28. Chapter Twenty-Eight Park

Chapter Twenty-Eight: Park

W e have to be up early the next morning. Even though Spin and I have very few lines in the scenes we're filming today, our characters are present in all four.

Spin acts natural, and I try to, but I can't help thinking about what it felt like to be inside of him last night. God . I totally lost it and pounded him so hard. Spin must be sore as hell today. I want to apologize, but there's no way to fit "I'm sorry I fucked you so hard last night" into any of our conversations during work hours.

The day seems to last forever, with multiple retakes and unexpected interruptions.

That night, both Spin and I are dragging. We have dinner at the hotel with the rest of the cast and crew and then head for our room.

When we're lying in the dark, Spin in his twin bed and I in mine, I decide it's now or never.

I open my mouth to speak, and Spin's mobile phone rings.

"Hello…Hi, Cushion… No, we just got into bed…Yes, he is, and no, we're not. What's going on? "

We were last night, I think, smiling.

Spin is silent for a moment, and I can hear Cushion talking a mile a minute, although I can't make out her words.

"Are you sure?" Spin asks. "It could be something else, right?...Oh. Are you kidding me? That bitch. What do we do?...I'm not going to tell him! You tell him!...Then let Bass tell him, but I'm not doing it. I'm the one who told him we don't like his girlfriend, I'm not going to tell him she's cheating on him. Oh, wait—he's blocked me. Ha! I can't do it."

Although I can barely make out Spin in the dark, I can tell he's removed the phone from his ear to save his eardrum because Cushion's next words are loud and clear.

"I can't do it! I'll look like I'm causing trouble because I still want him. He took my virginity; I won't give him my dignity."

Spin says a few placating words, promises to call her tomorrow, and disconnects.

"You probably figured out what that was about," he says to me.

"Kiet and Daw?"

"Yep." Spin sighs. "Cushion was out with a couple of her girlfriends and saw Daw hanging all over some guy. They got into a black Jag and rode off together. She said the way they were acting, they were obviously closer than friends. She did some digging and found out that Kiet's out of town for the week visiting Khao Yai National Park with Pog—that's his older brother. Frankly, I'm surprised he'd leave Daw that long, but his brother's just come back from three years in Japan, so I guess he felt he couldn't say no. Daw obviously isn't sitting lonely at home."

Spin sounds angry, and I can't blame him. Kiet's given up a lot for Daw, and it sounds like she's cheating on him .

"I know you told Cushion you wouldn't, but are you going to tell him?" I ask.

Spin groans. "Maybe Bass will do it. Or maybe we can get a hold of Pog, and he can tell him."

"He'd probably rather hear it from you or Bass," I say.

Spin is quiet for a few moments before muttering, "I don't know. I'll think about it." He sighs. "I just feel like he'll think I'm saying I told you so. You know?"

"Yeah. I guess I can see that."

I don't mean to fall asleep, but the next thing I know, my alarm is going off. Then it's a repeat of the previous day with a scramble to dress, eat, and be on set on time.

The first scene is filmed by the hotel pool. It begins with just Daeng and Gift's characters, then mine and Spin's enter midway through.

Daeng and Gift have gone from barely speaking off camera to constant bickering, but all that animosity somehow manifests into great chemistry on camera. I thought the producers were nuts to bring Gift in to take Aod's part, but, watching the two of them play this scene where they finally give in to their feelings, I have to admit it was the right call.

The scene is so good, there's only one retake before it's time for Spin and me to take our places. My character and Daeng's are best friends, and it's surreal slipping into character and feeling an entirely different way about him while playing the scene. When we're finished, P'Big takes us to one of the hotel rooms to film a short scene where Spin and I lie together in bed. It feels good having Spin in my arms again. I enjoy kissing him and want to do it again in private. His lips are swollen and pink by the time P'Big calls out, " Cut!"

Later, when we're finished for the night, I mentally run through different ways of broaching the subject of the night before but can't seem to settle on one.

"Tomorrow's the last day of filming," Spin says. He's sitting cross-legged on his bed, scrolling through his phone.

"Yeah," I say, towel-drying my hair, wet from my shower. "P'Big said something about having a bonfire on the beach tomorrow night to wrap up the trip.

Looking up at me, Spin grins. "That sounds like fun."

My heart flips. I suddenly wonder why I'm planning to talk to Spin about our relationship when I can't even define it myself. Maybe I should just wait. Spin doesn't even seem to be thinking about it. Does he want to ignore it? Pretend it didn't happen? Is that what we should do? I don't want to ignore it.

Needing to clear my head, I slip on a pair of sweatpants over my boxer shorts and say, "I think I'll go to the drink machine. Want something?"

"No, I'm good, but thanks," Spin says. Placing his phone on the bed, he stands up. "I'm going to shower."

The machine is two floors down, and I take the stairs, wanting some exercise. I'm putting coins into the slot when I detect someone walking up behind me. Turning, I'm surprised to see one of the SPPT staff members.

"Hey," I say, pulling a fruit drink out of the bottom of the machine and turning around.

"Hi, P'Park. I don't know if you remember, but my name is Fan. I saw the scene you filmed today by the pool. You were so good in it."

"Thanks," I say, starting to move past her, but she puts her hand on my arm.

"P'Park."

I turn to look at her again. This time I notice more about her, like her shoulder-length dark hair and the way she looks shyly at her feet. Taking pity on her, I say, "Was there something you wanted to ask me?"

She bites her lip. "Not ask you, but tell you." She glances up at me and then back down. For a moment I think she's hitting on me, but then she says, "It's not really my place, but Pear and I have become friends, and, well, I know the two of you used to date. Pear still has feelings for you. I just thought you should know. Just in case." Her cheeks flush even darker and then she says goodnight and races down the hall.

I stand there a moment, my drink in hand. I was afraid of this. It's the reason I've tried to be very careful with my interactions around Pear so as not to give her the wrong idea. Shaking my head, I go back upstairs. Spin's out of the shower, and, as I walk in, I catch a glimpse of him standing in the bathroom in a towel, lean muscles on display.

Damn.

Tearing my gaze away from him and stripping to my shorts, I chug the water and then climb into bed, turning off the lamp beside it.

Maybe I should talk to Pear. But wouldn't it be kind of cruel to reject her for the second time? I should probably just pretend Fan never told me.

But what if Fan tells Pear that she told me? Damn, why does everything have to be so difficult?