13. Shelby

SHELBY

Yeah, she's got those pretty eyes …

" K enley! Wait!" I called after her.

She looked over her shoulder at me, tears still streaming down her face, and turned to face me. I opened my arms and she collapsed into them, sobbing.

"Shhh, it's okay. He's an asshole… not worth your tears."

"I guess it's just you and I now," Kenley muttered.

"I—I," I stuttered.

"Don't you fucking dare."

I watched in shock as her sadness morphed into anger. I was almost afraid to hear what she was going to say. She breathed deeply and then really let me have it.

"You don't get to do that. You don't get to push me away again and walk away from this because of him. Don't you think we deserve our chance at happiness? You're being selfish and stupid right now. We don't need him when we work so well together. I'm worth it. We're worth it."

"But what about?—"

"No, I don't want to hear it. I need to get out of here. Come home with me."

"I—okay. Let's go, Kenley."

I wondered if maybe she was right. After all, there were always Doms looking for subs to play with. Could we do this without Thomas? Did we have a chance? I followed her out of the club and we found a cab. We were quiet as the driver headed to her place. She reached over and I took her hand and squeezed it. I gave her a small smile and wondered why she wanted me to come home with her. Things were so up in the air, I didn't really know what to say.

When we got there, she paid the driver and we headed up the path to her front door. She unlocked it and we walked into her house. The door had barely closed when Kenley pushed me up against the door and crashed her lips against mine. I stiffened for a moment and then melted into the kiss. I opened my mouth to her and her tongue slipped into my mouth. We battled for dominance but she wasn't giving in. I lost myself to the pleasure of the kiss. She broke it off and looked at me, eyes filled with lust.

"Come with me," she said, holding her hand out to me.

Our fingers linked and I followed her happily, still surprised at her dominance. She led me to her bedroom and turned me to unzip my dress. I let it fall to the floor and turned to her, wearing nothing but a black lacy thong. She groaned as our lips met again in a passionate kiss. She walked me backward toward her bed until my knees reached the edge. I sat on the edge and she pushed me gently until I was on my back in the center of the bed.

She grabbed the hem of her shirt and I watched as her tits bounced out, her dusky pink nipples hard. She slipped her thumbs under the waistband of her skirt and pulled it down, taking her thong with it. I groaned when I saw just how wet she was. She climbed onto the bed and crawled up until my body was covered with hers. She kissed me gently and then moved to my neck, licking and sucking, biting down where my neck and shoulder met. I moaned as she ran her tongue along my collarbone.

When she finally reached my breasts, I cried out as she took a nipple into her mouth, sucking it until it peaked. She pinched my other nipple while lavishing me with her tongue. My juices gathered between my legs as she switched to my other breast, sucking on the hard peak. I wondered briefly if I could come just from her attention on my soft mounds.

I didn't have time to dwell on the thought when she licked a path down my stomach. She teased me with her tongue and I let out a frustrated growl.

"Kenley, please."

"Patience," she grinned, knowing she was driving me wild.

She kissed her way down my leg to my ankle and then up the other side. I moaned loudly when she finally reached the place I wanted her most. She ran her tongue through my folds, gathering my arousal until she reached my clit. Pleasure coursed through me as she circled it slowly. I bucked my hips up against her mouth and she grinned against me as she spread my legs further apart and feasted on my pussy.

She slipped two fingers into my tight channel and sucked my clit into her mouth, her tongue flicking against it. She drove me more and more toward my release and I was panting, pushing myself impossibly closer to her. Her fingers pumped in and out of me, fast and hard, as she focused her tongue on my bundle of nerves. When she curled her fingers to drag over my most sensitive spot, I cried out, my climax crashing through me. She continued her attention on me until I came down from my release before licking her lips and moving to lay beside me.

I laid with her, my head against her chest as she ran her fingers through my hair. My body was spent but I knew what I wanted.

"Let's do this," I said softly.

She tipped my chin up and kissed me, my mouth parting to let her tongue in. She kissed me breathless and pulled me close.

"Best news I've heard all day," she grinned.

I fell into a deep sleep, a smile on my face, with her arms wrapped around me.

Kenley and I had been back together for a couple of weeks before we decided it was time to play again. Because it had been so long, we didn't want to involve anyone else yet. I would be Domme to her sub. I booked a private room at the club as we hadn't played this way much and I wanted her to be as comfortable as possible.

"You look hot as fuck in that dress, Kenley, but you'd look even better out of it," I grinned.

Her cheeks flushed and she smiled shyly as she dragged down the zipper and let the dress fall to the floor. I groaned when I looked at her and found her standing completely naked before me, her pussy already wet with need.

"Well, well, well. Someone was feeling naughty tonight."

"Maybe a little," she shrugged.

She threw her hair up in a ponytail and looked at me expectantly. I walked over to her and palmed her breasts, thrumming her nipples with my thumbs. She moaned as they hardened and I smirked as I dragged a hand down her stomach and then ran a finger through her folds. I circled her clit slowly, making her moan again, and then pushed two fingers into her tight channel. I fucked her hard, my thumb still playing with her clit as she clawed at my shoulders. It took only a few minutes before she came explosively, her juices running down my hand.

"Are you ready to play, sub?"

"God, yes, Mistress."

I led her to the spanking bench and quickly secured cuffs around her wrists and ankles. I grabbed my bag and laid out the toys I planned to use with her. I loved that she had no hard limits, leaving me with endless possibilities. I grabbed the leather crop and started with gentle taps on her ass and the back of her thighs to warm her up. I got progressively harder with the strikes until both were a healthy pink. I soothed her with my hands and then landed my hand on her ass with a smack. She jumped a little and I smirked, lacing my fingers in her hair and pulling her head back.

"Color, sub."

"Green, Ma'am."

"Good girl," I whispered in her ear.

I grabbed the leather flogger and swiped side to side on her ass with medium force. She let out a loud moan as I brought it down hard on the back of her thighs. After several more strikes, I grabbed what she referred to as my sting-y flogger and smacked her as gently with it. I grinned as she cried out, knowing from previous play just how much she liked this toy. I watched as red bloomed on her ass as I continued with the flogger. She grumbled when I stopped and I suppressed a chuckle.

Grabbing the cane, I flicked my wrist, a line of red appearing on her thigh. She was striped with red by the time I finished with it and was moaning almost constantly.

"Color?"

"Green, Mistress. So fucking green," she moaned.

This time I did chuckle as I picked up the paddle. She cried out as it connected first with her left cheek and then the right. I smacked her only twice more before setting it down and picking up the last toy, a Wartenberg wheel. I started rolling it up her calf and then over her sensitive thighs. I moved to her hip and brought it down her ass and then over her other thigh and calf. After several times up and down each side, I put it back on the table and then rubbed my hands gently down her back and then over her ass and thighs.

I moved to the side of the table, up near the top, and lifted her head, kissing her softly. I quickly removed the cuffs and then helped her up. I wrapped my arm around her waist and she slumped against me with a quiet moan. I led her to the couch, sat down, and pulled her onto my waist. She leaned her head against my shoulder and sighed. After a few minutes of me cuddling with her, she sat up and smiled.

"That was amazing, Shelby."

"Yes, it sure was. You did so well."

I froze at her next statement, no longer as sure as I had been a second ago.

"I don't think we even need anyone else to play with. You're more than enough."

At that moment, it was clear she'd forgotten I was a switch and could never be fully satisfied with this. I just held her close and let my mind wander until our time in the room had run out.

"I think I'm going to head home, Kenley."

"Oh. I thought I was going with you," she said, clearly confused.

"I've got a bit of a headache. I think I'm just going to go to bed."

"Okay, I hope you feel better soon."

She pulled me in for a kiss and then I left, my mind still going a mile a minute. I crawled into bed and pulled the covers up. I loved being with Kenley. She brought a joy to my life that I had been missing but this was only going to work if I was able to be a submissive sometimes. I fell into a restless sleep, thoughts of our evening plaguing my dreams.

I spent the next morning trying to figure out what to do. I wasn't ready to talk to Kenley about this but I needed to talk to someone. I decided there was only one person who would be brutally honest with me and brought up Sasha's info on my phone.

Shelby: Hey, Sasha.

Sasha: Shelby, it's been a minute. How are you?

Shelby: I'm okay. Actually, I'm not really okay. Do you have a few minutes to talk? I could use some advice.

Sasha: Sure, lay it on me.

Shelby: You know what's been going on with Thomas, Kenley, and me, right?

Sasha: I know you three have been going round and round trying to decide what's going to work for you but I don't know what you landed on.

Shelby: Well, Thomas is out. Kenley and I decided to give things a go but we hit a snag last night.

Sasha: Of course you did. What's happening?

Shelby: Well, we played and it all went really well until afterward. She agreed that play had been amazing… and then said we really didn't need to add anyone else.

Sasha: Oh shit.

Shelby: Exactly. I don't know if she just forgot that I was a switch or whether she just thinks I could be happy with this. I don't know what to do.

Sasha: You need to talk to her and be completely honest because, honey, if you're unhappy with that part of your life, you're not being fair to either of you staying in the relationship.

Shelby: Every fucking time we seem to get things settled, something else happens. Maybe I should just end it so we can both find what we need.

Sasha: I can understand why you feel that way but don't you think she deserves a conversation after all you've been through? Give her a fucking chance when she's not coming down from an amazing play session.

Shelby: You're probably right. Thanks, Sasha.

Sasha: I'm happy to help. I hope you can work it out. You guys are great together.

Shelby: I do too. We've come too far to fall apart again. Chat later.

Sasha: Let me know how it goes.

Shelby: Will do.

I tossed my phone to the side and thought about what she had said. She'd been as honest as I'd expected her to be and she was right. Kenley and I deserved to have a discussion about this. I just didn't have it in me right now. I laid back down and slept on and off the rest of the day.

By the time morning came, I knew what I had to do. I had to tell Kenley this wasn't going to work. I hated how the three of us had been dancing around this relationship but, unfortunately, this had to be the next step. I had to end things for both our sakes. I grabbed my phone, ready to take the coward's way out. I couldn't bear to do this in person. Seems the universe was conspiring against me, though, when the doorbell rang and I found Kenley standing on my front porch.

"Oh, thank God, you're okay! I've been so worried," she said, rushing past me.

"What? Why?"

"Because I've been calling and texting you since yesterday morning and you haven't answered. It's not like you at all."

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to worry you, I've just had a lot on my mind."

"Like what?"

She walked through to my living room and dropped on the couch, looking at me expectantly. There was a rock in the pit of my stomach, knowing I was about to blow up her life after almost no time at all. She would never forgive me for what I was about to do.

"I was actually just about to call you when you showed up. We need to talk."

"Shelby," she said, her mouth turning downward, "nothing good ever comes from the words we need to talk . What's going on?"

"I love what we've started, Kenley, but after our last play session, you said you'd be content with just the two of us. I talked to Sasha for a bit yesterday and she helped me come to a conclusion. I'm always going to be a switch. As much as I think we're good together, I'm always going to need more. It's not fair to either one of us to continue in a relationship like that. I want you to be happy and to find everything that you want and need in life. That's not going to happen with me."

"So, we hit one bump in the road and you're just gonna bail?"

"One bump in the road?! The three of us have had nothing but bumps in the road. I'm really sorry, Kenley, but we can't go on like this."

"I can't fucking believe you," she muttered, tears welling in her eyes.

"One day you'll understand why I made this decision."

"I'm never going to understand why you gave up on us so easily."

She stood and walked to the front door, shoulders slumped. With one last look, she walked out the front door and probably out of my life forever. Tears streamed down my cheeks as I curled up on the couch. Club Inhibition had brought misery to my life time and again. I would never go back.