Chapter 4

Celine

Showing me around the pack, I can't help but notice people looking at me like I am the enemy. I don't know what to make of it, knowing there is no way that I would ever be the enemy, but I think it is because I had attracted Lucian's attention. I shouldn't have known when I met him that he was the Alpha due to the power radiating off of him, but I didn't see it that way. He was my fated mate and that's all I could think about.

I was happy but I was also worried because if my parents did find me, they would be pissed. I hated even thinking about what they might do because I didn't think they would ever accept him. I hate to admit it, but it is the truth. When I see how he looks at me, I know that all he wants is for me to be happy, but I don't know if it is even going to be possible. If we are lucky, maybe, but I'm not so sure how lucky we are going to be.

After a long day, we're finally back at the pack house and we are in his bedroom. He suggested watching a movie together which I was fine with, but I couldn't figure out what he wanted from me. I don't know why he would want someone that he isn't so sure about, knowing it must only be possible if he is accepting me when I could be someone dangerous.

I'm obviously not but how doesn't he knows this?

I mean the worst-case scenario is that we go through this and then who knows what would happen next. I just hope that whatever happens afterwards, we figure it out because I honestly don't know. I lick my bottom lip, feeling a bit nervous as I think about everything. I don't know what kind of game is being played right now but it is pretty obvious to me that I know Lucian is up to something.

"I think that popcorn will be good." He murmurs as he walks into the bedroom with a bowl of popcorn and what looks to be soda, "I wasn't sure what you lied so I grabbed a few. I just hope that maybe we will get to figure this out one way or another. Okay?"

I understand what he was saying but I was a bit nervous. He settles himself in bed next to me, the movie just waiting to be pressed play on. It's kind of scary how quick I am to feel this way towards him but I'm not so sure what to make of it. I don't know what to do about it considering the fact that we are processing our feelings towards everything, but I think that Lucian is trying to win me over.

I'd be okay with that.

He presses play on the movie and I'm just hyperaware of his close proximity to me. It makes me feel a bit nervous, my heart beating wildly in my chest because I know that I want him. I have never felt so strongly about someone before. I already know there's no way in hell that I'm going to just hold back if he tells me that he wants me, but I do also know that I'm okay with whatever might come next. I think that we both have just figured out that there is no way either one of us is going to be alright with being away from each other. If it was up to me, I think I would run but I don't know if I even have the heart to do that anymore.

"I hope you like the movie." Lucian murmurs, his eyes meeting mine as he smiles, "I heard that it has good reviews."

I just nod even though I'm not going to tell him that I have never seen a movie in my entire life. It's not that I didn't want to but unfortunately, my parents were just so overbearing, and they didn't give a damn either. I'm holding onto the hope of what'll happen next, but I am trying to figure out my feelings towards this entire thing. I just hope that whatever happens between us doesn't change a thing.

I really like the movie though; I quickly did figure this out. I'm immersed in it, wondering about what kind of movies are out there. I'm not so sure what to make of it, thinking that something else might come from it but I also don't know either. Maybe something more will happen next, and I do know it is highly possible that this is just a game that we're playing because I don't know. I don't know what I want, and I don't know how I feel.

As I turn to look at him, I can't help but notice that he is looking at me. I don't know the look in his eyes, making me feel a bit nervous because it's like he is going to do something to me. I couldn't be sure though, licking my bottom lip and I saw his gaze following. It's like he isn't trying to hide his feelings. I'm okay with that though, tempted to see what'll happen if he kisses me.

Leaning closer, I know he is waiting for me to tell him no, but it isn't going to happen. His lips brush against mine in a gentle kiss, testing the boundaries. My lips part on instinct, allowing him to deepen the kiss. His tongue moves against mine, making me feel like I've completely come to life. It's like my entire body has just been lit on fire, a soft moan escaping me as I'm completely at his mercy. I don't even know if he realizes what he is doing to me, making me feel really weird about it but there's no way that I'm going to hold back.

He pulls away before I can say anything, gazing into my eyes. I don't know what I'm seeing there but I do know what I want. I can't be certain what'll come from our relationship, but it seems like to me that he is figuring this out himself.

I just have to keep hoping this'll go the right way.