Chapter 37

Chapter 37

It was finally happening, Ashley realized while she lay there with her hands covering her face as she found herself alternating between nodding and shaking her head for some reason.

She was ready.

It was time, Ashley told herself as she felt his thumb move over her, teasing her lips apart right around the time that she decided that it was time to start lying to herself. That, of course, led her to tell herself that this wasn’t a big deal. It was just sex. Plenty of people had sex and at forty-five years old, this really wasn’t a big deal.

She was….

Definitely over-thinking this, Ashley realized as she slowly exhaled while she lay there, waiting for Kale to get on with it. That led her to wonder what she was supposed to do with her hands since she didn’t think that covering her eyes was conveying the right message. Maybe she should…she should…

Oh. God.

“Do you have any idea how many times I imagined doing this?” Kale asked on a groan, only to follow that up by tracing her slit with the tip of his tongue again, and since she really didn’t think that he was looking for an answer, she settled for lying there, struggling to remember how to breathe.

Maybe she wasn’t ready for this after all, Ashley thought as she was forced to grab hold of the comforter and…moan when he did it again. When she felt his tongue and god, did that feel good, trace her slit again, she felt her body begin to relax. This was so much better than she thought it would be, Ashley thought, licking her lips on a moan when she felt his tongue slide between her slit and found a spot that had her breath catching and her back arching off the bed.

She felt Kale’s groan as his tongue slid over her clit, sending pleasure through her body. She never thought it could feel this good, Ashley thought, unable to help but moan as he focused his attention on that one spot. He teased her clit, licked it, and gently suckled on it, driving her crazy. She wasn’t sure when she released the hold that she had on the comforter or when she began running her fingers through his hair, moaning his name, but she knew the moment that she screamed his name.

That felt so good, Ashley thought, moaning as Kale slid his tongue back inside her. For so long, she’d told herself that this would never happen, knew that it couldn’t happen and after her transition, she hadn’t allowed herself to think past the fact that she was finally safe. She didn’t want to think about her transition, the changes that came with it, or what the future held and every time she found herself thinking about any of it…

She started to panic.

She’d gone from telling herself that she was fine with the fact that she would never do any of the things that other women her age took for granted, and then, everything changed so quickly. It terrified her, but the way that he was starting to make her feel terrified her more.

She wanted this.

She wanted him.

“Kale,” Ashley said, moaning his name as she opened her eyes to find everything brightly lit up, letting her know that her eyes were silver.

Slowly exhaling, Ashley looked down and found herself looking into Kale’s bright eyes as he slowly slid his tongue back inside her. As she watched him, he slid his tongue in her one last time before running it back up and-

“Oh, my god,” she mumbled weakly as he flicked the tip of his tongue over her clit. It felt so good, Ashley thought when he did it again, making her ache for something more.

“You’re so sweet, mo ghrá,” Kale said, groaning as he ran his tongue over her one last time before he slowly stood up, kissing a path up her stomach as he moved up her body, taking his time while she lay there, running her hands through his hair and over his shoulders, moaning his name. As he made his way to her neck, he reached back and grabbed hold of one of her legs and pulled it over his hip before doing the same with the other until her legs were wrapped around his waist.

“Wrap your arms around me, mo ghrá,” Kale said as he turned his head and kissed her throat.

As soon as her arms were wrapped around him, he was moving her away from the edge as he continued kissing her throat. When her back touched the pillows, Kale was settling between her legs and tearing another moan from her when she felt that large, hard bulge behind his zipper press against the sensitive spot that he’d teased with his tongue. She barely had a chance to moan his name when he began moving.

* * *

He was goingto fuck her.

He’d told himself that he was going to take this slow, take his time learning her body and ease her into this, but as Kale moved against her, listening to the way that she moaned his name as she ran her hands over him, he realized just how fucking close he was to losing control. He’d never come this close to losing control before, never been tempted before, but god, did he want to lose control with her.

For once, he wanted to know what it felt like to stop fucking thinking and let go. He was tempted to release the last hold that he had on his self-control and…

He’d worked too fucking hard to let that happen.

“Kale,” came the soft moan that reminded him of what he had to lose if he fucked this up.

His mate.

As much as he wanted her, and god, did he fucking want her, he would never allow himself to lose control, not when losing control meant losing her. Then again, he didn’t need to lose control to enjoy her, Kale reminded himself as he raised himself off her just enough so that he could reach between their bodies while he continued rolling his hips against her.

It felt so good to move against her, Kale thought as he leaned down to kiss her as he pulled his belt loose. As he unsnapped his jeans and pulled his zipper down, Ashley moaned against his mouth while the scent of her sex became sweeter. He could have happily licked her pussy all day, but he’d been in fucking agony. Every lick of her pussy had driven him out of his fucking mind, causing his balls to pull up tightly and his cock to throb painfully until he couldn’t take it anymore.

“Please,” Ashley whimpered as she moved against him, desperate for relief as he reached inside his pants and-

“Fuck!” Kale ground out as the underside of his cock slid across her wet slit with the next roll of his hips. She was so fucking wet, Kale thought on a groan as he pulled his hips back so that the underside of his cock traced her slit until the tip of his cock was pressed against her slit.

“Still want me to move faster?” Kale asked as he carefully pushed forward until he felt the tip of his cock push past her soft, swollen lips and pressed against the tight little hole that he’d give anything to slide into.

“I…” Ashley whispered, swallowing nervously as her heartbeat picked up and her breaths quickened as the first tendrils of fear reached him and-

“I’d really like to be able to walk normally after this,” she said, surprising a chuckle out of him.

“How about we take this slowly and while we’re doing that, I focus on finding out just how wet I can make that pretty little pussy of yours,” Kale said, pulling back just far enough so that the tip of his cock was once again touching her slit before rolling his hips and sliding the underside of his cock against her as the scent of her fear disappeared and was replaced with that sweet scent that he couldn’t seem to get enough of as she moaned.

“What about you?” Ashley asked, her breath catching as he continued rolling his hips against her, loving the way that her swollen, wet lips felt against the underside of his cock.

“You don’t think that I like this?” Kale whispered as he brushed his lips against hers.

“I did tell you that I’ve never done this before, right?” Ashley asked only to moan when the underside of his cock slid across her swollen clit.

“I believe you’ve mentioned that once or twice,” Kale said, unable to help but smile as he brushed his lips against hers again as the next roll of his hips had her breath catching.

Nodding, Ashley murmured, “Good,” only to follow that up with an, “Oh, my god!” when he pulled back, letting the tip of his cock slowly tease her slit.

“Would it make you feel better if I told you just how good this felt?” Kale asked, kissing his way down to her throat.

“I mean, it probably wouldn’t hurt,” she murmured absently as she spread her legs wider for him, making it easier to rub his cock between her swollen lips.

“Your pussy feels amazing against my cock,” Kale whispered in her ear, groaning when he heard her breath catch and her body began to tremble beneath his. “I can’t get enough of you, the way that you feel, the way that your breath catches every time I slide against your swollen little clit, the way that you’re coating my cock, and making it so fucking easy to-”

A scream was torn from Ashley’s throat as Kale moved faster, pressing a kiss against her neck with a moan as pleasure tore through his spine. She felt so fucking good, Kale thought, grinding his teeth as he forced himself to move faster and harder against her, making sure that he was grinding his cock against her clit with every roll of his hips. Pleasure tore down his spine and traveled the length of his cock, making the already sensitive tip feel so fucking good as he pressed one last kiss against her neck before he raised his head and…found himself looking into a pair of bright red eyes as memories that he’d fought so hard to forget slammed into him and-

Had him struggling to get away from her.

“Kale?” Ashley asked, struggling to catch her breath as he stumbled away from the bed.

Unable to look at her, Kale shoved his cock back in his pants with trembling hands, grabbed his bag, and headed for the door, needing to get out of there and-

“Izzy’s in trouble,” Jacob announced as soon as he opened the door.

“Kale?” came the hesitant whisper that had him grinding his jaw as he closed the bedroom door behind him and forced himself to walk away.