Chapter 45

O ur first game is away, in Boston, and it's the absolute worst time to leave Kendra. I feel like I blew up her world, then left her to clean up the mess. My lawyer is pissed. The organization is pissed. My PR team is pissed. Whit doesn't have to say anything for me to know he's disappointed—it blew up right after I told him nothing would get out.

They've buried four news stories. The players knew something was up when a different producer showed up instead of her. We still don't know what is happening with her job. She's basically been put on a suspension until they decide what to do.

With Whit's approval, I privately explained what happened. I figured if I'm pushing these women to bond as a team, maybe this could be a moment for them to bond with me. While initially disappointed, the team seems elated with the news of Kendra and me expecting a child. I've made it clear that it's not to be publicly discussed and any details relating to Kendra are to be kept under wraps. In exchange for their silence, I've agreed to let them throw her a baby shower.

Now that everyone is on the same page, I want them to stay focused. They've got enough to worry about with the season starting.

I have to prove to the Rogues they need me. Bring them a win and keep my career going forward. I'll still fight for this and for Kendra's job too, but tonight is about this team. We've already gone through the first game's fanfare. My team is back in the locker room, and I recognize the nerves in the players. After a deep breath, I focus my mind. I owe it to these women, who have been busting their asses to get here, to be present and on my game. Once we get home, I can start making phone calls, but tonight is for them.

"When you skate tonight, I want you to remember this is bigger than Boston. This is bigger than tonight's win or loss. Just by stepping out there, you are making a difference. And you did not work this hard and sacrifice this much to feel fear, so shake that shit off. Each one of you deserves to be here. This ground we stand on isn't ours, but that ice sure as hell is. Show the world why you fucking matter."

They've fought tooth and nail to play this game. I've never seen so much passion and drive from every single player. I'm so fucking proud of this team and what they've built. Jeanine glances up to me and nods her approval.

Quoting Shania Twain, Delta shouts, "Let's go, girls!"

I've come to learn that this phrase is the equivalent of "Avengers, Assemble!"

These women are ready.