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18. Porter

We've spentthe day with cow shit, and none of us smell the better for it. We need to prep the pastures, so Sully and Wade went out there and gave it a good mow with the rotary cutters, and now me, Bulldog, Big Jimmy, and Randy are dragging the pasture and spreading manure. It's not my favorite job in the world, but it needs to be done. We need to recycle nutrients into the soil. When it gets cold, the nutrients will sink in, so we get healthier soil in the spring.

Randy's been keeping an eye on me all afternoon. Hell, he has since he saw me with Sully a few days before. There's this angry, jealous glint in his eyes that reminds me of a cartoon villain. I've known men like him before, who always have something to complain about and always think they're getting the short end of the stick, and for whatever reason, he's set his sights on me.

I don't give a fuck. Not really. I've dealt with worse assholes than him, but if he causes problems for Sully or Pixie, that's when I'm going to lose my shit about this.

As much as I don't want to admit it, Randy reminds me of my dad, and that thought doesn't sit comfortably in my gut.

"You piss in his cheerios or what?" Bulldog asks, nodding toward Randy. Clearly, I'm not the only one who noticed he's angrier than usual.

"Somethin' like that."

I put my head down and get back to work. That's what I'm here for, not to chitchat or to let it bother me if Randy is having a hissy fit. Unfortunately, the peace doesn't last, and a few minutes later, while we're taking a break, Randy says, "Surprised you're out here. Been kissin' the boss's ass to get out of the shit jobs."

Little does he know that I have, in fact, kissed Sully's ass, though not in years and not for the reasons he thinks. But I don't have the patience for his crap today. "Maybe you should worry more about what you're doing than what everyone else is doing. Seems to me, if you're not getting the jobs you want, that says a whole lot more about you than it does me."

Randy scrambles toward me, and while I wouldn't mind having a crack at him, I don't want to disrespect Sully that way. Still, I square my shoulders because I'm not backing down. Big Jimmy, who's six feet four, grabs Randy by the back of his shirt before he can get any closer to me.

"You can let him go," I say.

"Not a chance in hell," Big Jimmy replies. "Get your shit together, Randy." As he drags Randy away, I hear Big Jimmy add quietly, "You're losing control."

I look over at Bulldog. "He always been this bad?" I can't see Sully or his dad hiring someone with such a quick trigger, but then, they hired me, and there have been lots of stories going around about me since I was last here.

"Nah. I mean, he's always had his issues, but things have been worse lately. He's drinking more too."

I try not to think about that too much. I know what drinking every day can do to a guy…and his kids…because it was done to me, and it never felt good. "Let's get this finished before the sun goes down."

We get back to work, and before I know it, we're back at the ranch house. Pixie comes running when she sees us, and I assume she's going to talk to her daddy, but the little girl skids to a stop in front of me instead. "Storm let me give him an apple! Wanna see?"

"Sure do," I tell her, trying not to make eye contact with Randy. I don't want to be a dick to him, but I'm also not going to keep from seeing what Pixie wants to show me because he might get a hair up his ass about it. If he showed her he cared a little more, I'm sure it would be Randy she went to when she wanted attention.

Randy doesn't say anything, likely because Pixie is with me as we head for Storm. I know it's not me she's choosing over her dad, but more the fact that she's excited about Storm and knows how much I love the horse. "Mr. Bishop tried to feed him, but he wouldn't take it out of his hand. He says he only does that with me and you. He also says we're brats because everyone likes us."

I chuckle. "Well, you, maybe, but I'm not so sure about me. And Sully is one to talk. Everyone loves him." She looks at me, her little nose wrinkling. "What?"

"You called Mr. Bishop, Sully. I've never heard anyone do that before."

Shit. I need to be more careful. It's not something I want to get into with Pixie, so I say, "Race you there."

"Go!" she shouts as she takes off running. I laugh and run after her. I'm not sure if letting kids win is something you're really supposed to do, but I do it with her, pretending I'm trying my hardest and playing like I'm out of breath.

"You're a little cheater."

She rolls her eyes. "You let me win. Even I can tell that."

Well, hell. I wouldn't have called an adult out like that at her age. "Nope. I'm just slow. Now, are you gonna do this or what?"

She grabs an apple from the bucket, then walks over to the fence where Storm is. She doesn't go inside, instead climbing onto the wooden rungs, holding her arm over it, and making a clicking sound with her tongue. "Come'ere, Storm."

The mustang looks up, makes eye contact with us, and for a moment, I think he might not come. When she calls him over again, he takes a step toward us, then another. I can't say if Pixie is holding her breath, but I am. While I'm making progress with Storm, he's still finicky with other people. I'm hopeful he'll take the apple from her. He did earlier, but you never know, and I don't want her to get down about it.

Come on, boy, I say in my head, and he keeps coming, then bends his neck and snaps up the apple from her hand.

"Damn. Don't you go trying to take my horse from me." I wink so she knows I'm teasing her.

"Is he really yours?"

My chest tightens because I didn't even realize I said that. No, Storm isn't my horse. The only thing on this whole ranch that's mine is my truck, small bag of shit, and my guitar. "Nah," I reply.

"I bet Mr. Bishop would give him to you. You're the one Storm loves best."

"He can't just go around giving away horses. That's not really how it works, but thanks, kid." I ruffle her hair.

"Patricia!" Randy yells from over by the barn. "Time to go!"

My spine stiffens slightly. I hate the thought of her leaving with him, but there's not much I can do about it. Pixie is his daughter, and while Randy is a lot of things, I don't think he would ever hurt her.

"Better go," I say. "Storm wouldn't want you to get into trouble."

She nods. "See ya tomorrow!" She turns her attention to Willow, the horse she's most attached to, who's making her way over. "Bye, Willow and Storm!" Then she runs her skinny little legs toward her daddy. They climb into his truck and drive away.

"I don't trust that man," I tell Storm, who huffs in response. "I knew you'd get it."

I return to the other guys. Bulldog and Big Jimmy are coming out of the barn when I get there. "Hey…do me a favor and don't tell the boss about what happened out there with Randy today." It's not that I want to keep things from Sully, but I don't want to stress him out. And I sure as shit don't want him to say anything to Randy, trying to help out but making the situation worse.

"Wouldn't think of it," Bulldog replies. "He's mostly all bark and no bite. He'll get over whatever is bothering him."

I nod despite disagreeing with him. "Anything else that needs done?"

"Nope. The rest of the night is ours," Big Jimmy replies.

"I'm going to get cleaned up." I leave the two of them outside. The sun is going down now, early evening beginning to set over the ranch. The bunkhouse is empty, so I take my time grabbing my shit and heading for the shower.

I'm not sure where Sully went after helping with the mowing—not that it should matter. He's taking care of his responsibilities, just like I do with mine.

Wade is inside when I come out of the bathroom in a pair of jeans and no shirt. Big Jimmy must be in the other shower while Wade is making dinner for us this time. I can't help wondering what they're having in the main house. Does Sully have dinner with his parents every evening, or does he enjoy any of his own meals by himself in his part of the house?

"He didn't say it out loud, but I think the boss was looking for you a few minutes ago." Wade stirs whatever he's got in the skillet.

"Probably something he needs me to do." It's not the truth. I know that, and I have a feeling Wade does too. Sully is the kinda guy who just wants to be around someone he likes, just wants to talk and check in to make sure they're okay. It's how he's built.

"Figured it's something like that. Saw him heading toward his private entrance. Not toward the kitchen with his folks."

I cock a brow, silently asking him why he's telling me that.

Wade shrugs but has a mischievous smile on his wrinkled face. "Just makin' conversation."

"About what?" Big Jimmy asks when he comes out of the bathroom.

"Nothin'," I answer for Wade. Bulldog, Otis, and Jeb come in, the three of them heading for the showers while Big Jimmy joins Wade at the stove. I hang out with the guys, but when the tacos they're making are done, I don't join them eating. When they all sit around the table, I say, "I'm gonna go see Storm."

"You're obsessed with that damn horse," Otis says.

"Maybe he's really going to see your daddy," Bulldog teases him.

Otis pushes him out of the chair, and the two of them start wrestling. These guys are like a bunch of fucking kids sometimes.

I put my socks and shoes on, grab my guitar, and head out. They're busy enough that they don't call me on taking the instrument with me to see the horse. Either that, or they just keep their mouths closed because they're smart.

I don't go to see Storm, though. Instead, I keep my eyes down as I avoid the lights, making my way through the dark corners of the ranch to Sully's entrance.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing, what I plan to even say to him when I get there, but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it. As much as I hate admitting it, don't even want to acknowledge it, sometimes I just want to talk to him, and damned if tonight isn't one of those nights.

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