1. Kassian

Chapter one

Kassian

Friday, November 10, 2023

" Y ou gonna be a good girl for Daddy and suck my cock dry?" I say to the woman currently on her knees, taking me to the hilt, sputtering around my cock. She's attractive, with pretty dark-brown eyes, and she definitely knows what she's doing with her mouth—but the woman I'm really imagining on her knees is Aiyana. I can't get her out of my head, and it's been years. Years since we first started messing around, always careful to never tell Kat. Years since she moved to the other side of the country. I'm certain Kat would have been fine with it, but Aiyana insisted otherwise, so we kept it a secret. Kept us a secret. If there even was an us.

She's sucking me off like a damn vacuum; I've got my fingers in her hair, pulling her to me, urging her to go deeper. She taps on my thigh three times, signaling for us to stop, and I release her immediately. "Sorry, Kas, I don't think this is working. Is your head somewhere else?" she asks me, head cocked to the side in question.

I deflect. "It seems my head was just in your mouth, baby girl." I try to laugh her off, but she gives me a knowing look. Sheila and I have been doing this song and dance for a few months now. She's a really sweet person with a serious daddy kink, among other more taboo ones, but this has always worked for us. We both want casual, so this arrangement has been good for both of us. It's also been a sick sort of self-induced torture because Sheila looks strangely similar to Aiyana, but no one is as gorgeous as her. No amount of similarity will ever account for the snarky, sarcastic woman I've come to love… and lust after. She lands in a few short hours, and my skin is prickly with anticipation. Will she want to try this out? Give a relationship with me a real shot? Do the whole friends-with-benefits thing? Or pretend we were never anything at all and just move on without me? The possibility of never calling her mine has my heart clenching with agony.

I finally answer her waiting stare. "I'm sorry, Sheils, her flight lands in a few hours, and I'm just so nervous, I'm not in this." I gesture between us. "I can get you off real quick though. I just don't think I'll be able to finish. Not with so much on my mind."

She pats my thigh before standing and picking up her clothes, talking to me while getting dressed. "You've been pining after that woman for so long, of course you're not in the right headspace for a quick fuck," she says as she bends over, pulling her jeans up her tan legs. "It's all right, Kas; I really don't think you have anything to worry about though. You're a great guy, and you share a lot of history with her. I'm confident you'll make it work."

She's dressed in light-wash denim jeans and a white lace bra, searching for her sweater as I get up and start dressing myself before answering her. "If I'm such a catch, why aren't you interested in anything more than my dick?" Again, I'm deflecting. A relationship was never on the table for us.

She rolls her eyes at me, calling me out immediately. "Kas, you don't want a relationship with me, and I don't want one, period. You know that, and you're deflecting again. You are a great guy, but you know I've got another three years of medical school before I can even think about a relationship. If all I thought you were good for was your cock, I wouldn't be interested in your long-lost love with the beautiful Aiyana." I swear I hear her mutter "dumbass" under her breath as she finishes getting dressed.

"Now come give me a hug because this is probably the last time we'll see each other." She's laughing at me, and I engulf her in a tight hug, resting my chin on top of her head.

A few moments pass, and she's pulling away from me. "All right, I've gotta head out. I really hope you get the girl, Kas. I'm very invested in my doppelganger's love life, but protect that big heart of yours."

"Will do. Thanks for understanding," I tell her.

"Anytime, Daddy." She lets out a loud cackle, heading out the door and calling over her shoulder, "Bye, Kas! Good luck!"