60. Madden
60
Madden
I 'm not sure what wakes me, but I can't have been asleep for more than an hour. The toxic after-effects of another nightmare stay with me as my eyes snap open. I can still hear the screams, smell the blood and cordite, and feel the heat searing my flesh.
I rub my eyes and force the images from my head. That's all in the past now, where it must stay. For a few minutes I lie in the dark, eyes wide open, doing my breathing exercises like the therapist taught me.
Inhale, count to four... hold for seven...exhale slowly... one...two...three...four...five...six...seven...eight...
The anxiety recedes, and my heartbeat slowly returns to normal. When I reach out for my glass of water, I realize it's not there. I must have left it in the kitchen. Fuck.
Can I be bothered to get up?
I need a drink and I hate taking water straight from the bathroom faucet. The filtered water from the refrigerator tastes much better. With a sigh, I throw the covers back and pull some shorts on. I have a feeling I won't be able to sleep anytime soon, so I might as well help myself to some bourbon while I'm there.
The apartment is quiet. Kade's bedroom door is still open, so he's not back. Cin's door is ajar, too, and when I peek in, his bed is empty and it doesn't look like he's slept in it.
I frown. He said he was going for a swim, but I doubt he's still down there this late, so where the fuck is he? He better not be banging some random woman. I will rip him a new asshole if he's up to his usual tricks.
We're supposed to be protecting Tessa and the kids. I debate texting him, but as I pass Tessa's room, I hear something. A faint moan.
Is she having another nightmare?
Without thinking it through, I push open the door and freeze.
Cin half turns and smirks when he sees me. He's balls deep inside Tessa and I'm jealous as fuck. A gentleman would take a step back, close the door, and walk away. Tessa hasn't noticed me yet. If I leave now, she'll be none the wiser.
But fuck that.
I've barely touched her since the night she rode my dick while I jacked off Cin. It all went to shit not long after when Kade arrived and told us Enzo was dead.
I know Cin's had her since then, but not me.
"Daddy's here." Tessa's head snaps up at Cin's teasing comment. When she sees me standing in the doorway, her mouth drops open.
"Madden? I thought you'd gone--" Her eyes widen, and she tries to pull away from Cin but he hooks an arm around her waist, keeping her in place.
"To bed? Is that why you thought you'd leave me out?" My voice is sharp, but I'm not angry. Frustrated and horny, more like, but she doesn't need to know that yet. My girl deserves to be punished for thinking she can have orgasms without me.
I push the door closed and walk over to the bed. Cin looks up at me, still smirking while buried inside Tessa. When I wrap my fist around his throat and yank him back, he soon loses his smirk.
Tessa scoots away and turns to face me, frowning as her eyes flick between me and Cin. "Don't be mad at him. He saw I was awake and came to check on me!"
"Oh, I'm sure he did. Our Cin is always so selfless." She glares at me, not missing the sarcasm in my tone.
"You're being an asshole," she snaps. "Feel free to fuck off if you can't play nice."
"I never play nice, pet. That's not how I roll. Last time was an exception."
"Wh...what do you mean?"
"He likes to hurt me," Cin rasps. He's struggling to breathe because of how tight I'm gripping his throat, but I'm not doing anything he hates. If he wasn't into this, he'd have fought back. But Tessa doesn't know this. Anxiety's etched all over her pretty face and she's on the verge of attacking me to make me release Cin.
"Look at his cock, Tessa. Look how hard he is." I squeeze his neck a bit tighter and his eyes flutter closed. Then I release him. The way he sucks in much-needed air while gazing up at me with adoration is always gratifying.
"He likes it when we play rough."
"Am I not enough?" Tessa looks crushed at the thought.
"No! That's not what he meant!" Cin pulls her into his arms while glaring at me. "He's not explaining things very well," he grinds out. "What he means is that he likes to Dom me. He's a top. With him, I'm a bottom, but really, I'm a switch."
"Switch?" From her slightly bemused expression, her experience of BDSM comes from Fifty Shades, which I made the mistake of reading once.
"A switch is someone who flips between submissive and dominant. With me, he's a sub, but with you, he's happy to take control. Isn't that right, brat?"
"Yes, Daddy." His playful smirk is back. Tessa relaxes now that we've explained how things are between us.
"Cin, be a good little sub and come here. Show Tessa how you suck my cock." Her eyes fill with lust as she watches Cin crawl across the bed and pull my aching cock out of my shorts. "Good boy." The heat of his mouth envelops my crown and I almost groan out loud. It's been too fucking long.
"Do you like watching him suck me, baby girl?" She's entirely focused on the way Cin takes me so deep his nose ends up touching my abs. This time, I can't stop a low groan from escaping. He's too fucking good at this. Then he cups my sac and squeezes and I nearly come on the spot.
Reluctantly, I push him back and he releases me, saliva dripping down his chin. The smirk is still in place, though. He loves to please me, and he knows how much I love it when he sucks my cock.
"Such a good boy," I croon. "And for that, I'm going to fuck you while you fuck Tessa." Tessa whimpers and presses her thighs together. "Lube?" Cin reaches down and pulls a small bottle from his shorts pocket.
"Tessa will enjoy this," he says with a grin. "Just like the book, eh?" I watch as she blushes, and make a mental note to quiz Cin and find out what he means.
Cin moves over Tessa and in seconds, he's back inside her. The pair of them kiss while I lube up my dick and fingers.
I arch over Cin, parting his cheeks and pressing a finger against his opening. He hisses as I breach his entrance but stays still while I stretch him out, so he's ready for me. I know he doesn't mind it when I hurt him, but we need to break Tessa in gently.
"Do it, Daddy," Cin grunts as I prepare to enter his tight hole. I'm so fucking hard, my cock leaking everywhere. It's been too long since I fucked his ass.
We both groan as I press inside, taking it slowly because he's gripping my cock like he doesn't ever want to let me go. Once I'm fully sheathed, I pause to give us both time to get used to how good it feels.
"Ready?" I manage to grit out.
"Fuck me, Daddy," he growls.
Gripping his hips tightly, I slide back out and ram back in so hard he pushes Tessa up the bed. With every thrust, it feels like I'm fucking her by proxy, Cin the filling in our sandwich.
It's the most amazing feeling. This is what I've been searching for my whole life. A woman who accepts that I want Cin too. A woman who wants us both. Who isn't jealous.
I'm not sure I can ever walk away now.
I try to hold off as long as I can, but when Tessa comes, it pushes Cin over the edge. Two more thrusts and I'm falling, lost in blissful release. We collapse in a sweaty cum-soaked heap on Tessa's bed, and all I can do is smile like a fucking idiot.
This is the point where I should leave. Sharing a bed is a bad idea, but I'm too comfortable. So once we have cleaned up and put fresh sheets on the bed, we settle down, Tessa sandwiched between us.
To my surprise, I fall asleep quickly, and when morning comes, I realize I've not had a single nightmare.