80. Kassian

Chapter eighty

Kassian

Tuesday, February 20, 2024

A s I lie in bed, my mind swirls with thoughts that are seemingly coming from every direction.

I can't stop worrying about Aiyana, wanting to comfort her but also knowing she needs her space more than anything. I've been heading to the hospital to see her dad during the day while she's at work, and it seems he appreciates the company. I also hired a cleaning service to help Zuni out around the house, and I went over to cut the grass once. It had gotten a little long despite the cold weather, and I didn't want them worrying about it.

My heart tells me I need to do something, make a move, or just do anything really. I just need to be heading in the right direction with her, and that isn't happening at the moment. We've become stagnant, just as I thought I was winning her over. It's like the other night when she cried in my arms, she released me with her tears.

My brain, on the other hand, tells me that she needs her space and she'll come back to me in due time. But what does that even mean? What happens if her dad doesn't get a transplant in time? She'll fall apart and refuse to let anyone support her? That doesn't sound like an option as far as I'm concerned.

Giving up on sleep, I grab my phone and text Ale.

Hey man, could we meet for a drink or something after the game on Friday? I need some advice.

Alice

Yeah, of course, I hope I can help with whatever it is.

Alice

To be clear, this is about Aiyana, right?

Yes…

Alice

Good, because you need to lock that down for everyone's sake.

I'm not prepared to get into what that means.

Alice

Goodnight Narvaez.

Night Alice.

Opening another message thread, I text Aiyana because I can't seem to help myself.

Let me know if you need anything. I miss you.

Little Viper

Miss you too.

Goodnight my little viper 3

Little Viper

Night Kas.

I log into Amazon and browse for items I can overnight to her. I know she's in the middle of her period right now, so she probably needs provisions. I send her a ton of snacks, chocolate, and a new set of Bluetooth headphones so she can zen out to her erotic audio. When I'm done, I finally pass out, waking every so often from nightmares about her leaving me forever.