Chapter 4

Mateo

My mate is absolutely beautiful, and I wish that I wasn't so confused about these things. She's beautiful with pixie-cut black hair and emerald, green eyes. She's much shorter than me and on the thin side. She has fair, unblemished skin from her life in the castle. I want to ask her everything, but I can't do that in front of the others. If they know that I am actually interested, that can be used against me.

Although I know Addison is not a bad person, not like her family, I know there's nothing that I can do to win her over. She will hate me by the end of this. It angers me what her family tried to make her do, but I also can't show her sympathy. Why should I?

I have been through a lot in my life, and it was because of HER lineage. If it wasn't for them, I wouldn't be in this predicament and I wouldn't be hurting. I don't understand why the Moon Goddess fated someone like her to me. But her being here is dangerous and the least dangerous place is the cells.

I would have preferred to have her in my home, but I didn't have a choice in that matter. I know that I can protect her in the cells where no one would be able to get to her without crossing through my most trusted me. Everyone knows not to piss me off, and I will do everything in my power to make sure that this is all done before I end this.

I wish that things could be different, but it can't. This battle might end in a slaughter, and it won't be my people. I doubt that she will be able to forgive me for what I might have to do. I don't know if she would be able to just stand by and let me kill everyone that she loves but I also know that there is no way in hell that I'm going to just be able to say no. I can't turn my back against my people and I can't allow them to be taken from my life. I can't let anyone else get hurt because of what they did.

I know that Addison might not have been the cause of her parents choices, but they were the only people that I could think of that would do something like this. It became more and more apparent what they were allowing to happen and how they were letting the Royal guard destroy everything. I hate them and I wish death upon all of them because how could they allow this bullshit to happen? How could they kill innocent people? That's the only thing that I can think of in this moment and it's the only thing keeping me going forward.

"What are you thinking, Alpha?" One of my men asks curiously, folding his arms across his chest, "I wish you would have hoped that you made a decision about what to do with the prisoner. I know the rest of them are getting really antsy about having her here especially after everything that has happened. I hope that you make the right decision and not let your feelings get the better of you."

I want to yell at him because it's obvious he is trying to figure out what I have decided, "unfortunately, I am not yet sure what I want to do. If I decide to spare her life, then that is my choice. She is technically my fated mate and I need to get all of the information out of her that I can."

He does not look pleased, "are you sure this is the right thing? I know she is your fated mate, but you have to realize that this might not be the best thing. She could be a spy or even a distraction. She could ruin everything that we have built, and she might end up screwing us over. She could be everything that we don't need to have in our midst. She needs to be disposed of."

I know they are watching me, and I just glare at each and every one of them, "Don't even think about it. Now that we have met, she can't die, or it'll harm me. And right now, you know that you're going to need me if you want to win this war… Or do you plan to try to overthrow me because I can promise you right here and now that I will dispose of you if I have to. I don't like dealing with people who want to conspire against me."

I knew this was a possibility because I have been dealing with so many people like that. Unfortunately, not much has changed in my life and I doubt it is ever going to change. I'm going to have to do everything in my power to make sure that they don't try to touch her because they might. But they also know not to go against my orders if they know what is best for them.

"I hope that you realize what you're doing." He murmurs, turning away from me, "because when the people learn this, they are not going to be happy. They know what her people have done, and they know that she can't be trusted. You know this."

I just fight the urge to roll my eyes because he is not listening, "have you not been listening? I am telling you that I have a plan and I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that we win this war. I have NEVER let anyone down before."

Everyone knows that I am telling the truth right here and they know that I can't lie. I have no reason to lie due to everything that I have been through. They know that I want the downfall of the Royal kingdom more than anyone and I'm going to make sure that they know it as well.

My heart is pounding because I need to know what is going on between us. I need to know what I'm going to do and I'm going to need to figure out what to do about this. I just sigh and try not to think about anything else because I need to know what to do about Addison. I need to go see her.

Oh fuck, I might be a little screwed in this moment.

I just hope that I can continue to win this war without him.