a party and then looking everywhere and not finding you

but last night i dreamt of you

and it was calm

and there you were

we sat on a bench in a clearing between some trees and looked at the stars

and it was quiet

we were together

but there was no panic

no desperation

i was there

you were there

you weren’t going anywhere

we had all the time in the world

to just be

i could feel the warmth of your arm beside mine so vividly it felt real

it was peaceful

like you were coming by to say

hi

don’t forget me

let’s for a moment

or for as long as your subconscious can generate me

be together

sit beside me, my old friend, there is so much to say