CHAPTER 19

NOAH

Yeah, so that happened.

Originally, I had been determined to make Lucas work for it more.

There was absolutely no doubt that I wanted him. Every time I looked at him my cock perked up because it liked what I saw, plus he smells too damn good. He's basically raw sexual energy on legs.

But we haven't known each other that long and I was still getting my head wrapped around the whole ‘mates' thing, so to leap into bed straight away felt like I had no control over anything. Like Lucas was snapping his fingers and I was bending over for him.

Then, after the visit from that seedy wolf, Marcus, something had changed. I could see how it affected him. It shook him and it reinforced the message Drew had given me. Lucas had been waiting for years to find me and my keeping him at a distance, was hurting him.

After that visit, I realised just how much I meant to Lucas and how terrified he was of losing me. It was slightly overwhelming to be so important to someone so quickly, but this was no ordinary situation and he is definitely no ordinary man.

It was hard to wrap my head around the idea of being soulmates with someone. I mean, he knew instantly just by smelling me which, let's be honest, is pretty weird. But I couldn't deny that I felt something for him too. He calls it the ‘pull' and I suppose that is fairly accurate, I feel drawn to him as a person, not just sexually attracted, though there's more than enough of that.

The talk we'd had earlier in the day, sharing our stories about our parents, made me feel closer to him. Spending time around each other without it being sexual, showed me that we were able to connect more on an emotional level and it went a long way to lowering the walls that I had been stubbornly holding up. It reassured me that we had more than just sexual chemistry.

Then seeing him being so great with Felix and Liam had just cemented my feelings for him. I gave up my stubbornness and decided to go all in.

When we'd slipped under the covers, I had an overwhelming need to hold him, to feel him close to me and to reassure him at the same time. Resisting my desire for him ever since he claimed me in the woods, had been more difficult than I'd been willing to admit to myself. But now, I was done with that.

"If you keep wriggling around on it, it'll never go down," Lucas rumbled.

I grinned to myself, taking joy in how much I affected him. "I'm okay with that," I purred, rotating my hips on his knot some more.

Fuck, it felt good. Such a delicious stretch and fullness that was so satisfying. His knot was perfectly positioned to press into my prostate in a way that had my toes curling and when I wriggled around it was a constant pleasure, like that moment before you come, but it just kept going.

He growled lowly and it sent a message straight to my cock. The dominance this man, my man, exuded was the best aphrodisiac. Once I'd stopped resisting this, it was like the floodgates on my desire had been released and I couldn't get enough.

"Very well," he murmured.

Lucas gripped my hip roughly, grinding into me as much as he could with his large knot, then licked his mark. I shivered with delight as he worked my body, teasing me and building up my need again until finally, he stroked my cock and sucked my neck, making me come again.

I was finally spent. My energy depleted and my body being pulled toward sleep.

"That was incredible," I mumbled sleepily, exhaustion making my words slur.

"Mm hm, absolutely perfect. Rest, baby. Go to sleep," he quietly purred, gently stroking his fingers through my hair.

The comforting gesture had me asleep in seconds.

The next morning, I awoke to Lucas' body heat pressed to my back and naked body wrapped around me, literally. His arm was around my waist and his leg draped over my own.

Apparently, unconscious Lucas was just as possessive as the conscious one.

I couldn't contain my little chuckle at that thought.

"What are you laughing about this early," Lucas mumbled then placed soft kisses on my shoulder.

"I was thinking about how you're just as possessive when you're unconscious," I explained with a slight chuckle.

"Damn right. You're my little wolf," he rumbled, rolling me over and pinning me down face first into the mattress. He growled and nipped my neck, tickling me with his scruff.

I laughed, wriggling beneath him in a useless attempt to get free. His weight on top of me was suddenly gone and I missed it.

"I'll put the coffee on then go check the property," he said as he left the room.

I rolled onto on my back, kind of dazed. I thought for sure he would try and have another round but he didn't. Honestly, I was kind of disappointed about that. Last night had been beyond anything I'd ever dreamed.

We'd connected not only on a physical level but I felt the emotional connection between us during it too. I had a vague sense of his desire and pleasure but it was all tangled up with mine and I couldn't make heads or tails of it. I just let it sweep me up in the indescribable pleasure.

His comment about me being his little wolf also took me by surprise. I got a warm flutter and felt all fuzzy when he called me his, but being a wolf, that was a concept I've never once considered in my life. I had no idea how to come to grips with it.

I'd been avoiding thinking about that part and for good reason. I was terrified of the shift. The pain was what really terrified me, all those bones reshaping, the thought made me shudder. It's also the fact that I can't stop it, it's going to happen whether I want it to or not. And I hate feeling like I have no control.

Even once the excruciating pain of the shift is over, I could imagine trying to run on four legs for the first time and clumsily landing on my face. The whole pack would probably see it and I'd feel humiliated too, which would be totally unfair since I've never walked on four legs before.

And what about the sex? Lucas mentioned shifted sex once before and sure, that first night had felt unbelievable, but that didn't mean I wanted to go at it as wolves and I was sure there would come a time when Lucas would want it.

I couldn't deny that Lucas looks stunning as a wolf though. His black fur is so shiny and his gold eyes are captivating. I felt drawn to him even when he was in wolf form. I didn't feel a sexual desire like I did when he was human, but I wanted to be close to him and run my fingers through his fur.

Thinking about that made me get out of bed and throw some clothes on. I wanted to see his wolf again.