Chapter 21

CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE

CARTER

Nothing has ever felt as good as having Brendon's fingers inside of me. Which has me beyond desperate for his cock because I know it's going to be even better.

Brendon steadily keeps working on opening me up and adding more fingers into me.

All I can do is groan… and mewl… and pant… as I take what he is giving me.

"You're stretched out nice and wide for me now, but my cock is going to stretch you even further. Is that what you want? Do you want me to fill you full of my cock? Because I think you need it. I think you need to take me as badly as I need to fill you."

All I can do is whine out in desperation as I push back on his fingers. My words aren't coming, but we don't need them. Brendon knows me as well as I know myself. The same way I know him.

With his free hand, Brendon reaches to grab the condom then shoots me the sexiest smirk. "I want you to rock yourself on my fingers and see how far you can get them shoved deep in your hole while I get ready."

I nod quickly, beyond excited to have him getting ready to be balls deep inside me.

I do as he says, rocking back and forth, pushing myself farther down his fingers. I quickly get lost in the feel of the delicious stretch as I work myself over my man's hand.

It's not until I feel a sharp sting fall across my ass cheek that I come back to awareness and stop.

"Damn, baby, it's sexy as fuck to watch you lose yourself like that. I want you to feel like that again, but not until I'm inside you, and you're riding my cock instead of my hand. Got it?"

I can't answer in words any more than I could before, but I show my understanding and beg by wiggling my ass and lowering my chest to the bed.

Brendon lets out a low, slow chuckle that's full of awareness and laced with a bit of pride. It's slightly dark but completely seductive. He has me exactly how he wants me, and he knows it. His confidence is alluring, and his ownership of me, at this moment, is turning me on even more.

I hear him squeeze out more lube and coat his cock with it. The sound makes me desperate. I want to feel him so damn bad. His fingers pull from my body, and I can't help but whine at their loss.

Thankfully, I barely have any time to think about feeling empty when the heavy weight of his shaft taps across my opening. I feel him slide his length up and down before he circles his tip right where I need him.

"This hole… fuck. It's damn near the best thing I've ever seen. I can't help but want to slide in and drive myself balls deep, then grab your hips hard and pound you into next Tuesday. But I can think of only one thing better, and I have to have it. Flip over for me."

I do as he asks.

"Good. Now pull your knees up to your chest and spread them wide." I quickly obey, and Brendon leans over me and claims my mouth. It's deep, but he pulls back too soon and hovers above my face.

"The only thing better than the view I had is this one. I want to watch you as I slide into you. Especially this first time. It will only ever be the first time once, and I have to watch you take me. I have to see and memorize every little detail, so I'll never forget… not ever." Brendon pauses, swallows, and breathes deeply before adding, "This is the last first time for me, C. Do you get that? You're it for me. I'll never want anyone else as much as I want you. I know… I know I'll never love anyone else, C, because it's you… it's always been you!"

I can't help it when a tear rolls down my temple, and I reach up to grab his head. Lifting up, I crash my mouth to his before pulling him back down with me. I pour my feelings into that kiss. Showing him that he's not alone in this.

Still keeping my lips touching his, I whisper, "I love you, B, please… make me yours."

Brendon gives me one more deep kiss before sitting back up.

A shiver of desire cascades over me as he grabs his shaft and circles his tip over me again. The lubed condom is smooth and slick against my hole. I know it's the safe and smart decision, but part of me wants him inside me bare. I feel like I need him to fill me with his load and mark me. To keep part of him inside me as long as possible. I want to have him fill me so that part of him is always with me. Maybe I'll have to talk to him about this new desire later. Right now is not the time.

Soon, the circling turns to pressure. I purposefully relax my body and push out for him, making it easier to slide in.

The thick bulb of his crown stretches me wide and causes my eyes to roll into the back of my head. I try to focus on my breathing, but the euphoria rushing through my veins is almost overwhelming.

"Jesus, you're tight," he hisses out through his teeth once the head of his cock is in.

Each of us takes a deep breath before B pushes the rest of the way into my hole.

Finally, I have him where I've wanted him for so long. He's balls deep inside of me, and it feels so incredibly right. We're finally connected in a way we were always meant to be.

"Fuck, baby, you feel unbelievable around me. You're so warm and tight," he says with his eyes closed and a look of utter bliss on his face.

"I'm gonna become addicted to feeling you around me." He states once his eyes open again, giving me a little smirk. Then his look turns all sexy, dark, and predatory again —and damn does that really do it for me.

"Your sexy little ass is mine now, baby. I haven't even started fucking you yet, but I know I'm gonna want back in here any damn time you'll let me."

"Mmm" is all I can manage as an agreement right now. He feels too damn good for my words to make any sense right now, But I'm still feeling desperate. "Please B… need… more… need… hard…now!"

Brendon smirks seductively as he stares down at me. "Oh really? Is that right? What… you want my fat cock? The one that's right now spreading you wide open for me… you want me to fuck you hard with it? You want me to pound into you... to drive you into the bed until you feel like you can't take any more? To know that you can, and to keep taking you?"

His words are like fire in my veins. My ass clenches around his girth as I pant. I'm barely able to manage a strangled sounding "Yeeess."

It's not enough, though.

Brendon leans over me, placing one hand beside me and grabbing the headboard with the other. Looking straight down at me and meeting my gaze, he only utters one word. "Gladly!"

Before I can even think or take a breath, he pulls his hips back and drives back into me. Automatically, my eyes close, and my head tilts back as the loudest moan I've ever made is ripped from me. The pleasure is indescribable; it's more than I could ever have imagined.

I almost can't hear him as he keeps thrusting in and out of me. "Open your eyes, Carter. Keep them on me. I want to see what I do to you, and I need you to watch me… watch me as we each break apart and are made whole and new again… together."

My eyes are now laser focused on him. All I can do is watch... and feel. There is no room for thought or words in my head.

"Good, now keep them there." That's the last thing he says before he really starts to fuck me. If I thought he was before, I was kidding myself. My man is a beast. He uses everything he has: every muscle, every joint, and bone, and part of him he uses to fuse us together.

I can see it in his eyes. He meant exactly what he said. This is it for him… I'm it… There will never be anything better than what we have… together. Although I haven't said the words yet, I can tell he knows I feel the same. This is it for us both.

I can't help how my body responds to his, each driving thrust down is met with my rocking upwards to meet him. Sweat quickly covers us both, but neither of us cares. We are simply filled with need, want, and desire. Nothing else matters at this moment, just his body and mine.

I can tell that Brendon is getting close, but just as I'm about to reach for my cock, needing the added friction to finally push me over the edge, Brendon lowers his body so my pre-cum soaked cock is gliding against his deep golden brown washboard abs.

The sensation is like nothing else and has me immediately hovering at the edge…

"B," I cry out as my balls tighten, and the tell-tale jolts of electricity shoot up my spine. "That's right, come for me baby, squeeze me hard and take me with you," he shouts out.

It's my undoing. My back arches off the bed, pushing my cock harder into Brendon as my channel tightens around his, sending him over the edge with a roar.

Sweat glistens on his russet brow and pleasure is written all over his face as he lets the high of orgasmic bliss take over his body. When the last of his orgasm dies away, he collapses onto me, completely spent. I don't mind one bit. In fact, I love it. We're still joined, and I can hold him tight to me. He doesn't move for a few heartbeats, panting like a man who just ran a marathon.

"I think we're both going to be getting in a lot of extra cardio from now on," he eventually says, making us both laugh.

Quickly kissing my lips, lifts off of me and slowly pulls out before discarding the condom in the wastebasket by his bed.

I can't help but chuckle as he pulls me into his arms. "I don't think we need to tell the coaching staff about our extra workouts. I'm sure they'd agree it was TMI!" I state, making us both laugh again.

We both grow quiet, but it doesn't last long. "That was… wow. That was the best experience of my life. I've never come that hard before."

"Same," he replies with a smirk. "When you came, your ass was choking my cock so tight I thought I was going to pass out from how amazing it felt."

"I'm glad I'm not the only one who had an out of this world orgasm," I tell him, then press a kiss to his chest.

"It felt so damn good, I'm already craving it again, and I swear… if you give me ten minutes, I'll be ready for another round," Brendon replies in a sleepy tone.

I chuckle and snuggle in closer to my man. "How about we have a nap and see how we feel after that?"

He hums his acceptance before kissing the top of my head, causing me to melt.

Brendon has always made me insanely happy, but this feeling that I have now is so much better.

It has to be love.

I was freaking out about being in love so quickly the other day, but now I don't care. I'm in love with Brendon, and nothing has ever felt more right.