37. Leah

CHAPTER 37

LEAH

"What's wrong?" Sawyer pulls back with his eyes trained on mine.

"No, nothing is wrong, I just. Before we—" I let out a frustrated breath.

Just fucking say it, Leah.

"I want you to teach me how to give you a blow job." I try to look as confident as I miraculously managed to sound, but I can feel my cheeks betraying me when they flame. The devilish smirk on his face makes my pussy ache even though I've already come twice in the last ten minutes—stupid whore vagina.

"You want to suck my cock, baby?"

Ohhhh my god .

"Yes… If that's okay with you." I tip my chin up but the growl he lets out has me ready to hit my knees.

"Alright, up." He slaps my ass and we stand next to the bed.

He is the sexiest man I've ever had the pleasure of looking at. His body is sculpted to perfection, every single muscle toned in a mouthwatering way. His ink covered skin is tan and scarred from years of ice related accidents and his blue eyes are a striking contrast against his dark brown hair. I could stare at him forever.

He has yet to remove his boxers in front of me, which I'm just realizing is extremely unfair since I'm standing here in my birthday suit. But I'm sure I'll be just as impressed by what's down there as I am with the rest of him.

"On your knees, Dove." I swallow hard, kneeling in front of him. He is unmistakably large, and I'm suddenly worried my previous confidence was misplaced. "Go on. Take them off for me," he commands, noticing the way I'm staring with wide eyes at his length hiding behind the black fabric. I hook my fingers into the waistband and slide the fitted boxers down his muscular hips, suppressing the squeal that threatens to escape me when his cock springs free.

Oh my damn.

My eyes shoot up to his, slightly panicked, but mostly exhilarated. He wraps one large hand around his shaft and pumps his length a few times. Then he guides my hand to take over.

"Open your mouth wide and stick out your tongue." I do as he says and line him up with my mouth. "Mind your teeth and relax your throat." I relax my throat, letting it open wider as I think about how I'm supposed to not let my teeth maul him. Just as the tip of his head lands on my tongue, he reaches down and gently pinches the bridge of my nose between my eyes. All I can do is lift a brow to question him.

"Helps with your gag reflex," he smirks and my pussy clenches around nothing. "It's going to get really messy, and that's a good thing. The more spit that's dripping down your chin, the better. So don't go worrying about being proper with it, alright?"

Cock sucking for beginners—who knew it'd be this fucking hot?

I take a deep breath and suck him into my mouth, letting the precum that had gathered on his tip slide down my throat. I swirl my tongue around his tip, letting the groan that leaves his chest and the intense look in his eyes encourage me. I suck him as far down my throat as I can, releasing only long enough to take a breath before I do it again.

When I wrap my lips around him and start to take him faster, his hand comes around the back of my head, his fingers tangling in my hair. With my hand around his base, my tongue teasing him and my lips and throat working together to take as much of him as I can, I can feel the tension in his grip.

"Just like that, baby. Yes." I've never heard a man groan with such satisfaction before but that along with sucking him off has me dripping wet for him. He's just beginning to guide my head at a steady rhythm, then he pulls back, and I'm left empty.

My heart beats a little faster, wondering if I did something wrong or hurt him somehow, but before the thought can even take root in my mind, he pulls me up to him.

"The first time I come for you isn't going to be down your throat, Dove. Get on the bed." I turn to crawl back on the bed when I feel a hand come down on my right butt cheek. I sit down and face Sawyer, who is stroking himself again, making my whore of a pussy ache for him.

"Lay back,"

Oh my god, okay. It's happening. It's…it's not happening.

Sawyer wraps his hands around my thighs and pulls me to the end of the bed, leaning down to bury his face between my legs again.

"I thought…" I lean up on my elbows to look at him.

"We are baby, but I want to make sure you're soaked and ready for me. So it won't hurt so much,"

Won't hurt so much. Oh boy.

I close my eyes and let the feeling of Sawyer's mouth on me and fingers in me distract me from my own mind. His kisses against my clit feel like magic, and when he finds that one sweet spot, he pulls me over the edge for the third time—allowing me the pleasure of hearing just how wet I am now. He sucks off his fingers, then wipes his chin before kissing all the way up my stomach until he's hovering over me, eye to eye.

"Are you ready for me?"

"Yes." He leans down and kisses my nose before standing up and opening his nightstand drawer.

He pulls out a box of condoms, opening the brand-new pack and for some reason that brings me a sense of peace—knowing they haven't been used yet. He tears one of the packages with his teeth and spits the foil out as he rolls the latex down his shaft. Then he grabs a small bottle of lube, pouring some onto the tip and spreading it out evenly. I tilt my head and he smiles at me as he rejoins me on the bed, spreading my legs to settle himself between them.

"I felt how tight you are, Dove. I'm doing everything I can to make this feel as good for you as it's going to feel for me."

Goodness, he really is perfect.

I pull his lips to mine and he lines himself up to my entrance. My chest grows tight with anticipation as I look down between us, just as his head presses into me.

"Breathe for me, Dove. You can take it." I let out a breath, feeling myself relax around him. "Atta girl, just look at me, baby." My eyes lock with his and when he notices me gripping the bed sheets, he grabs my hand, locking his fingers with mine.

He leans down and whispers in my ear. "Just a few more inches." He kisses right beneath my ear, sending a shiver down my spine. "You're doing so well." His kisses travel down my neck, the electricity from his lips easing the burn from between my legs. Then I feel it, the moment I've taken all of him. The magnitude of this moment hits me full force and tears involuntarily spring to my eyes. He slides out gently, before pressing back into me. It hurts less the second time—my come mixed with the lube he used helping him to slide in with ease now.

"Thank you. For giving me this moment with you, Dove." He leans down and kisses me, and I almost think I'm dreaming. That this can't possibly be happening, after all this time. After imaging this for so many years then mourning the thought of it never becoming a reality after having my heart broken by him leaving.

"Are you okay?" I nod in response. "Can you take a little more?" The pace he's keeping feels like a tease now that I've adjusted to his length, and I'm more than ready for more.

"Yes." With a satisfied smirk, he pounds into me harder, each thrust of his hips hitting a spot that has me craving even more. He releases one of my hands and wraps his arm around my waist, pulling my hips off the bed to slide a pillow under me, before taking my hand in his again.

Holding my hands while he takes my virginity might just be the thing that makes me fall in love with him the most.

Thrust.

Oh, FUCK!

Thrust.

"Oh my god, yes!" I cry out. His pace is punishing in the most delicious way, but his attentiveness is as gentle as ever. His thumbs caress my hands as my orgasm begins to build. My eyes roll back as my body presses into him.

"Eyes on me, Dove. I want to look into those beautiful green eyes while you come on my cock." My mouth falls open with a silent scream as my orgasm rips through me.

When I can't force my eyes to stay open any longer, they flutter shut and he kisses me. Soft but firm—urgent and desperate to be connected in every possible way we can be. He releases my hands to be able to grip my face, moaning into my mouth as our kiss deepens and I think my heart bursts wide open. Completely at his mercy to be broken again but trusting that it will be safe. Then he pulls his lips from mine, slams into me once more and finds his own release.

" Fuck , Leah."