Chapter 35

Ilay the woman I love down on our bed and slowly unbutton her blouse.

It's taken thirty minutes to get from my apartment complex parking lot to our bedroom since we made out in my car for a good twenty and then in our private elevator for another ten. I feel like I'm floating, my body is thrumming with the need for her touch, the trace of her pale pink fingernails, and the caress of her warmth.

I need to be inside her, fast. But much more than that, I need her to know how much I appreciate everything she is. Her loyalty and resilience to walk with me even through the darkest tunnels of my existence.

"I'm so fucking sorry. Forgive me," I whisper against her stomach. I nip and kiss around her navel before I travel lower and drag her skirt and panties down and over her hips.

"There's nothing to forgive, Jon. I just want you to know, I'll always be a safe place for you."

"You make me feel everything that's worth feeling."

"Show me how that feels," she says on a breathless whisper.

I lean across to dim the lighting in the room. I flick a second switch, uncertain of where I am in my playlist when Khalid's "Better" starts playing through the speakers. Perfect.

"Lie back, Angel." I'm not sure how much time passes, but I know for certain every minute is spent serenading my girlfriend. She comes undone beneath me as I nip and suck at her inner thighs and pussy, enjoying her sweet taste on my tongue.

"Jon," she cries, and I continue to eat her out as her orgasm begins to overtake her body.

"What do you want?" I ask, licking the last of her off my lips.

"Everything. I want it all."

I stand from the bed and push my pants and boxer briefs to the floor. I pull my sweater over my head and unbutton my shirt but leave it hanging open, too eager to get her back in my arms.

She's on her knees over the other side of the bed, her emerald eyes admiring me as I undress.

"Crawl to me."

When she reaches me, I lie down beside her, grab her by the waist, and lift her on top. "Ride my cock, baby. I want to watch you bounce on my dick."

The tight throb of her pussy is overwhelming when she lowers herself, taking every inch of me as she moans and throws her head back.

"Jesus. You squeeze me so good."

Slowly rocking her hips over me, she begins to find a rhythm that sends us both into orbit. "I've missed this so much."She gasps.

"Me too, being this close to you, my soulmate. I never knew how to breathe before I met you, it's like my body has been starved of what it needs." I grasp her hips and sink my fingertips into her soft, curvy body as she continues to take what she wants from me. And I give her everything I have.

"You're it for me. This is everything I want."

"I love you, Jon." Her head falls forward as she comes again and lazily kisses my lips, her body totally sated.

My heart squeezes, hearing those words from her. Words I never thought I'd hear never mind feel worthy of. But I do. Being here, in this moment, feeling everything she is deep in my bones. I know I'm enough.

But I'll never get enough of my dream girl.

"You said you want all of me? I want all of you too, I want to take every part of you. Is that okay?"

She looks down at me through hooded eyes. "Yes."

"Turn around."

Once she's on her hands and knees with her back to me, I push her legs apart and palm my cock. It's already aching in anticipation of taking Felicity in a way I've fantasized about for months.Reaching into drawer of my nightstand I pull out a bottle of lube and squeeze an amount over her ass.

Rubbing it over her with my fingers, she gasps in pleasure. "Deep breaths and relax for me, Angel."

I swipe my fingers through her soaking pussy and as she moans, I use it to massage her. Slowly pushing my finger inside, she begins to buckle under the intense pleasure, so I support her, wrapping my arm around her waist.

"How does this feel?"

"A-Amazing."

"I'm so fucking hard for you."

"I'm ready."

Her green light given, I rise to one knee and slowly begin to ease myself inside her ass. I've never felt anything as tight as the way my girlfriend grips my dick. She moans and gasps as I continue to bury myself deep inside her until I'm seated all the way.

"I love you so fucking much, Felicity." I'm taking her in the most intimate way possible, and my heart swells knowing the total trust she's placing in me in this moment.

Once I'm happy she's comfortable, I begin to stroke into her as I keep a firm grip on her hips. I feel dizzy as the familiar feeling of an orgasm builds at the base of my spine and pressure rises in my balls.

"I never knew it could be like this," she gasps, and I can tell she's close too.

Me neither, Angel.

"I'm right there. I won't last much longer, not with the way you're wrapped around my cock."

"Me too, I'm right…ohmygod. I-I…I'm com?—"

I come on a roar and empty myself inside her as my hips begin to slow their movements against hers.

I'm still fully inside as I pull her gently to my chest, sitting back on my heels. We're chest to back as I place open mouth kisses along her neck and collarbone.

After a few minutes, I pull out and lay her back on the bed. "Wait here, Angel."

She hasn't moved at all when I return a few moments later with a warm cloth to clean her up."That was fucking amazing, baby."

She rolls onto her side, hands tucked under her head, and a satisfied glaze sheens her eyes. "Possibly mind-blowing."

"Yeah?" I chuckle and kiss her forehead. "So, you wouldn't object to a repeat performance of that sometime."

She checks the non-existent watch on her wrist. "Hm, give me about thirty minutes to recover, yeah?"

Half an hour later, I'm not inside her again, much to my disappointment. Instead, Felicity's sitting at the kitchen counter dressed in my jersey and nothing else. I'm making waffles because she said she wanted them, and I'm so whipped for her I slipped out in the middle of the night to grab fresh eggs and syrup.

Watching with fascination, she proceeds to take the biggest bite I've ever seen, and my dick rises when her tongue peeks out and sweeps the trailing syrup from her bottom lip.

"Keep doing that, Angel, and those waffles will be cold before you even have time to finish them," I say as I walk around to where she's seated and scoot her up, sitting her back down on my lap.I take a bite of food directly from her fork and smile at her around my mouthful. The way she brings me to life.

After these past couple of weeks, I just want to be close to her. Especially as I leave the day after next for another away series."How was work?"

There's a proud look in her eyes. "I made a decision today."

I kiss her jaw. "Oh yeah?"

"Mm-hmm, I've decided to sit for the bar exams to give myself a shot at becoming a lawyer."

"Are you kidding me? Felicity, that's fucking amazing. God damn, I'm so fucking proud of you." And I am. I've never been so proud of anything or anyone in my life.

"It's the first step in a long process, but I figure I have to start sometime, right?"

"Does this mean I get to see you in suits, heels, and curly wigs?"

She belly laughs. "That's kind of old-fashioned now, but if you insist, I'm sure I can wear one around the apartment."

I reach down and lightly squeeze her ass. "That's an order, Ms. Thompson." Each time I say her surname it makes me want to change it to mine as soon as possible.

A few beats pass before Felicity turns to me; a sobering look across her face. "Will you start seeing Ben again? I know you've straightened things out with Zach, and you have me and your family, but I really think talking everything through with him would be good."

Placing a kiss to her shoulder, I reassure her. "I see him tomorrow afternoon right after practice, and I need to start being totally open with him. I've held a lot back from you and everyone else about the way I sought the comfort of women, buried myself in the gym, and at times drank myself stupid to numb the pain, but I know I won't go back there now. Adam came to talk to me earlier, and he told me how much I've done for him." My voice cracks, thick with emotion.

Offering me her last piece of waffle, I lean forward and take it. "He's proud of you. We all are."

"I'm so lucky to have you."

"Not lucky, Jon. This, everything you have, the people around you. You deserve it." She pauses and strokes my cheek with her thumb, swallowing me whole with her bright-emerald eyes. "And I'm one of those people who loves you. I love you so much. You've shown me what relationships can be like, shown me that I can follow my dreams, and that a love like this isn't limited to fiction. You are my living and breathing fairytale."

I slant my mouth across hers, and I kiss her. I kiss her with every part of me. I kiss her like she's my life source and I'm hers, and I don't stop until we break apart, both of our chests heaving as we gasp for air."You're it for me, Angel. Beyond you, there's nothing else."

"Even if I can't give you children? I mean, technically I could, but at thirty-nine, I'm not sure I could do it again."

Tucking away a lock of hair from her messy bun, I lean closer until my lips brush her ear and I smile as I watch her skin react to the caress of my breath. "Just in case you didn't hear me the first time, I'll say it again. You're it for me, Angel. Beyond you, there's nothing else."