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Chapter 17
Before
I’m a little girl sitting in the darkness, frightened as her gran sobs unseen on the living room floor. It wasn’t Gran’s tears that frightened me. And it wasn’t the dark either. I was afraid of myself, of my infinite capacity for understanding things too late.
The sobbing stops. I can’t see Gran, but I hear her shuffling about. Then footsteps, the familiar creak of the vanity in the washroom, the sound of rummaging.
“Gran?” I call out.
“I’ll be right there,” she answers. “Stay where you are.”
More shuffling and footsteps. A raspy swish.
“Let there be light,” Gran says as she places a lit candle on a side table and begins to light the others at her feet, placing them at intervals throughout the room. The effect is wondrous, the entire room cast in an enchanting glow.
“Where there’s a will, there’s a way. I lost my will for a moment, Molly, but it’s back. Tea?” she asks.
“The power is cut. The kettle won’t work.”
“We still have ice in the freezer, at least for a while. I can make the cold kind.”
She grabs a candle and heads for the kitchen. She rummages about as I sit motionless on the floor, listening to her humming as though all is right with the world. She emerges a few minutes later with a candle, two tall glasses, a pitcher, and some biscuits on a silver tray.
“Tea for two?” She places the tray on the living room table, sits on the sofa, and pats it.
I take my place beside her.
For the rest of the evening, we drink iced tea and eat biscuits. We cannot watch David Attenborough or Columbo, so Gran regales me with stories of fairies and princesses, lords and ladies, maids and servants who work downstairs. At some point, I feel my eyes closing. A hand wraps around mine and guides me to bed.
My gran. She was always like that. She always found a way to ignite hope. And what is hope if not the decision to shine light into the dark?
—The next morning, the sun is up and candles aren’t needed even though the electricity is still cut, no hot water in our apartment either. I wash up with cold water, a cat bath, as Gran calls it, even though there are no felines in our apartment.
On the way to the Grimthorpe mansion, I interrogate Gran. “What are we going to do about the rent? What if Mr. Rosso never turns the electricity back on? What if we have to live in darkness for the rest of our days?”
“Not to worry, Molly. Your gran has a plan.”
When we arrive at the mansion, we stop at the gate as usual.
She presses the intercom, but instead of saying hello and requesting entrance, she says, “I’m coming to the watchtower.” This is highly unusual. She’s never gone to the watchtower before, that impenetrable fortress that stands guard over the Grimthorpe mansion just a stone’s throw away from the gate.
There’s a buzzing sound, and the gate opens.
“You wait here a moment,” Gran tells me.
I nod, confused, but trusting that Gran knows best. She walks along the wrought-iron fence to the watchtower, then enters through a door I never even knew was on the far side. What for? Why is she going in? What is she doing?
I bide my time by the gate counting the pointy spears on top of the fence line. Just when vertigo begins to ripple the ground at my feet, Gran exits the tower and starts walking back my way.
She pauses when she reaches me. “I’ve received an IOU,” she says in her singsong voice. “I’ll have the rent money later today. Which means power will be restored. Let there be light.” She lays a gentle hand on my back, then guides me up the path of roses toward the mansion.
As we walk, I try to process the news, but I’m having trouble putting the pieces together. “So, who gave you the rent money, Gran?” I ask.
“The gatekeeper,” she replies.
The invisible one, the man of mystery in the tower? “Why would the gatekeeper lend us money?”
“Because there are still some good eggs left in this world, Molly. There’s one in that tower. He’s been watching over us this whole time.”
I glance behind me at the three-story pillar of cold, gray stone with the tinted windows from which anyone can look out but no one can look in. I decide then and there what I must do.
—I spend the morning polishing silver in the pantry. Mrs. Grimthorpe enters at around eleven-thirty to survey my work.
“That will do,” she says. “You may go upstairs and read quietly.”
I leave her, then go up to the library, where I grab Great Expectations and arrange myself on the chaise longue. No sooner am I seated than I hear a click and see light flow onto the floor through the crack in the wall. The shuffle of slippers, the Oxford dictionary moves, and a moment later, the wall of books opens, and Mr. Grimthorpe stands in the threshold, grinning from ear to ear.
“Pip,” he says. “Where have you been? I haven’t seen you up here in days. I’ve been hoping you’d appear. You really are the child prophet, the young soothsayer, she-who-knows-all.”
“I know nothing,” I reply. “With each passing day, I know less than before.”
“But you gave me the answer,” he says. “I’ve been struggling for ages, and you offered the solution—the lye solution. The end is nigh, Pip. I’ve almost finished my latest novel.”
I stare at the rickety man before me. His face is glowing like the Fabergé on the mantel downstairs.
“Really?” I ask. “You’re done writing your book?”
“Almost,” he replies. “The lye and the maid. Both of them were your ideas. You figured it out—how a body can be there one moment and be gone the next. Dissolved. Disintegrated. Disappeared. Invisibility and absence, the impact left behind. It will take me a few more days to scribble the last words, but I’m nearly there. And I think I’ve done it. I think I’ve earned a new place on the literary shelf—in perpetuum.”
He begins to pace the room. He picks up a black monogrammed Moleskine and his fountain pen, scrawling something in it with big, loopy strokes. His angular body is different today, transformed. His knotted asymmetry, his sharp angularity—everything about him is intensified, sleek, and purposeful, like a panther on the hunt.
Rat-a-tat-tat-tat.
There it is again. The typing, clear and resonant. The lady in blue must be in her office, and wherever that is, she’s busy now, typing up the ending to the great writer’s new work.
Since Mr. Grimthorpe is in such a buoyant mood, I decide to take my chances. “Mr. Grimthorpe,” I say. “Where is your secretary’s office? I see her enter through the side door every day, and I hear her typing away, but never once have I seen where she works.”
“Not looking too closely, then,” says Mr. Grimthorpe. He claps his Moleskine closed and flashes me a lopsided grin.
“She never walks around the mansion,” I say. “Sometimes I wonder if she’s real.”
Mr. Grimthorpe chortles out loud. “Oh, she’s real. She’s definitely real.”
I have no idea what’s funny, but I’m grateful his humor is holding. He strides over to where I stand in the threshold of the library. “Nothing can touch me today, Pip,” he says. “I could walk on water. I feel the way I used to before I quit drinking, back when my first book hit the bestseller list and I was on top of the world. Today, I’m capable of anything.”
Just then, I hear Gran calling up the main staircase: “Ten minutes to tea!”
Mr. Grimthorpe hears her, too. “She used to come up here and sit with me every day. Did you know that? She’d listen if I felt like talking. Through the worst of it—the shaking and the sweats—she’d regale me with stories. She’d distract me during the darkest days. Now she barely comes up here at all.” Mr. Grimthorpe licks his lips, his tongue darting across the ivory of his teeth before disappearing into the cave of his mouth.
“If you need my gran, why don’t you just go downstairs?” I ask.
He nods and smiles his beguiling grin. “Good idea, Pip. Maybe I will.”
“I have to go now,” I say.
“Ah yes, polish and shine. Restore everything to a state of perfection, my wife’s futile endeavor to preserve the illusion of a perfect marriage and a perfect husband, the two things she’s never had. I’ll let you in on a secret, Pip: the bloom never lasts. Nothing gold can stay.”
“I have to go now,” I say. “There’s something I need to do. Goodbye, Mr. Grimthorpe.” I reach out and push the Oxford dictionary. The wall of books closes, and Mr. Grimthorpe disappears behind it.
I don’t have much time. Gran will no doubt call for me yet again. I rush into the corridor and tiptoe down the front stairs. I grab my shoes from the vestibule, slip them on, then turn the front doorknob and sneak out the front door, closing it soundlessly behind me.
I skip down the path of roses, beyond their best bloom now, their necks heavy, petals dropping onto the cobblestones. As I walk, I search for a specimen that’s not yet faded and spent. It takes some time, but eventually I spot a dark crimson flower hidden deep in a thicket, its petals unfurling into its zenith of splendor. I reach my arm into the prickly brambles, ignoring the sting of thorns until my fingers find the stem that feeds the last resplendent rose. I pinch the stem and crack it, then pull the flower from the dense brush. There are scratches up and down my arm, red pinprick tracks, but that doesn’t matter, because what I hold in my hand is worth it—a fleeting treasure, the last specimen of this year’s crop.
I walk the rest of the path with my rose carried gingerly in both hands. When I reach the wrought-iron gate, I press the intercom button just like Gran always does. I speak into the little slats.
“Can you hear me?” I ask. “Can you see me? I am Molly, Maid-in-Training. Over and out.”
I wait for a response. Nothing. I look out at the watchtower, then push the button again.
“Whoever you are, I know you helped my gran and me. You lent us money for our rent. I think that’s very generous. I just wanted to bring you a gift,” I say. “And to tell you myself: thank you.”
A click, the sound of static.
“My dear girl, you’re most welcome,” I hear.
I look again at the watchtower. The tinted windows reveal nothing, but that doesn’t stop me from holding up my rose to the man in the tower before leaving it on the ledge by the intercom.
I bow deeply, executing my very best curtsy in his direction. Then I hurry up the path of roses and back to the mansion.
